Hi Kathy, I am so glad that you wrote what you did. My father has a terminal illness and was given approximately 6 mos. to live, which will wind up being in August of 2009. I am a nurse, and it is difficult for me to sometimes participate in his 'laughter therapy'. It has come to the point that we don't see anyone in our family crying or even being sad. Except for me!! So, I have been made the 'disposable' daughter by the rest of the family for not supporting my father. I do support my father, but he is going to be gone soon!!! The fact of the matter is, I don't feel like laughing, so I am only e-mailing my family, except for my dad, who I talk to on the phone (we live in different states). This is working so far, but I feel angry at everyone, and, now, I don't want to see any of my family, except Dad, and just kind of be in my own denial about them!!! I saw in a post that people reject people who are grieving (my family has been all about hiding their emotions and being very analytical about everything). But you really made an impact on me with thoughts about my stepmother. I gave her a mother's day card this year, and really and truly meant it. She loved it, and I loved her hug. What if she doesn't want a relationship with me after my Dad dies? My own mother is so jealous of her that she demands that I not give my time or love to my stepmom. One parent was raised in a DP camp in Germany during WWII, and the other was raised bringing his father (my grandfather) home from the bars. So, my family has issues!! I've also had alot of jealousy toward's my sibling who seems to always be accepted by my family. So the issues of the past I have with my family are hitting me like a frying pan! And the gossip in the family is horrible right now!!! I knew that I have a sick family long ago, but, now, I don't want to participate in their problems. But I still want to be part of my dad and stepmoms and mom's lives. How can I keep my family and still be me? Thanks for listening!!