Jennalee Posted August 31, 2010 Report Share Posted August 31, 2010 I feel both blessed and cursed. Blessed because I ran a profitable business from my home with my husband's help, even though he worked a prestigious job outside the home, and cursed because now that he's gone it means I'm so terribly overwhelmed and alone. Ajay did all the technical work for the business, and I did the easier stuff. I of course have the business temporarily shut down. Part of me is dying to work outside the home just to get out and be around people, but the honest truth is that I can make more in one day working on the business than I could in one week at an outside job. I kind of don't want to continue the business without Ajay, but part of me feels like it would really honor him. It was our business that we created together, and now that Ajay's gone it feels so empty. I know my loss is much to recent to make any big decisions regarding the business. I just wish he could come back for just a few hours even and tell me what he wants me to do with it. I hate being so alone during the day. I've been alone during the day for two years now, but I could always call Ajay at work and he always came home for lunch. Right now the house is just so incredibly empty. I even went knocking on the neighbors doors that I knew this morning to see if anyone was home. No one was. I guess everyone else has something going on during the day. I wish I did. I miss him and want him home!!! Gosh I wish I could stop crying! I can't believe I even have any tears left at all! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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