InNeedOfAnAngel

your poem nailed it on the nose for me too. it almost puts all my feelings into one thing. thanks Stacey

i'm glad you enjoyed this poem Chai cuz i sure do. i want the same from my mom every day. i just don't want to have to decide things on my own all the time now. it's over powering to me to have to decide things that i should have to at this point in my life, all this should come so much later in life.

this poem is my favorite. i even wrote a paper on it my freshman year at college. it means a lot to me and my family and whenever it is needed i share it with whomever may need it. i feel it's my duty since it was given to my family.

i know what your saying shelley. its frustrating when you told things will get better soon when your just not sure cuz things have been so horrible.

i totally agree with everything. a lot of time i just want to scream at people "well are you 21 did your mom have a stroke the day before your 21st birthday, did you spend your birthday and a whole mother a long side your 46 year old mother and unable to do anything but talk to her and hold her hand, did you have to make choses that now 21 year old should have to make, did you watch your future step dad get his heart ripped and shredded apart knowing his finance most likely wasn't gonna make it" "yep that's right i thought not." that's just a vent of mine that i would love to scream into someone's face when they tell me they know what i'm going through. well thanks again for the vent. Stacey

so i don't know if any one is frustrated by this as much as i am but it really truly bugs me to no end. through my mother's wake and funeral and ever afterwards people would always come up to me and tell me that they knew what i was going through. well i'm sorry but NEWS FLASH NO you don't know!!!! unless for someone reason you had the exact same thing happen to you then actually don't know at all. ok yes you may have lost your mom but when and how. you know i have always heard people say that and its always really bugged me even through the deaths of my grandpa, grandma, aunt, and great uncle and it never peeved as much as it did when it was my mom. i just wanted to lash out at these people that would say this to me and to this day 9 months later i still want to just go crazy on these people and yell at them and make them realize what they are actually saying. well thanks for the vent. Stacey

thank you temmie. i appreciate your recommendations.

thanks patti. to ad on top of all of my mom's stuff that was going on last year my grandma on my dad's side was sick also. she was having surgery on my birthday and i thought that was bad enough at the time let alone mom on top of it. my grandma passed away june 19th, 2008.

The Road Not Taken By Robert Frost Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth. Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same. And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.

Forever Gone but Forever in Our Hearts by Rosebud The caring prayers, the shaking shock - This awful news my world did rock. No one knew how it happened or why. We were all so sad; it made me cry. How unfair it should have happened now - Won't someone ever tell me how? Her tears had dried, her pain had healed; And God chose this time for her life to yield. It's later now, while we've moved on - We miss her as though she had just gone. We'll never forget all the good she did, Even though, to her our farewells we've bid. We love her still, we miss her yet; And on this I'll forever bet. If she is truly in our hearts, From us she'll never be truly apart.

Never Alone by Rodney Belcher I feel you in the morning When at first I awake Your thought is with me With each decision I make You'd been around forever Since the first breath I took Now I have to go on alone But for love, I need not look Cause by what you bestowed In our short time together Will last in my heart Forever and ever Although you've left And now walk above I'm never alone I'm wrapped in your love Enjoy now your long awaited reward Feel peace that your love continues on What was taught to me, will be taught to mine Cause you live on in me even after you've gone

GOD'S FLOWER GARDEN Sometimes we can't quite understand Our Great Creator's way, When he takes a life so young And leaves one withered, old and gray. Whose life's work seems finished, Perhaps is waiting for the call. While that life so young and tender Held so much here for us all. Then sometimes I get to thinking, Perhaps the world down here below, Is just a flower garden, Where God's flowers live and grow. And perhaps when God is lonely, Like us, He loves to roam In his Garden, gathering flowers Just to beautify His home. Tho’ He takes the full bloom flowers, Drooped and withered that need his care, Still he needs a bud or blossom, To scatter with them, here and there. So He takes a few choice blossoms, Just the rarest He can find, And because God needs them up in Heaven, Must comfort loved ones left behind. a poem that was shared with my family long before me but my family feels like its something that we must share with all who need it.

Wings Of The Angels By Tim Chambers A gentle wind blew cross the land Reaching out to take a hand For on the winds the angels came Calling out a mother’s name. Left behind, the child’s tears Loving memories of the years Of joy and love, a life well spent And now to God a mother’s sent. On angel’s wings, a heavenly flight The journey home, towards the light To those who weep, a life is gone But in God’s love, ‘tis but the dawn. i put this poem on the back of my mom's monument.

so i lost my mom a little over 9 months ago. she had a massive stroke the morning before my 21st birthday. after a week and a half, which involved surgery and being put into coma, my family had the hard decision of putting her into comfort care after no improvement. she was put into comfort care and remained there till her passing. during all of this i tried my hardest to finish as much of school as i could, which left me with 3 completed course and 2 incompletes for the semester. not a good semester least to say. and how many 21 year olds can tell you that they were completely sober on their 21st birthday, not to many i bet. i truly believe that one of the reasons i made it through all this was my boyfriend, my mom's amazing fiance, and my psychology teacher. with out these people i believe i would not be where i am today. these last holidays have been horrible. since i was about 8 or 9 years old it's been only my mom and i in basically everything i did. my parents divorced and i barely ever saw my dad. so losing her has been extremely rough and mentally straining. sometimes i just can't figure out things and school is hard to complete at times but i know she wants me to. well i can't read my screen anymore so i need to stop rambling for now. thanks for your time Stacey