Hello maryy, I too am sorry to read of these 2 deaths that you are grieving. I am sure that being away from home and without the support of your family and friends makes the grieving much more intense. Healing from the loss of any significant relationship is a process that takes time so even though it has been a year, that can be quite normal. Is there any opportunity for you to connect with your family and friends in your home country? Would it be possible to arrange this so that you can talk about both of these losses with them and share with them how you are feeling and the difficulties you are experiencing?