Lostdaughter Posted November 13, 2010 Report Share Posted November 13, 2010 Well, I am coming to terms with dad's death but then I had several years of "losing him" before he physically died. Alzheimer's. I try not to think about the funeral or burial. I just have to put it out of my mind. Even though I've sort of given up on life, I still feel like I need a plan. Right now I'm throwing myself into fixing up my house. I spent two days painting the family room and kitchen and I'm still not done yet. I have a handyman who is laying down laminate throughout the house - I got the laminate for a killer price and he is cutting me a break on the installation. Paint is cheap and makes a huge difference. There are so many things to be done around here (that is what two years of depression will add up to) and I keep plugging away. I have bigger things to think of like survival. At times I am ambivalent about even wanting to survive, but I can't predict when and where I too shall depart. There is a wave of foreclosures coming up in 2012 and the state I live in will try to exempt itself from the Federal healthcare reform. I am thinking I have to go back and get another master's degree and will look out of state. I have too many worries to look too much at losing my dad. Maybe it's a blessing in disguise. He would have wanted me to go on and live to the best. It's probably also good he wasn't "present" for what's happened to this country. Anyway, I need a plan. A plan can help divert attention and move things along. Thoughts? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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