Gin

Kay,. Wouldn't it be great if we could live life like we used to!  

Remote found, power on, just can not get down icy stairs.  I now have a bad cold, so this is a good time to stay in.

The snow is mixed with ice.  Got some kids to shovel a little.  Very little.  Now it is very cold.  Feels like 7 and windy.  Now I lost my tv remote.  It all comes at once!

Tomorrow would have been our wedding anniversary.   I looked at our pictures of the wedding and honeymoon.  Through tear filled eyes.  We were married 15 years when he died.  (Not our first....but the very best).  I have a video, but just can not look at it.  Too painful to see him moving and smiling.  Miss him so much.  These “special” days are so rough for all of us.  I was supposed to have lunch with my brother, but expecting 8” snow.   So, it will be a long sad day.

Happy birthday!  Glad you had some family there with you.  Gin

So very sorry, Lynda.  Beautiful picture.  We are all hurting here.  We understand your pain.   Gin

Kevin,. I have it in my feet, ankles, knees, along with sciatica.  I am using the braces at night.  Quite restrictive.  Only take a little Celebrex.  Had stomach bleeding from ibuprofen.  Tylenol, but it does not help that much.  Limited to 2000 units/day.  Could be a lot worse, so I TRY. Not to complain (too much).  Gin

Had to go to doc today.  Arthritis has now spread to my hands.  Have braces to wear at night.  Got XRays today.  All these things would nothing if Al were here.  Without him, everything is such a big deal.  Hard to even hold a cup of coffee.   Not a big deal in the scheme of things.

My Al has now been gone for 4 years.  Still can not believe that I could have survived this long without him.  Not “lived” but just survived.  It gets harder and harder to do anything.  Being alone is so hard.  I am trying to clear out the house because I know I can not stay here much longer alone.  We could have done it together.  I sure miss him.

Gwen and Marg,  you are both in my prayers.  Life can be so tough at times.  Next week Al will be gone 4 years.  Can not believe I made it this long  without him.  Gin

Kevin,  I am on that list, also.  Mine is within 1 year.  Gin.

I am going for a mammogram tomorrow and I an concerned.  I always had problems with them, but now I have the pacemaker there also. Can not even imagine how that will feel.  I will find out!  

Marg,. Al will be gone 4 years Oct. 4.  Hard to believe I made it this long without him.  Gin

Thanks Marty.  Doc said he felt we could wait until I thought my vision held me back from what I like to do.  No emergency.   I do not like driving at night, but I do not want to be out late, anyway.  Thanks again and I might check with you as the time draws near.   Gin

On my way to eye doctor.  I think he will want to schedule me for cataract surgery.  Most people think it is no big deal.  However my brother had retina issues with it.  Even if if he could not change the outcome, it was a world of difference having Al with me.  I just feel so alone.  I guess I just have to try and be strong.

Mitch,  I guess we are in the same boat.  No answers, here.   Gin

It truly is so hard at this advanced age (80) to deal with all the uncertainties we face.  It is terrible at any age, but I am having a harder time recently.  I will become more determined as I plod on.  Right now I am fussing with financial issues.  I will figure it out.   Gin

Labor Day coming up.  Al and I hosted all the holidays from Memorial Day thru  Labor Day along with additional ones.  These were usually outdoor  backyard gatherings which included family, a few friends and some neighbors.  All gone.  This will be just another Monday.  Maybe I will go to the health club.  Things have surely changed!   Gin

Kay,. Thinking of you and Arlie today.  Rough time for you!  Gin

It was my 80th birthday today.  My daughters planned a special dinner with family and some friends. We had a good meal and pleasant afternoon.  HOWEVER, Al was not there and that put a depressive shroud over it.  I have a few family issues where some  important people do not speak to one another.  However, they did come.  One would think that I would be thrilled with the gathering, but...  My daughter worked very hard to make the day special and I really appreciated it.  My son tried to drive in from California but had car problems.  Maybe he will be here soon.  These special days just do not have the same impact as they used to when I had Al with me. It emphasized that now I am alone and my very best friend ever is gone.

Joyce,  me, too.  Still so very hard.

I thought the same thing.

Mitch,. I am sure glad you are not giving up!  We all care about you and need you.  I have been in your place since Al died  many times and I sure felt like throwing in the towel.  I will be 80 in a few weeks and can not see anything hopeful on the horizon.    We are not quitters and will plod on the best we can.  I hope we all find glimmers of joy now and again.  I go to the health club at least 4 times a week, but my heart is not in it.  Hang in there, Mitch.  We are rooting for you.  It sure is a hard road we are on, but we will make it.   You are making good decisions.  Eat better, exercise and do not lay around very much.  Be around people who are uplifting as much as possible.  I am alone way too much, but don't seem to be able to do much about it.  Keep in touch and know we all care so much about you.    Gin

Kay,

Healing thoughts are going your way. Hope you heal fast!    Gin

George, so sorry to hear about your dad.  Glad it was peaceful.  Yes, you are loved and not alone.  SHALOM