Mrcelloboy Posted October 26, 2007 Report Share Posted October 26, 2007 The accident that took Kathy's life occured last Nov. 10th. I'm planning on spending some time at the intersection where this occurred, at the time it occurred (8:30AM) with any other friends and cyclists who happen to want to participate.Coming up on this one-year anniversary has picked at the scab of my healing. I've had some bad mornings mixed in with the gradual and general feeling of recovery I'd mostly been experiencing. The bad is mostly stress over financial and family matters which, if I'd just not stress, will most likely be fine. I work at just letting go, and letting go again... and again, until I realize my mood has gotten past the momentary feelings of desperation. I leared years ago, when I had a brief bout with depression, that what works for me is this repeated "letting go" with directed intent. Eventually I'll realize I'm past the feelings that a while before were almost unbearable.On the other hand, if it's grief I'm feeling, I make no attempt to push it away. I know well that supressing this emotion (or feeling) just delays it until another time. So I let the waves of sadness, loss and hurt take me over for their time.My new relationship continues going well, going on a third month now. Again; I need to be concious of my grief and not try to smother it with the pleasure I experience with my new partner. Fortunate for me she's supportive of my grief, not jealous of my love for Kathy, and allows me the space to express all facets of what I feel. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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