R.Everit55

Moms Angel,

im sorry youre missing your mom too.  Mine just passed a week and a half ago and I'm 57 but feel like a child because I was her child.  She cared for me so well so easily even after I married and my wife passed and had a son of my own.  And grandchildren.  They were our moms... We had them since before birth.  That's why we miss and need them so badly.  ❤️

Hugs

Butch

Thank you Mitch.  I'm very sorry you didn't have your parents long enough.  

PS and she loves the camera can you tell? 

This little face has her Grampy's heart.  Fully.  She lights up my heart even though my heart is terribly broken.  

I woke and my mom's death has hit me like a ton of bricks.  I don't even have the words.  Other than utter loss.  Hurt.  Pain.  She was there from day one of my life.  And that includes nine months prior to being born.  I mean how special are moms... I was and still am honored to be her son.  However I miss her something fierce. My heart hurts.  

Butch

Look at our little monkey loving her new baby doll.  She's just four months old.  A premie yet she shows no signs that she was a premie.  She's begun sitting up on her own.  She's blowing our minds!  This girl is AMAZING!  she wants to catch up to her big brothers apparently.  And her hair is starting to grow in faintly a little tiny of red   

She just woke up here and momma set her down with her boppy pillow around her for support but she really needs little support.  At this rate she'll be running in a weeks time  

I'm lucky to have three grandchildren to fill some of the void for me.  I've been through h*ll with my health since my Mary passed on which kept me busy.  But now I have my grandchildren keeping me busy which I hope is good for my health.  I am very grateful for them as some of you here don't have grands to keep you filling voids.  

I guess I have a lot of fun things to look forward to with my Gracie girl.  

Marg I'm sorry about your grandson. 

yes we love our boys.  But Gracie... She grabs my heart in a totally different manner.  They all have my heart but Gracie has a hold on it tighter than the boys. ❤️❤️❤️

My crazy boys   

I'm taking the boys to fireworks this weekend.  Just them and I because they need some time alone with Grampy.  Gracie is too young for them.  Too loud for her little ears.  

My Dad said he isn't angry AT me but rather just trying to get through hour to hour and prefers to do it himself but I wasn't letting him (because I'm worried for him) so I'm respecting his wish now. I don't want him alone.  But I have to let him do what he wants.  My fear is I will lose him too.  

It can be sometimes difficult in reading words without hearing them if that makes sense.  But we all love each other here for sure.  

Absolutely my friend!  

My heart just jumped into my throat.  I heard the song Wind Beneath my Wings and that song was my song for my mom.  She was the wind beneath my wings in many ways my entire life.  Just like my Mary was my endless love for 34 years and now beyond.  I miss these two ladies so much. Losing my dear mom has brought back my intense feeling after Mary passed.  Numb pain numb again teArs no tears depression lack of sleep denial but then feeling like a Mack truck hit me.  

Gracie's first doll baby. 

Peter, first I want to say how sorry I am that you lost your love.  I lost my wife 17 months ago.  My world.  Second I would like to say you are not a failure my friend.  I too feel that way.  But we aren't failures. The diseases took our loves.  Not us.  Bless you.  Keep coming and writing.  

Oh no I wasn't arguing with you. I am sorry if I came across as such.  I'm not wording things right. I'm discombobulated since my moms passing.  Forgive me.  ❤️

Yes indeed Kay.  You are very much loved by us here.  And I'm sure the young lady you are helping appreciates you so much. ❤️

Kay you're such a kind loving soul.  

2 hours ago, KATPILOT said:

Something to note:

We tend to think about the sad times surrounding the death of our spouse and I understand why. What we don't do often enough and hopefully will more as time passes is remembering happy moments in their lives like times that made us laugh or a memory of something terrific they did for us. What you describe Patty that you do in the shop every day is what I'm talking about.  Sad or happy memories keep them close but we have to make an effort to remember a happy time when sad times come so easily but I do know you can't force this one when grief is new and raw.

It's difficult to do that with how my Mary died.  I never forget how ALS stole every little things from her.  And never stopped. But I do try to recall how it never stole her spirit and love for me our son and our grandsons.  She didn't have to be able to speak to know she loved and adored us.  Until her last second on this earth.  

Karen you know the meaning of double losses back to back.  My heart hurts too because of that.  Bless your heart truly. ❤️

My son is taking control of this issue because he's worried for my health.  He's spoken to my Dad and told him he can be angry but please try to direct it elsewhere instead of me.  I'm proud of Allen for standing up to his Grampy and backing me up.  My dad is welcome to talk to me respectfully is what Allen told him.  So I'm sure he just needs time.