Today around 00.30 midnight. I accidentally killed my Oreo.
I did rescued a total of 8 kittens that I found on the streets. I lost 4 of them due to fading kitten syndrom.
One week ago, my youngest kitten got sick and weak. So I was trying so hard to give every kitten I have the nourishment and vitamins they need. And I did focus only on the youngest. Giving her first some food before the other ones that is already healthy.
Then, while I was trying to distract the other 3 kittens and 1 adult cat and trying to lead to our garden so that they can have their snack there without disturbing the little one.
It happens so fast and I accidentally step on one of my surviver cat, Oreo.
I panicked when I realized what just happened. I picked him up, and the blood was already everywhere.
I came in and ask my friend for some help. After some minute. My kitten was already gone.
I saw how my dog was trying to bark on my kitten and the look of the other kittens too.
I was trying so hard to buried my kitten but I couldn't.
I am devastated, guilty, and my mind couldn't stop mesmerizing all the memories I have with Oreo.
He is my survivor and I am deeply sorry that I did took his life with a tragic death.
I cant stop crying because this is the first time I got blood in my hands. That I am the one who took my beloved childs life. (every pet I have is already my child)
I feel that I am on the edge of being traumatized of this accident. My kittens and I loves to be on garden and I dont know if I can still able to finished fixing it, with the thought that my kitten died there.
I really do need a honest advice. Can you please help me?