Paindora Posted May 19, 2010 Report Share Posted May 19, 2010 Hello, I am new here, my name is Cynthia and I am in a hellish place, my lovely Mother, Claudette is dying of cancer, it is everywhere in her body now and I can't sleep, eat or drink water without force. I am so upset by the loss that is just ahead that my heart feels as if it is being shattered. I have had a very rough life, starting with illness and way too many moves, I should be used to saying goodbye by now. I don't know how to do this and I am scared to be so alone. Any suggestions, support, advice will be appreciated beyond any words I have. I am tired now, must get some rest if nothing else. My dog is blind and old, is sick also and I feel that when they both leave me here to deal with the loss I will not ever smile again. I moved over here to rescue my Mother from the verbal and financial abuse of my sister, she bankrupted my Mother and she had to sell her house, after refinancing it to pay off debt of my sister, then something happened and the relationship was abusive, so I moved here, then I got sick after doing a bone marrow transplant for my brother, I was also told I have hepatitis C and stage four damage, I did the chemo treatment, but it did not work, if I can hang on until next year I will be asked to try a new medication that is 98 percent effective. The house I purchased flooded when ever it rained and the attorney said not to repair anything until we go to court, that took two long years and when our court date came up, I was too weak on chemo to last a nine hour day in court and settled for pennies, then applied for the home affordability program, but they seem to be so disorganized that they keep losing my forms and now have turned me down, I can't work yet, I won't be able to afford to stay here and really don't want to, so many things terrible have happened here, but I have nowhere to go and no one. This just hurts so much, I don't know how anyone can make it through this sort of thing... It is nice to be here, and I am looking forward to meeting all of you, Cynthia Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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