melina Posted September 8, 2010 Report Share Posted September 8, 2010 Now I'm posting again. Sitting here at the kitchen table alone. This is first day I didn't feel awful when waking up - partly because I remembered a bill I had to pay and ran downstairs to do it before trouble ensued. But after about an hour, with the rain pouring down outside - the grief crept up on me and I'm sitting here crying again. I know we're supposed to take one day at a time - one minute at a time, but I can't help thinking forward - to Christmas, to graduations for two of my sons, to summer vacation alone, to a lifetime alone. All those things we were going to do together. I'm so miserable. I try to focus on little positive things during the day, but this huge sorrow and emptiness just overshadows them all. Will I make it? I'm so tired of the constant pain. It's exhausting. Melina Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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