Hi. I am going through one of the hardest things in my life. I lost my bf of 2 years unexpectedly.I’m 28 he was 29. I loved him so much. He was in the army n had 5 days left before he was moving. I was so sad but we were going to try to make it work long distance. He didn’t want to leave me and I knew he was depressed over it but he wound up doing drugs and was with someone who didn’t care about him and took too long to cal 911. Not only was I shocked he was entertaining drugs bc I had no idea, the shock of his death, the disappointment of him doing that & the shock of just speaking to him all morning expecting to see him the next day and it all gets turned upside down.
It’s been about a month now, and I still feel so alone and empty. My friends n family are great supporters telling me I’ll be ok and get thru it, but I have never felt so alone in my life before. My best friend, my rock.. just gone. Now I am being forced to adjust to this new life and it’s scary and I don’t like it. I feel lost and alone. Internally so alone.all I want to do is be with him. He was my safe space, my #1 fan, my king. I’m trying to stay positive but it’s just been so hard. I feel very zombie like living a life rn that I don’t really enjoy.
