My brothers and sisters call, text me. But it's not same as when my parents were alive. My mom was over procted of me. Bc I have a heart condition. She was always afraid of something worse would happend to me. I rearly didn't cry at her service. Bc she told me not to cry. My sibilings however brook down. They ere all concern about I how I would re-act. But I just kept myself busy trying to take care of my father. They said i'm strong how I handle my mom death. But really I feel sad. : ( I dream once about my mom and once about my dad. Sometimes I see people that look like my dad.
When my parents were alive I, re-sign of my job of 3 yrs. To help take care of them. I was out of a job for almost 6 months. Now I work night shift and I tend to work a lot. Always picking up overtime. Just to keep me busy. And keep my mind off things. What makes it hard for me is, I saw my mom took her last breath and hold her hand. She was placed in Hosipic of the Valley. On her death bed I promise her that I will learn how to drive. (didin't know how to and she was the one who drove me around and pick me up,) a monther after my dad passed I got my DL.
I'm going to be 30 in oct. I feel like I need stop thinking about the past and mover farword. And start meeting people. But bc my mom sort of kept me shelter that had a little effect on me. And I guess I'm sort of scare of change.