Gin

everything is so hard without my Al.  He was my third husband and the joy of my life for 16 years.  First one wanted out after 31 years and 4 children.  I met the next one at a church support group. Married much too soon.  He had lots of mental problems.  Took his own life after we were married  a little over a year.  Then after 5 years, Al came into my life.  We were everything for each other.  Did everything together and adored one another.  Now at 76, I lost everything.  I have friends and some family, but that one special person is gone. It is hard to face living without him.  Memories do not bring consolation.  I miss him even more when I think of all the good times that are gone.  It is so hard, but we all have to struggle and survive.

I feel your pain.  My husband has been gone 2 months and it is terrible.  No reason to even get out of bed in the morning.  I do not like the living room because we used to sit together in the loveseat.  Don't like the other rooms either.  Wonder if it will get better.  

Gin

I agree.  It is so hard.  My first husband and I divorced after 31 yrs. and 4 kids.  After meeting someone at a church singles group,. We married.  Too soon.  He ended up taking his own life, which was horrible!  I was alone for 6 years and met the love of my life on line.  He lived close to where I worked.  He was so kind, nonjudgmental, creative and affectionate.  I was so fortunate to be married to him for 15 years.  I so miss the closeness, hand holding and love.  He just turned 80 and had lots of medical issues. I know how you miss your husband.  Mine has been gone for 2 months and it is not getting better.  I am hoping that with support of the kind people in his group, we will get better and WANT to live productive lives again.  Maybe we can help others in the same situation.  Hang in there.

gin

Holiday is so hard.  Husband's absence is so felt.

I am having such a hard time with guilt.  I keep thinking that I should have seen something that I could have reported to the doctor.  

He was seeing an internist, cardiologist. Pulminologist, vascular surgeon, but nothing seemed to help.  He just got weaker and weaker.  I spent his last two weeks in the hospital with him.    Sorry, this is my first time and I do not know how to do this