Chantilly, I am so sorry to hear about your Mom. My Mother passed away January 4th and I feel your shock. You are not alone, as I am sure you can see. Talking about how you feel with help you to feel connected to people for understand whoat you are going through. I too had to make the difficult decision not to intervene and let my Mom go, as she too did not want to be hooked up to machine. It is more difficult than anything else I have had to do yet. For me, the shock is just starting to wear off and I am dreading February 4th, it would have been her 81st Birthday. I was going to write today about how bad a day it is but when I saw your post it helped me to realize again that their are others out there who understand and are also suffering. Hang in there and know that we are all here for you whenever you need us.