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No I haven't lived alone before. And I'm not the youngest. Have been thinking seeing a grief council. A co worker is going to therapy for his lost. He recommended me his therapist. But I guess. I just have to Get the courage and pick up the phone.

I work for a hosipital and there's been a few times that I saw a patient that looks like my dad. When that happend I kept passing the room to try and take a look. My older sister just told me a wk ago, she saw a men that look so much like my dad. She says she wanted to take a picture of him.

My brothers and sisters call, text me. But it's not same as when my parents were alive. My mom was over procted of me. Bc I have a heart condition. She was always afraid of something worse would happend to me. I rearly didn't cry at her service. Bc she told me not to cry. My sibilings however brook down. They ere all concern about I how I would re-act. But I just kept myself busy trying to take care of my father. They said i'm strong how I handle my mom death. But really I feel sad. : ( I dream once about my mom and once about my dad. Sometimes I see people that look like my dad. When my parents were alive I, re-sign of my job of 3 yrs. To help take care of them. I was out of a job for almost 6 months. Now I work night shift and I tend to work a lot. Always picking up overtime. Just to keep me busy. And keep my mind off things. What makes it hard for me is, I saw my mom took her last breath and hold her hand. She was placed in Hosipic of the Valley. On her death bed I promise her that I will learn how to drive. (didin't know how to and she was the one who drove me around and pick me up,) a monther after my dad passed I got my DL. I'm going to be 30 in oct. I feel like I need stop thinking about the past and mover farword. And start meeting people. But bc my mom sort of kept me shelter that had a little effect on me. And I guess I'm sort of scare of change.

My name is maria. And I lost both my parents in 2011. My mom passed in April, than May my dad passed. I was extremely close to my mom. (I'm 29) she was always there for me. Sometimes I think to myself.she going to come back. (Don't know if anyone feel that way about their lost loved one. ) I also realize, I think about her more than my dad. Sometimes I catch myself talking about my mom as if she still alive. There are planty of times that I feel alone. Even though I have a big family. But dont have a family of my own. .I lived with both of my parents. Which at the time of both their death. Were divorced but still live with each other. At this moment me and my family are still dealing with my dad estate. (2 probate in 2 countries) Which makes it all overwhelming. I think because we are dealing with his estate. Seems like I can't move forward in life. I became the deed of my dad house. (Which I'm living in at the moment. ) There are times I want to sell it bc, its a lot to deal w it. And my little brother is not much help. But my family doesn't want me to. Especially if its paid off. Since my parents death. My brothers and sisters hardly come by the house. We do still have family gatherings. But they don't come like they used too. I really do miss my mom. : ( I have been thinking going to therapy. Just to talk about it. But a bit sacred. Both parents passed from cancer.