sshort Posted August 8, 2004 Report Share Posted August 8, 2004 Well We have made it to the one year mark! My dad died last year on August 8. For the past year we have been able to say.. last year this time dad was doign this.. or last year this time he was doign that. No more.. we can no longer say that. I am not having that hard of a day. Its rough because reality has been forced on me again. Yeasterday was hard. all day I kept thinking he was here last year .. he was breathing he was actually in this world. When 2:42 hit last night I sobbed.. i knew he was gone for good. As of that time he was no longer breathing and had slipped away. He died so suddenly. He was 55 years old and has a massive heart attack. All the day before he died we spent in the hospital woorried and scared. In the back of our minds thinking he would be fine after all he was made of steel. After he died I kept thinking how could this have happened? How coudl we have been so unprepared. I never thought in a million years he would actually die! But as of today I know its real. It happened and there is no changing this. I miss my dad more than I could possibly explain. If he were gone away somewhere I would not miss him this much. I get this big lump in my throat when I think about him being gone. Even after living a full year dealing with it I am still in shock. I want so bad for time to go backwards and erase the pain in my heart. It has changed me. I am not the same person I was. I am now me - fatherless. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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