wmjsca Posted November 22, 2010 Report Share Posted November 22, 2010 I suppose one month isn't very long compared to some here, but it marks a month of survival for me in this horrible grief process. Although the pain and sorrow are constant, I have resigned myself to a life without Clint. Some of the anger remains, though. I haven't put away his things yet, although I can see that at some point I may be able to start on some of that, at least getting his clothes to his sons. His family is in utter chaos and since I wasn't married to him, am not considered 'family' and am 'out of my place' in terms of anything dealing with his affairs. I am totally alone on that front. It's as though we never existed in their minds. I am tired of the negativity from them and their impatience as his estate is settled. I have told them to not even contact me since I have nothing to do with it anyway. They are apparently ticked off that I was mentioned in his obituary as his 'fiance' and the previous ex was not. I would have thought she was over that years ago, but I suppose people have issues like that. So, here I am, after midnight, preparing to sleep alone again. This is the most difficult time of day. I am not sure how to deal with Thanksgiving and Christmas yet, but I can't simply 'skip' them since I have a young son, so I've got to come up with something. I don't feel much like celebrating myself. I am grateful to this forum because when I first came here weeks ago, I was a total wreck and couldn't think straight from one moment to the next. The fog hasn't totally cleared yet, but reading and posting with you all has been a big help. Thank you. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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