lorikelly

Don't you wish we could all be together for the holidays. everyone here understands and we can talk about our loved ones as much as we want. sometimes it is so hard , people have moved on and they dont't want to hear those stories anymore. i just keep talking about her and i will til the day i die.

By the way we had our first snow here in Howell, NJ not alot but a covering, it is so cold. WE are off today to deliver present to a family we adopted whose 4yr old son has cancer. We did this in memory of my mom.

lori

Hi

Well i went to see the medium yesterday and it was so comforting . My mom can through loud and clear. now i am a person who never believed in this stuff until my mom passed. i am catholic and it is frowned upon. this women works with the state police of nj, delaware, pa. she is incredible. she said names of my husband, motherinlaw and sister. she told me something that only i would know and i knew it was her. when the medium said she is thanking tom , and tell him she loves him , then she said who is tom, i said my husband. she talked about my boys. this women didn't know me at all, i drove 2 hrs to see her. she never asked me one question. i could go on and on.

my mom always believed in this. what a amazing experience. she didn't want to take my payment. i think my mom told her not to. i feel happy but also sad, i know that sound crazy. i just miss her so, i still can't believe it is 16mos. i know that i will see her again. Thank you mom for loving me, i love you so!! Lori

Teny

Sounds like a beautiful wedding. if you can will you send picturs i would love to see you all. i went to you site for your work and the stuff is beautiful. i would love to go to Greece, it sounds magical. love and prayers always. lori

Bob

I will be thinking and praying that this days will be easy for you.

I hope you have a wonderful brunch and have wonderful memories.

Lori

Thank you so much and a hug back to you. lori

Just want to tell you all that tomorrow is the day that i meet with the physic. i will let you all know tomorrow how it went. lori

Teny

I will be thinking and praying for you. hoping that you will feel yanni's presence and love with you all today and always. lori

KayC

I am so happy that you had a good weekend. It does help start the week off to a good start. I hope that we all will continue to get better days.

Lori

The holidays make it so much worse . I think the time b/w 6-9 mos is a very difficult period. i felt like i was going backwards. Please keep coming back here to talk, it has helped me so much.

Lori

I wish the same for you and all of my friends here. Lori

I am very thankful for my husband and boys. i know with out them i would never come this far. i am also thankful that this is this yr and not last. last yr i thought i would never survive. i pray that each and everyone of you have a blessed and comforting Thanksgiving. Lori

Thanks Giving to each and everyone of you. I hope that we all can find some comfort that day. Lori

Wow, thanks for sharing that. i have a appt with a someone on dec 1. she works with the state police in missing persons/murder cases. someone i know used her b/c her mom was murdered. the things she told shawn was unbelievable. i can't wait to go. lori

Erica

I felt for a long long time the way you felt about God. i was terrified, i wasn't sure why but i was.. I thought constantly about dying and what God would say to me. the fear consumed me. i meet reguraly with my priest and it helped ease the pain. i realize now that i never doubted God just myself.

I am sorry that you are so sad today. I will be praying for you for some comfort. Do you have a busy day ahead of you? it is raining again here in NJ, that makes the day sad.

Love Lori

teny

it was a cold rainy day today in NJ. the rain made me feel sadder. today at mass i just started crying, i could not hold it in.

when it comes to your mom she probably thinks she is helping, sometimes people can not understand that we need to be alone.

I pray for you often, i am sending my love and hugs to you.

Lori

Oh teny , i wish i could be there and give you a hug. i think you need one. sometimes meds can take up to a month to work, don't give up on them. Love and prayers. Lori

Wow what a place to go. i forgot where you are from. i know it is so hard to be away from the security of our home. i like to go places but then i always want to get home b/c here is where i am closest to my mom. sounds crazy. maybe in time this will ease, i hope so. i hope you have a nice trip and know that we are all here for you. lori

Patti

I will be thinking about you this friday. i to hate to move, there is so much work involved. i hope that you will find a buyer soon and find someplace that you will be comfortable in.

I also wish we had a group here in NJ. i do meet every 4th thurs of the month with a support group. each of us has lost someone it is not for a specific loss. it is nice to see each one every month and i do look forward to it. we meet at a church. i tried to join a daughters w/o mothers group in the beginning but it was to soon for me and i could not go. i was also having those awful panic attacks and was afraid i would have one there.

lori

Oh thank you Karen. I believe pray is powerful, his name is Kevin Francis kelly. that means alot to me. Lori

Teny

I am not sure how long you have been on the meds but they do take time to kick in. Try to see the little accomplistments that you have made, you may not think that they are big but it is something. i had to do that or i would never have gone on. i tried each day to see something positive . how is your family with you ? do they let you talk? Do you try and keep busy or does that make it worse? i know for me in the beginning being busy did not help. For so long i could not read or watch tv. things do get better Teny, just a little at a time. My prayers and love Lori

thanks for asking. he has CVS and they are not sure if he will out grow it. both my boys were born with Gy problems and we go to Childrens Hospital in Phil with them. kevin is so brave, i go not imagine feeling like that , i hate it was i feel sick to my stomach. he takes meds to try and prevent the cycle, meds to calm the stomach down, meds to control the nausea and meds for the reflux he has. it has been a long hard road but if you saw he you would smile. we are happy when the days are good and when there bad we just roll with them. he was real sick in the beginning of the summer, i didn't post about it b/c i wasn't sure if others would want to hear about it with there grief. he lost wt, he is thin to begin with and could not keep anything down. we then added another medication and things have been better, the only problem is you don't know how long the meds will work. we just take one day at a time. thanks for letting me talk. lori

Shelley

I don't know what you are talking about. What ever it is i wouldn't worry about it, we all love you here. Lori

Shelley

I just found out what you are talking about, i went and read your last posts. i am sorry i never did see your post about that . i haven't been reading alot, i have been sick for a week and working alot. lori

Karen

I have two beautiful boys. my oldest Dylan is 12 and Kevin is 9. i don't know what i would be with out them. i am a better humman being b/c of them.

Maybe one day we will try to fly again. i am not sure how kevin will do again. he suffers from a vomiting disorder which complicates everything. he is medicated 6x a day. he has such a great attitude and does everything a boy should do. i hear people complain when they get a stomach bug and i think of him who deals with chronic nausea everyday, but he keeps going. i have learned not to complain about being sick because i see what he goes through.

thanks for listening. lori

Derek

It sounds like you have alot going on right now, i can understand why you are so frustrated. my little one is hard to find pants for he is so thin. he too can't do the button and wants only snap or elastic. i have found that lands end has elastic and also i just picked up some pants for him at Childrens Place , they have alot of elastic waist.

I am glad that the therapist went well. will he be going back? how is he doing in school?

did you ever think of having someone come in to clean for you. i don't mean every week b/c that can be to expensive. maybe once a month. it could help with the clutter. just a thought.

Hope you have a better today tomorrow. love lori

William

I hope you are doing better? did you go to the clinic today? maybe you just need your meds adjusted. let us know how you are doing. Lori