kath Posted October 25, 2008 Report Share Posted October 25, 2008 My Dearest Bob,Happy 22nd anniversary, honey. I don’t why you were taken so early. But this is what I have learned since you've been away…1.) Your being called to heaven was never about us; it was all about you. You had been through a lot trying to manage first, your blood pressure, then diabetes and finally the hepatitis. Though we hung onto hope that you would receive a liver transplant, it would not have been easy. It wouldn’t have cured your other ailments. It would have most certainly added to them. You would have hated being in the nursing home, if even for a short time. Now, you have new life, without shots or meds or pain. 2.) You were ready to go. Sure there were some unfinished projects, nothing I’ve discovered, that I couldn’t handle with a little help from friends. You had made amends with your ex and your daughter. You had changed. By the time you left, you were a totally different man than you were when I met you. You loved your children and me unconditionally. We loved you and you knew it. We told each other every day. You had nothing to regret.3.) It’s so sad to see Caitlin and Mike without a dad, but they had the best of you. You were kind and patient, dedicated and loveable. You will never disappoint them because of things you were physically not able to do. They will forever know they had a father that would have done anything for them. The kids are mad at the doctors. Caitlin’s angry that they didn’t test the blood that gave you hepatitis. I told her we didn’t know you then. Without that blood, we never would have been lucky enough to know you at all. Our beautiful children would have never been born. I was looking for you in the woods, in a place you would have loved. As I searched longingly through the trees, I saw Caitlin riding her bike ahead of me. And it hit me. You are here, in them. She has your personality right down to the matter of fact style of dealing with pressure. She still has the best laugh in the world. Mike could be your clone. He looks so much like you, except the gap in his smile was closed with braces. It is a gift to see what you must have been like as a little boy.4.) Your boss says they haven’t found anyone with your dedication to fill your position. I doubt they ever will. You took such pride in doing your best, no matter if you liked it or not. You were a man of great integrity. I realized it more than ever when the transplant specialist said most people don't get off the couch when going through the interferon treatment. You didn't miss even a day of work. Your dying was such a shock to your co-workers. They didn't know you were sick. Your strength was incomparable.5.) I am a better person for having you in my life for twenty-seven years. You weren’t supposed to leave so soon and my heart will forever ache at losing you. You, my darling, were my hero. I’m glad I was able to tell you. I drove myself crazy trying to figure out what I missed. Why didn’t I push the doctors harder? I didn’t believe you were that sick. I didn’t want to believe it. You didn’t complain. You simply tolerated and did the best you could. I don’t know if you realized how ill you were or not yet you did all you could to care for us. You made us feel so special. I thank you for arranging a special date for each of us in the few short months before you died. Caitlin will always remember our front row seats at the Children’s Theatre’s rendition of ‘High School Musical.’ Mike will never forget that you took him to the ice-fishing contest. I was so worried about you that day, watching you cold and sick, facing the blizzard to give all you had to your son. And having you to myself at the Wild game, shuffling along arm in arm, was the best night of my life. We will treasure those moments forever.Like Willie Nelson sang so perfectly, “You were the best thing in my life I could have found. You and me, we had it all.”Forever my love,KathyPsst…Give Zeus a biscuit and a hug for me. He’s a good dog, he's not a hog. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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