kellymarie Posted June 18, 2006 Report Share Posted June 18, 2006 I feel like my home is a land mine, a land mine of mementos, memories, and triggers of grief. I have it carefully mapped out so I can walk around these "triggers" if I'm not feeling strong enough or go to them if I need to recall memories of Josh or feel the pain and grief. This weekend I unexpectly found two land mines I hadn't mapped out. Last night I wasn't expecting to find those cute scrapbook stickers he gave me last year with cute sayings about winter. He got them for me because one says "Baby, it's cold outside." I'm from the South and he's from the Northeast so he used to kid me about always being so cold in the winter. (And, ironically, I will most likely be moving to the North within the next 2 years. If he only knew that would happen!) This morning when I was vacuuming I wasn't expecting to look over to my basket full of cards I've received and see that purple envelope peeking out. I hadn't read this love letter from Josh since he died; I had forgotten it was hidden away in that basket. It's so beautiful; a little gift from Josh left behind. Part of what he said "I love feeling loved by you as much as I love loving you... you make every aspect in my life just a little better, you are sort of the last piece of the puzzle. I love you so much and will for ever and ever." oh the tears... and tears.. and tears... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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