Vero Posted May 11, 2006 Report Share Posted May 11, 2006 Hello, I have found this website about a week ago and I have been on everyday since then and finally decided to join. I have lost my sweet mom on March 3rd, 2006. She was my whole life, my best friend. She was only 56. She was a dedicated nurse working in a palliative care center and taking care of people who were dying of cancer. She herself died of cancer. It all happened so fast. We found out she had cancer the day that she died. She was doing just fine, never complained about anything, just feeling more tired than normal. She was planning to come and visit me to FL for a week but she died the day before she was supposed to come and see me. She ended up in the hospital early on a Tuesday morning (a pulmonary embolism took her to the hospital), doctors started doing all kinds of tests on her. My sister called me around lunch time that Tuesday to tell me that mom was in the hospital. So i bought a plane ticket and flew to be with her the day after (wedsnesday). More tests were done wedsnesday and thursday. Got the results on Friday in the early afternoon and she died at around 8:20 that Friday night. I never had the chance to talk to her about what was happening. She could barely talk and breath, she was getting worse and worse so fast. We were all there with her when she died. I can't take that picture out of my head, seeing her dead. Drives me crazy. I have been thru hell since then. I just can't believe that it happened. I just wish I could have one more minute with her, just want to hear her voice again one more time. I have been feeling all these feelings that we are all going thru, anger, emptiness, sadness ... Can't sleep, im so tired. Can't stop crying. Going to work is so hard. Yesterday, I had a really bad day. Today is not as bad, so far. I cried my heart out last night so I guess that's why im feeling a little better today. I have been getting mentally ready all week for Mother's Day. I bought her a card yesterday, not sure yet what I will do with it. I made a small garden (with plants that attract butterflies, her favorites) and plan on adding one more plant every year on Mother's Day for her. This is the only thing that I came up with to honor her on Mother's Day. I could go on and on talking about my mom but I will save some for next time. It's good to know that I am not alone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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