Devistated & guilt ridden

[TmcL]

I can’t stop crying.  Our 4 month old kitten died last night.  I accidentally killed him in the dryer.  I swore that I had checked to make sure he wasn’t there since I had just taken him back to my room.   After a bit I am calling him and he wasn’t coming.  I started checking all the rooms and closets and then I ran for the laundry room.  I tried to give him cpr but it was too late.  I can’t sleep or stop crying.  I feel so guilty, he was such an good kitty.  His name was Otis, but we called him Odie.  I feel so bad, it’s like a bad dream and I want to wake up.  I don’t know what to do besides cry and be mad at myself.  The what if’s are killing me.

[kayc]

I am so sorry for your loss of your kitten!  It is horrific and yet not uncommon, unfortunately.
Cats killed in dryers

Comfort for Grieving Animal Lovers

A Dangerous Villain: Guilt
Breaking the Power of Guilt
A Dangerous Villain: Guilt
http://www.pet-loss.net/guilt.shtml
http://www.griefhealing.com/article-loss-and-the-burden-of-guilt.htm
https://www.griefhealingblog.com/2019/08/pet-loss-when-guilt-overshadows-grief.html
https://www.griefhealingblog.com/2017/07/pet-loss-when-guilt-goes-unresolved.html

I hope this short video brings you some comfort and peace.