Thank you so much kayc. I so appreciate your kind words. Thank you for the video, it made me cry of course, but not in despair. I will read the articles you sent, thank you for those too. I'm very sorry for your painful loss. I try to think that maybe there is a reason my Lexi went the way she did. That maybe she was headed into sickness and I wouldn't be able to fix her. That maybe a long road of pain and discomfort lie ahead. I want there to be a reason for this tragedy. I thank you again for replying to me. I will look at the articles and post about them later.
Thank you Marty. I appreciate the articles. I'm struggling with guilt. If only I would have taken that empty box of cereal out to the trash, she would be here. I struggle with her death being possibly extremely painful and agonizing. That is what makes the weight on my chest so very heavy. I feel so much guilt. And I miss her desperately. I am lost.