Tootie, I know how you feel. I too lost my best friend Dec.14,2003. It is so hard to deal with. I still go to the phone to call her. Weekends I feel so lost because that was mom days and we went over her house. My dad passed away too but it was nothing like when mom passed although it was terrible when dad died I still had my mom. Moms are just SPECIAL!!!!! After mom died I got literally sick with grief. I decided to do a Scrap Book for each of my two girls since I had so many pictures ( I had my own plus inheriting my moms) I got on the computer on Ellis Island website to see when my ancestors came to the United States. I got information from family members on how my great Grandparents met and wrote a little bio on each generation and put it in with their pictures. I put in things that were told to me, funny stories things I remembered... It took alot of time but it was good for my soul. I seen my parents as not just MY MOM and DAD but as a little kids, as silly teenagers, as a two young people in love. I found cards and letters my parents wrote to each other that were saved all those years. I'm sure your sister had some of these same feelings doing her album. I just keep thinking things WILL get better in time, when my dad died my mom was heartbroken too but somehow she pulled it all together and made a life without him. I don't even remember how long it took or when it happened it just seemed like we were going to cry forever but ever so slowly we healed. So I'm not going to listen to anyone if I want to cry I cry I talk to mom and I know SOMEDAY I WILL feel better it just takes time and I have plenty of that..... and so do you Tootie.... Tina