Cheryl

I attend a group therapy for families. The kids are in small groups based on age and the adults are in small groups based on their type of loss. Some of us lost spouses, some children. But we all have heartache in common. What I love about group is that you realize you are not crazy and their is strange comfort in being with and sharing with others who are feeling similar. it is also wonderful to see the growth each person goes through. But most of all I walk away feeling like I might have been able to help someone else survive the pain. Don't be afraid to try everything. You've already been through the worst experience possible!

Mark died 10 months ago in a motorcycle accident. I have cried, screamed, slept, cleaned, organized, walked, read every grief book, journaled, joined a support group, talked to therapists, gardened, ect.. I'm feeling better than the first few months but still so very sad and lonely. I'm tired of people telling me how good I'm doing. I'm not!! What do I do now? How do I find happpiness again? I miss being a wife, I don't think I can survive this agony. Cheryl

HI John,

I feel like you do. So sad. So alone. So scared. So ready for the pain to end. So tired. I don't know what to do. No one understands the depth of my pain. Someone asked me if I thought I needed medication to help me feel better. Wouldn't that be easy! I don't need medication to feel better. I need Mark. I need my old life back. I need to not cry at absolutely everything. I need to feel like my life isn't over. I need the things I can't have. So I am sad. So very, very sad.