Graphic Movies

[Spika]

The other day I saw a movie that I didn't think would be particularly graphic or sad, but it turned out to be that way and it left me in a very, very blue mood. I used to be able to watch those kinds of movies without flinching, but now they leave me feeling so sad and withrawn for days on end. I mean it isn't like I don't know that stuff is fake. But to see someone real-or fake struggle for life, it reminds me of my dad when he was suffering. And then I just can't get those images out of my head. Does anyone else experience this?

[Novi]

Yes, actually I do. I've recently witnessed my mom die of cancer, it was a short but painful journey. Watching her was the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life.

I love horror movies, but have not watched one in quite some time now. I can't bear the thought of watching someone die right now... it brings me back to places I'm not willing to face.

[Spika]

Novi, thanks for replying. I'm sorry about your mother, it is terrible to lose a parent. Just this past August my dad died, from cancer too. Suffering like people do with cancer I think is truly truly a harrowing experience for everyone involved. I didn't know it would have this effect on me but I'm not surprised. While I witnessed his hardship I knew that those moments would be with me forever. I'm just now finding out how those moments have stuck with me. Movie-fake or not, the truth of suffering is all too real. Glad I'm not crazy.

[pmpupdamike]

Hi Spika.

I think what you are experiancing is normal. I can't seem to watch commercials, or sad movies. The nature of some graphic movies, is perceived very individually. I personally don't mind them, but anything with an emotional or semantic message, leaves me in tears, as a result, I can't watch the simplest cartoon i.e. ALL dogs Go To Heaven. I think, though, that if the intensitiy of the moment, lingers with you, for more than a few days, or weeks, perhaps grower more intense, then maybe, there is alot more going on. Are you able to talk to somebody? Group?

[Spika]

pmpupdamike - Thank you for your concern. I am trying to learn how better to express my emotions. It is all too easy to bury them. I think that makes me all the more uncontrollable.

[jwielg1017]

I can relate to how you feel.

My fiance passed away in a hospital, and actually spent a lot of time in a hospital due to his disease.

So, now it's hard for me to watch tv shows, or movies, or commercials, that have to do with hospitals or someone in a hospital.

It just takes me back to the times he was in a hospital, and of course they were never good times, especially the last time.

[Spika]

I am so sorry for your loss. Sorry I just read your response today. I think hospitals are frequently associated with bad memories too. Every time I drive by the hospital that my dad spent his last month and a half in before we took him home, I can't help but shudder.