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Mary, I hear you and I can tell you are hurting too, I wish for you some peace tonight and thank you for talking to me. It helps so much to know that people understand me and what I'm feeling. I thank all of you that have responded, I feel close to all of you. Love, Pam

And if I hear one more person say, "Harv is in heaven smiling down on his grandbaby." I may scream. I know they mean well, but HE SHOULD BE HERE

Thank you all so much for your words, mine and my husband's first grandson was born early this morning. I just wish so much that Harv was here to meet him. I'm so blessed to have this precious baby in my life, but all I feel is so sad. I am trying not to show it, but it keeps slapping me upside the head. This feels like it will be a long night. I wish you all a peaceful night. Love, Pam

Not doin too good right now, just got thru feeding horses, chickens and watering the trees he bought me for my birthday and our anniversary. I don't know how my heart can hurt so much and continue to beat

Dave, I'm so sorry for your loss and I thank you for your compassion. It does help to know there are others who understand my pain. I keep remembering everything I told my mom when she asked, "how do I go on?" I would say one step at a time, one day at a time. I should have said one minute at a time, because that's really how it is. Peace to all, Pam

Thank you Mary, I have close family and friends, but when I'm feeling down, I cannot bring myself to call anyone. I keep thinking, what if they're having a good time and I bring them down? I also lost my dad on June 13th of this year and Harv held me many times as I cried. But, now I forget about dad being gone as the pain of losing Harv is all-consuming. I never thought my mom and I would become widows within three weeks of each other. Peace, Pam

I lost my husband of 34 years on July 4th, 2011. It was totally unexpected, three days after he had a blood clot in his leg and was administered a heparin drip and suffered a massive brain bleed. I was 18 and he was 21 when we married. We have 2 sons, our oldest has CP and is profoundly Deaf, our youngest is married and our first grandson will be born August 5th. We were so looking forward to this grandbaby and it breaks my heart that Harv will not be here to meet him. My story is no different or sadder than any of yours and I have cried along with all of you while reading your stories. I miss him so much and still cannot believe it's real. I'm having a hard time blocking out the memory of him being in so much pain before he was medflighted to a bigger hospital. That was the last time he was conscious, but he was in such pain. I'm just having such a hard time imagining my life without him in it. Thank you all for sharing your lives and peace to all