Still a Daughter Posted January 10, 2006 Report Share Posted January 10, 2006 My father passed away in November 2005 after losing my mom October 2004. I had cared for my mother for nine years with Alzheimers and this last year as my father slowly declined. After ten years of always being aware of their needs, their medications, doctor's appointments and cleaning their house. In particular this last year with my father was even more stressful as he required IV antibiotic therapy on a 24 hour a day basis. He only wanted my brother and I to care for him, which was very difficult, both physically and mentally. Now that they are both gone, this increase in personal freedom is no relief. Even though I was there whenever they needed me, even to the detriment of my husband and children, I still have overwhelming guilt. I can't enjoy myself because I feel guilty that I can now take a real vacation. I know in my head this is silly, but my heart is heavy. I miss them so and even though I am glad they no longer suffer from their afflictions I wish I could see them and see their smiles. They were totally devoted to their children and I can't get past feeling like I let them down in some way to be happy. Please someone tell me that I am not the only one feeling this way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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