I know the pain of losing a sister. I am 52 years old and live in Tampa, Fl. My sister, Nancy died 4 years ago this month. I soent those 4 years helping others through their grief, and now it's time for me. I couldn't belive that the emotions clamoured for attention starting in September. I returned home to visit my elderly Mom and surviving brothers over the weekend that was the 4th Anniversary of my sister's death. It was a very difficult trip because my Sis and I would handle the problems of the family together. It was brought home to me that she was no longer there to help. I felt alone, and missed her terribly. Thank God for this web site, and for th e moderator. It certainly is helping me to face into my grief. Here I thought it was all kinds of medical issues going on....the memories of my sister and I come fast and furious. Once I allowing myself to cry as I recall the memory there is an "integration...a calming...a peace". It's almost like a volcanno erupting...I am thankful that this is happening. Journalling and searching for a bereavment group is also helpful. My schedule is allowing time to do this. My pain is like her death just happened. I have begun to gather some of her personal effects in the house....also getting pictures together and making an alblum about our friendship is a goal of mine. Let me know what others are doing to work through their grief.