Elizabeth A. Posted February 4, 2008 Report Share Posted February 4, 2008 Over a week ago I contacted my cousin to tell her I wasn't in the mood for a party and that I didn't want to attend her Superbowl bash, because I didn't feel like putting on a happy face. She understood and I thought that would be the end of it.But then my sister found out I wasn't going and all weekend she has treated me with kid gloves. She took me out for dinner Friday, Saturday she called to check up on me at least twice time keeping me on the phone for an extended period of time each time even though she had college homework she needed to be doing, tried to buy a designer handbag for me to make it "right" (which I don't even know what that means) and came over and watched a movie with me this afternoon. Sure it's great to have someone want to spend time with you, but seriously it has felt like she was afraid to leave me alone or something. Like I had a broken bone that needed to mend. Then when she goes to leave (to go watch the game, nice glaring reminder of what I'm not doing) she say's "I hope you feel better". As though mouring is an illness that will just go away.So what would have been a nice evening with dh out of the house and dd asleep in her bed, instead has me thinking about all the sad things I don't want to think about and so here I am a weepy mess, afraid to just go to bed early, I know when I get there I wont sleep.My head hurts and my heart hurts, why does it feel like everytime I can put the hurt away and move forward it comes rushing back before I can move? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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