Ztyu123 Posted December 20, 2021 Report Share Posted December 20, 2021 12/16 It was on August, 20, 2021.. The pain doesn't ever stop for me The tears haven't either, just multiply everyday just like the meltdowns The guilt doesn't stop The wishing you were here, but glad that you're not because you were very ill and suffering. You suffered. That guilt has me very confused and its conflicting. The should of's, could of's, would of's, the ifs, the why's, preoccupy my mind 24/7. I cry when I'm awake, I cry in my sleep, I wake up crying, go to bed crying, I cry when I have to go out (rarely ever). I have no joy (not that I had much to begin with My physical appearance has deteriorated and I've aged physically and put on weight and it shows. I don't care about anything anymore..... Just how much longer I have to wait until death.. The only thing that I wish upon stars for. I hope that you're happy and at peace Wherever you are I miss you tremendously 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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