Guest Guest_Shubom_* Posted March 11, 2006 Report Share Posted March 11, 2006 I feel like crap today. My sister and I got into a heated argument over nothing, just our usual, but this time, mother isn't around to intervene, and it escalated beyond control. My sister's boyfriend stepped in and broke it up. We are really close, but my mom's death has made me feel looney. I didn't want to take this trip, but my sister convinced me, which made me even more angry during the argument. We talked it over and are ok now, but now I just can't stop crying. I feel so bad that her boyfriend had to step in and break it up. He's been helping us through this difficult time. He's pretty much the best stable thing in her life and I'm afraid he thinks we are crazy and somehow will stop helping out. He's never lost a parent, so he may not understand the crazy mixed emotions coming from us. See, my mom and I are so alike and we were so close. She was the only one that understood me, and now that she's gone,I feel so bad and so hurt. After my dad passed away, I knew that my mother was all we had. I obsessed about that for years, and now it's a freaking reality ! I have no one in my life that cares about me more than my mom. This makes me feel as if I'm going looney. I hate feeling like I need someone in my life to help me out. I needed my mom and that's all I needed. Now I feel like I need the whole world !!! Sometimes I feel so destructive I just want to run away from everyone, from life ! Go and live out in the country somewhere ..... alone. Anyone anywhere have any advice on how to .....I don't know .......deal with these crazy mixed emotions ! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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