shauna marie Posted July 13, 2008 Report Share Posted July 13, 2008 We're not even halfway through July and I'm spent already.If I hear the sounds of the family behind me having one more BBQ, I just scream. If I hear the sounds of them having another fun time on the deck, I might yell. Even the sounds of silverware clinking plates is getting to me.I just miss the good old days at times. Having a BBQ on the deck. Enjoying the cool breeze as the sun goes down. I went to my godfather's last night for a bit. Their daughter and her boyfriend were going back today so I kind of went to get together with them before they went back. Their son was there. I just felt so left out...they really weren't paying much attention to me...I only had MY memories, not theirs. Well, I take it back, I didn't really feel left out, just that I didn't really belong.But yet, the kicker is they all treat me like a person and with respect. They don't make fun of me. They don't make me feel like dirt. Maybe I just keep thinking that they feel something different when you belong, when you have a title in the family. Maybe I just don't know how to feel since I never felt it before. I just know that I was so peaceful last night. The most peaceful I think I've been in my entire life.Just so confusing.On the flip side, I am actually enjoying summer quite a bit. I'm getting out, doing stuff. I never did that the last three summers, but finally I'm enjoying it to some degree. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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