Ztyu123 Posted April 19 Report Share Posted April 19 Tried to rush out to collect packages from my steps.. unspotted...as I usually do.. Unfortunately neighbors spotted me.. They barraged and interrogated me.... With questions and unsolicited offensive hurtful suggestions in regards to you. Them: Haven't seen you or the dog in awhile. Me: Jada. A living being. Not a social constructed label. Them: I'm assuming she passed. Me: Yes. Them: When? Me: 2 years in August. Them: are you going to get a new one? Me: Jada can never be replaced. Them: I'm surprised because you love animals. Me: She wasn't that label. Them: She's never coming back ..you should get a pooch... Me: No one knows that. Who said she's gone? I don't know what that is.... Them: You look well. Have you been okay? Me: (looks in mirror everyday I look like death and removed.. because death has removed me) You do too. (Lies) Yes I'm okay. Thanks for asking. Them: Why don't you get another one? Me: (lies again) I'll think about it. Them: You should get another one..it would be great for you. Me: (lies again) it's not time yet. Them: It would be really nice for you. Me: (lies again) Maybe. (Lies to escape) Take care. Have a good day. I run into the house, throw myself across the bed, breakdown and meltdown. I'm soo sorry, my sweet baby girl. I couldn't do better. I couldn't give you the life you deserved. I didn't do right by you... I couldn't save you. I'm sorry people are cruel now and before... I love you soo much ..I miss you soo much... I hope you know. I cried myself to sleep ..I stay that way for 2 days..crying as usual...and sleeping....hoping to catch you in a dream...... I never do. The pain is worse now..more intense 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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