farawaydaughter

I'm finding talking to friends helps. Best of luck.

I'm glad I found this site. I miss you dad.

I wish I could give you clear advice. It sounds like a very complicated situation. It sounds like your dad's family never accepted you and sometimes I think people behave like this over money. But I have no idea. He was your dad no matter what. No matter how anyone treats you they can't take that away. It sounds like they are jerking you around. Can you contact the sister in law. Just because its so complicated you may want to talk to someone. But you tried to be there, and perhaps talk to a lawyer. I wish you the best and hope to eventually hear things are better.

Do you need to share a feeling?

That was beautiful. Yes sometimes it just flares up. Its okay. Its just part of what needs to happen. I guess there are bunch of who have some grieving and healing and I hope I can help.

Almost sounds like shock. I have trouble crying some times. Please let us know how you are doing.

Rachel, yes I have it too. I didn't get over my mom and then my dad died and its a double whammy. Like someone said to me in a post there is no timetable and we all heal in different ways and in times. You had to do what you had to do to get thru what you were going thru. I'm in tears, my fuse is extremely shotrt and I think you are right that now you can let down your guard a little you are dealing what's been tucked away in your mind. I can relate and wish you the best.

James, thank you for such a thoughtful post. I am seeing a counselor and talked with a reverand recently. My sister and I were not close but this may be the siilver lining where we learn to get a long. Things are tense in my household which is why I'm online. Its so helpful to hear from others. I am sorry for the loss of your parents. Bless you for being her caregiver. Hope for your days to get easier.

Thank you madimoon. You sound like a strong teenager. I agree crying helps. Unfortunately I am married to a man who does not want me to cry. Things in my home are tense. Yes you are right I was lucky to have him around much longer. Happiness back to you.

From your last comment, it sounds like she was trying to reach out to you.

Diane, do not blame yourself. Our culture and various healthcare systems almost seem to encourage waiting for something to get worse. I try to be proactive and my husband thinks I'm a hypochondriac. This is not your fault. I'm sorry for your mom's passing. My father died about 3 weeks ago. I have lung issues and my husband gets mad when I use my rescue inhaler in front of my son. I'm glad you got to say good bye . I went thru something like that with my mom and I still think she heard me. She was brain dead. You are younger than I so it becomes more expected as you get older. I will pray for your healing. We are listening.

I lost my father who led a full life to 86 but then everything suddenly went down hill.I am an adult, my mother passed two years ago. She had Parkinsons and could see her detiorating quickly. I guess I felt my father and I was closer. Now I feel like an orphan, no one on my side. I have strayed from religion. My parents were not religious and my husband is not. He does not understand the grief. I find my emotions very bottled up and then suddeenly explode with anger. Wondering if anyone else lost two parents with no spouse or unsupportive spouse with a child and how they deal with it. I tend to get depressed and anxious. I guess I'm really looking for moral support and somewhere to talk openly. Thanks for listening.