hi everyone. my golden boy Dexter was a 7year old dog, full of life and love and suddenly became ill with cronic kidney failure. and colitis. i miss him so much its been 2 months and i cant stop thinking about him. he was my best friend and companion. i was in a bad place when i decided to get him as a pup and from the first moment we bonded it was truey special. i know everyone says that about their pets but he just made such an inpact to my life and now his gone i just feel completely lost, no anchor with out purpose. i keep busy and managed to function but i just feel empty without him. the time goes by and it seems to hurt more somedays. im trying to not think about him all the time and look at other things but the pain comes back and it floors me. i felt like i let him down intially as he was so fit and suddenly ill, my neighbours have been harrassing me and i felt sure they done something but that was just awful so i called the vet who as put my mind at rest. i still struggle to think how well he was one day and then so poorly.