Dear Chandrasmom, I am so sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you are feeling. I also lost my daughter march 2. She died in a car accident, was 31 years old and 8 1/2 months pregnant. This is definitly the hardest thing a parent will ever have to go through. I also replay the last few days of her live, wished i would have said more, hugged her more and told her how much i loved her and how proud of her i am. and wonder if there was anything i could have done to prevent this. Her boyfriend who was killed also, was driving the car, and she was planning on leaving him. I keep thinking if she would left him sooner, she would still be alive and what i could have done to get her out of the situation before now. I also cry at the top of the hat. She worked at a local grocery store. and i still cry everytime i go in there. I automatically look in the parking lot to see if her car is there everytime i go by the store. We just have to learn how to get through each day. I have better days then others. Some days i just dont want to go on, but then i also know christy wouldnt want us to be this sad and cry this much. In fact, the night she died, my son and i was sitting out on the deck around 4 am and he said that he felt her put her arms around him, told him she was safe and happy and for us not to cry. Well when he told me, there wasnt a breeze blowing at all, then my wind chimes starting chiming ever so softly. I feel like this was her telling us she was ok. Her and ricky was so close. Ricky stated he didnt lose his sister, he lost his best friend. I hope you are doing better soon, I will remember you in my prayers. Libby