AllyNoble

7 months today I lost my son .. I dont think I can go on anymore ,.. I am struggling to even get out of bed for work .. my boss is giving me hell ... feels I have had enough time to "get over it" .. I cant do anything right .. dont even feel like doing the housework .. I just cant face tomorrow All I can think about is going to see my darling son ..

This was a poem written by my sons friend.. I am amazed at how many people he touched in such a short life.. the amazing things people have told me - I knew he was a special person .. grr i cant get used to using past tense about him .. (its almost like i expect him to walk in the door) .. even some older guys from the bowls club have given me extraordinary stories about how wonderful and helpful he always was .. Last Words Why do some journeys start? Why do some journeys have to end? You weren't just my brother, you were my best friend. My last words to you, were the same as yours back to me, and I just can't help wondering, if some things are meant to be. I can't describe the pain, the pain I feel deep inside, I've tried to see your pain and suffering, and daniel, how I've tried. Your mum lived and breathed for you, and you had a very special bond, but she can't help feeling hurt, she just can't help feeling wronged. I remember the time when you helped me thru this pain and you said if this happend to you id be okay, and maybe you knew me well, but daniel this time im going thru hell. You didn't know the value of your life, maybe you do now, now that you've gone, out of you a warmth radiated, out of you, your love brightly shone. And now all we have left, are your memories, the old times we use to drink together, and that heart sinking feeling that you get, when you realize that there's no turning back. And amy has missed you, I believe you will always regret the last night you had, but clocks, they only go the one way, and the only feeling left is pain. You are now free of your pain, but not so for those that you've left behind, we're left with the agony of loving you, and at times that logic is hard to find. You had so many wonderful qualities, in fact, too many to individually list, you were such a good, kind, loving person, and you really are very deeply missed. You'll be free from the suffering and the pain, but each day knowing that your gone gives me so much pain, because your still here in spirit which isnt so bad, no matter what anyone says you still remain the best friend ive ever had. And the message I'd like to pass on, Daniel was my best friend. when a close person to me died Daniel hugged me n told me that he knew i was strong, much stronger than he was and that id get thru it and he told me if the same thing ever happend to him he knows id get through it!! daniel knew me really well but obviously not well enough to know that im still not handling his death! I will always love you daniel!!! R.I.P DanieL CharleS NoBLe! By Lisa Miller!!

My daughter is 16 her brother was 17 when he was killed in July, as we live where there is no other family she had to be the 2nd id for his body .. she wont talk .. its like he never existed.. i have tried getting her to councilling but no joy she isnt interested .. the counsellor told me to just be here for her when she needs me and that she is taking her cues from me .. but I am really worried that if she bottles this up it will compund later Im not so sure I am right .. can anyone shed some light please

The school my son attended opened a memorial garden in his honour recently .. at the time I was a little ofended that they didnt ask me if it was ok but now I understand how wonderfully helpful it is for his friends .. they planted his favourite plants and fruit trees and a plague was placed .. mean sthe kids have somewhere quiet to go to think and also enjoy flowers and fruits whilst there

this is going to sound really crazy but .. how do you know when you are doing this right? i almost feel like i am in limbo .. cant even make myself think of my son .. its wierd .. people say the strangest things .. im not angry .. i cry occassionally its not even like i am living i kind of do things by rote

thankyou for your kind words .. it is now 11 weeks and I am still no closer to finding the answers I seek I am not coping well with the feelings I am having .. I have never wanted to hurt anyone before .. I find myself hating the guy who was with my son which goes against everything I have ever believed in .. we have since found out that they jumped on the train AFTER my son fell on the track .. I still dont know what kiilled my son .. what injuries he had .. im in kind of like a limbo .. everything happening round me and im not participating .. people dont understand i can have a few good days then a few bad days .. its just so confusing .. im not sure im doing this grieving thing right .. geez i probably am not making a lot of sense .. Im not sure I can do this anymore .. I think the people on the train i catch to work think im nuts .. my boss doesnt understand that some days i just have to get off the train and have a break before continuing on to work The train company paid for my sons funeral and i have heard all sorts of things that make me think there is something being hidden from me I have been told im eligible for compensation but im not sure i want money for my sons life the inquest was postponed .. so still i wait for answers the rollercoaster gets better then speeds up again .. like i have no control anymore well i have probably bored u all enough

Thank you for allowing me to share this .. mine has only been 10 days but I can relate to what you are saying .. everything is still so surreal for me .. like he will walk in the door any moment

Teenager crushed under freight train By CHLOE ADAMS and CAMERON SMITH 15jul03 A TEENAGER paid for his first real mistake with his life when he was crushed under a freight train early yesterday. Daniel Noble, 17, of Albanvale, tried to follow two other young men who jumped from a platform into an open carriage as the train passed Sunshine station about 12.30am. Daniel's mother Ally said he was a kind-hearted boy who enjoyed lawn bowls and wanted to be an actor. "He was just one of those kids you like first time," said Ms Noble, of Albanvale. "He was always there to listen when someone needed to talk." Ms Noble said she believed her son met two men, 18 and 24, at a pool hall just hours before his death. She said she believed they were drinking together. "They weren't his regular friends. His close mates are so angry. It's just such a waste," Ms Noble said. It was the second train accident involving teenagers in less than a week. On Thursday, Gavin Slipais, 15, suffered critical injuries when he jumped from M>Train's Melbourne-Frankston service when confronted by ticket inspectors. Sen-Sgt Mick Barry, of the police transit unit, urged young people to be cautious near trains. "Both incidents have been very tragic," Sen-Sgt Barry said. "It tells me some of our young commuters need to take more care. We don't want to see them get injured, or worse." The three young men were seen on the Sunshine platform by the two drivers of the 900m freight train as it passed through about 15kmh. After the train had cleared the station, the drivers realised they were no longer standing on the platform. They alerted staff at the Sunshine signal box who called police. Police stopped the train at Craigieburn station, where two of the men were found sitting inside an open wagon. They were not concerned about Daniel because they thought he decided not to jump aboard. Daniel's body was found on the tracks near the Sunshine station about 3.30am. The surviving pair suffered a gashed chin and a minor arm injury. Freight Australia assistant general manager John Guiry said it was very dangerous to leap on to a moving train. "It is something you see in the movies like James Bond," Mr Guiry said. "It's not really like that in real life." Ms Noble said Daniel had a zest for life, was a keen athlete and an aspiring actor. He left Deer Park Secondary College during Year 11 to concentrate on acting. He recently completed an acting course and was looking forward to a career in front ofthe cameras. "He was just so passionate about cameras and acting," Ms Noble said. Daniel also enjoyed playing football and was a regular at the Sunshine Bowls Club. His funeral will be in Whyalla, South Australia, where the family lived until last year. A memorial service will be held at Deer Park Secondary College The story in print that was ten days ago .. now im going through a rollercoaster .. I didnt know who my son was with but have since found out .. I had banned my son from hanging with him .. A week before this happened I had told my son off for ringing me when he missed his train as I had to work the next day .. all these stupid what ifs .. No one will tell me how he actually died .. what actually killed him .. so I keep visuallising all these things .. the police told me he died at 12:35am but his phone rang my daughters phone at 2:36 am .. they didnt find him for 3 hours .. there are piees missing .. im worried he was still alive .. but its like a wall of silence .. I got a letter from the coroner yesterday stating the inquest will be in 10 weeks .. but I know this sounds macabre but I need to know before then I cant sleep .. I havent slept since Monday .. I cant eat I feel sick .. Im not sure where to go from here