Thanks Bob. Every once in a while I get time to myself and it just comes flooding out. Tonight was a rough one for me. No one in the house and I just let it come out naturally. Unfortunately, my oldest called from college and didn't even recognize my voice. I just told her it was a really bad night for me. I'll be moving her back home for the summer tomorrow. That means all 4 will be here, and I believe that the oldest hasn't really had a chance to grieve with school and all. I just need to make sure that I can get through the summer. It seems like I'm sitting on a virtual powderkeg here. My 17 year-old daughter is in grief counseling after experiencing suicidal thoughts and battling severe depression. This has just flat kicked my family's butt! I'm trying to lean on friends and family, but I feel like I'm just 'winging it' and will screw up and allow things to get even worse. I know my mind isn't very clear, so I can't possibly be making good, rational decisions. Topping this all off are the demands of my job, which have me overseeing operations in several states, and managing over 300 employees. As you can see, this is very, very close to overwhelming right now. I do talk to my wife regularly and try to find strength in those conversations. I ask her for wisdom and the willpower to be able to fight the good fight in all that I do. Some days that really seems to help. Other days, I feel even more lost, knowing how much I miss our chats and occasional banter about politics, people, and life in general. She was so intelligent. When I met her, it was as if God had granted me that one wish that I had been wishing for my entire life. Now, in some cruel twist of fate, that beautiful, vivacious answer to my prayers is gone, and I am feeling an emotional pain that I never thought was possible to feel. I'm reminded of the Garth Brooks song 'the dance' that includes the words 'I could have missed the pain, but I'd have had to miss the dance.' I've lost my dance partner and I just don't know how to get myself back on track.