Katiewri

I can't even imagine going through the pain of packing. The things you must have come across. I've just now - after 3 months - begun to go through big things.

For the first several weeks, I would text his cell phone to tell him things. I said good night and good morning every day. It would chime in response. Eventually I didn't need to anymore. We do what we need to do to survive the minutes.

Karen, I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm with you on how difficult the last 3 months have been. 4/29/15. We were married for 39 years; together for 40. It's the little things that still cause me to dissolve in tears. Little reminders of my loss. I'm glad you're going to therapy; I'll be joining a group soon, hopefully it will help. Early on, a grief counselor told me it would "hit" at the 3-6 month mark. Yep. It's forever. I hate this. If it weren't for my grandsons, I wouldn't see the point of going on. So I get where you are. I still can't make decisions very easily. I avoid places/events we went to together (that's hard after 40 years!). But we will get through this tunnel. I have to believe there's light at the end of it - we just don't know how long it will take to get there or how bright it will be. the anger - one evening soon after, I came home from a meeting and called out "I'm home!" like I always did - immediately burst into tears and yelled, "Why the hell aren't you?" Curled up on the couch, sobbing tears followed. Keep reaching out. Katie

I never would have believed that I could cry every day for 100+ days. I'm sure there are more to come ... katie