missingmy daddy Posted September 15, 2010 Report Share Posted September 15, 2010 My Daddy passed away just over a year ago. I miss him so much. I wear his thumbprint on a necklace and I cannot bear the thought of taking it off. I try to be strong for my Mom and the rest of my family, but it gets hard being the one who is strong all the time. I wish I could talk about him more with my family, but even a year later everyone gets so upset and starts crying; includung me! I don't want to make anyone upset so i just tend to keep it inside. I have gone inside myself somewhat since he has been gone. I do have someone who has been there to lsiten to me, but he didn't really know my Daddy so he cannot share in any "Daddy stories". My sister has gone off the deep end and now it feels like I have lost her as well. My dad was the kind of person you could talk to about anything. He had this great big belly laugh and the biggest smile when he saw his grandbabies walk in a room. He gave the best hugs. You could always feel how much he loved you in his hugs. He might not have been able to say how he felt all the time, but he always let you knwo when he hugged you. He would do anything for anyone; he had a huge heart. He taught me so much. I can still hear his words of advice when I am having to make a decision of some sort; even if it is what to cook for dinner! I see him everywhere I go and in everything I do. I can only hope one day I am half the parent he was to me. My daughter's 11th birthday is coming up in a few weeks and it is hard trying to plan something knowing he won't be here to grill her steak for it. She always loved her "Grumpy's" steaks. When I feel the warm sun on my face it almost feels like it is him warming me up with his love. He was the most important man in my life next to my son and I will never get used to him being gone. I have heard some people say it will get easier with time, but I don't think that is true. I think you just learn to live with the constant ache and pain. Well I guess I just needed to talk about my Daddy a little so thanks for letting me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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