Frank G

Went to the 'District Swimming' today and she won again and we are waiting to see if she's qualified for the next level of competition (Area Carnival).She is really helping to lift my spirit.

Angie,if you need to be alone,be alone.As I said in my original post I miss my wife so much when I'm with the grandchildren as we were always with them together so I told my daughter this so she knows how I feel. I went to my grandaughter's school swimming carnival on Wednesday because my wife always attended these occasions so I made the effort.I really enjoyed it (even though the tears were at the ready a few times) and she won the 50 mtrs. and really appreciated me being there.By winning the 50 mts.she swims in the 'District' competition next week so I will be there also.Maybe these efforts will help me back to some form of 'normal'. Frank G..

I live ‘Down Under’ as a lot of you guys would say, in Sydney Australia. I am new to this Forum but have been visiting for the last week since I accidentally discovered it.I suppose I was comforted to know there are people even on the other side of the world feeling as I do. June and I worked together as carpenters and June was doing a home extension with me just 10 days before her diagnosis. She went into hospital on September 1st with suspected Gall Bladder pains but it was Colan Cancer with secondries on the Liver.Two surgeries and 3 rounds of failed Chemo later I lost her on December 3rd.2009.My pain at the moment is the memories of watching her for that last 3 months. I gave her 24/7 during this time but the memories haunt me. We were going to ‘ease down’ by July then retire but this wasn’t to be. She had type 2 diabetes for the last 13 years of her life and I feel the problems related to this disease (she was about to go on insulin) maybe helped to shield any warnings of the cancer. I haven’t worked since she became ill so maybe losing her and not being busy is giving me too much time to think. Our son lives in L.A. and is suffering because he couldn’t get back at all due to commitments but our daughter and 2 grandchildren (5 and 7) are only 10 minutes away but I miss her the most when I’m with the grandchildren so I spend most of my time alone. We were together for 49 years (47 married) and we were never parted for more than 24 hours during this time and we also worked together for the last 33 years of our life together. Her death is not as all consuming as it was but the triggers are so unexpected. Listening to music is the major problem because during this 33 year working life together (in the 70’s and 80’s) 13 years were spent singing full time in our own ‘Country Rock’ band and as June’s repertoire was about 200 songs of all genres it’s usually one of the songs she sang that does the damage. I hope the Rose Kennedy quote below has some truth. Regards Frank G