redwind30 Posted October 30, 2010 Report Share Posted October 30, 2010 After losing my husband six months ago the pain does not seem to be letting up. I feel lonely, empty and angry. Angry at everyone. I know no one can change things; but I guess I am angry because they just get to go on with their lives. My closest family is 500 miles away. I call and cry. They tell me how sorry they are and they wish they could do something to help ease the pain. I want to say "try calling me once in a while" or "come see me for a few days". But, I don't dare say anything to alinate anyone. They can basicaly do or say whatever they want and I simply have to deal with it. If I stand up for myslef I will lose what little contact I have with them. They are retired and it is fairly easy for them to get away. I still work full time and only have the weekend off; so me trying to go up there seems pointless. Besides, I have to come back to an empty house which seems to be one of the hardest things to do. Even if I leave for just a few minutes; coming back home is so painful. The lonliness and emptiness never leaves. This is the most horrible pain I have ever experienced. I have been told I need to get involved in something...but what??? I don't have the energy to volunteer and don't feel like I have anything to give at this point. I just wish I felt like somebody cared....just a little. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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