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Bethany is a trip. Sounds very unappreciative. I hope it all works out and you can get some rest.Kodie sure is a wonderful disposition to behave in all this. I think T and L and think rain. That would stink to worry about a fire starting. I hope somebody got rain out of that. We get a break next week, 4 days high in the 90s, then back to lower 100s. It should be easing off in Sept so now I'm kinda wondering. When i got home from the jewelers tuesday (?) one of their ladies called and asked me to check wit him end of week. So 4pm today i did, hes at lunch and will call me back. he didnt so after an hour I call him back. Hes very busy but the lady asks him, he says he is coming in this weekend to do my rings and talk to him next week. I'll give him wednesday and i'll go in and I'll believe theyre ready when i see it. he is very good and very nice guy, but they are seriously overwhelmed and cant communicate with themselves let alone me. He needs someone to keep it organized. An Offive Mgr. Wow, she really milked her time. Glad you made it home ok. Worst thing I faced here today was a big wasps' nest on my patio, the spray foam ended that lil housing prospect though. So did the fires near you dissipate or are they still going? I seriously wonder about professionals. Can it be that difficult or are they waiting on the courts. The courts got seriously behind during covid and cant seem to catch up. The bookstore guy was nice. Took most of the books and a little bit more than I wanted. That almost pays me back for expenses on the house. But no big deal because it'll be spent on the next round of water and elec and just about cover it. Water bil is through the roof and im about to abandon some small trees. killing my bill to try and keep things alive. But if the jeweler can get the rings in his case next week at least theres a chance they sell. Then I need to find an estate sale company...and I'll have some hope. Hope things go better out there. Remember peace and quiet? Take care.

That sounds like a good time. We used to have blackberry bushes when I was a kid outside chicago. I really dont get people, ever. How can they say that after all you do for everyone. Well, if its worth anything I appreciate what you do for the people in your life and I appreciate these little conversations. So the hurricane is supposed to bring a good rain? Will it then help with all the fires? Or will the winds make it worse? I wish the hurricane would send a low front our way. I have to find a video on youtube to remember what rain looks like. Jeweller is supposed to price my rings and put them in the case and i need to sign a contract. He's done nothing. He is very nice and very good, but very busy and i think he's overextended. I will bug him next week and if he still hasnt done will ask him when he plans on doing it. I think 2 weeks is enough time. The lady who was coming over tomorrow to interview to do the estate sale. Recommended by two friends. Her kid texted me from her phone saying Mom couldnt do any appts this week so lets try next week. Family issues. So will keep looking and call her next week. I got hopeful there for a day. Bad of me because nothing is ever easy nor turns out like I think it will. Lol, I thought the bookstore guy was coming this morning but apparently hes coming after work tonight. I woke up early for nothing. Well, lets hope I can sell the books. I just rid of something and as a bonus to pay me back for some expenses. I'll beliee it when I see it. Mug cakes and ice cream. That sounds really good. That's the stuff of life. I think I'll make some coffee and start looking for another estate sale company. You folks take good care

How are the fires? calming down? We will be 100+ every day for the next ten except one day we only get to 94...cold front I guess. Crazy day. I do have a guy from a big bookstore coming to see if they want to buy Dad's books. The crazy estate sale guy texted me again, I promised to swear out a complaint on him and he apologized saying he has issues but does good work. His behaviur is classic narcissist, I just ignore him. Called the estate sale company first on my new list, and was the same one the lady didnt call me back. She was very nice, we got along, then she had to take a call and never called me back. After an hour I called her back and she apologized etc and is coming by Thursday to see the house. I hope she does a much better job on the sale. havent heard from the jewelers so will call tomorrow. He needs to price the rings and the asst mgr draw up a contract for me to sign so my rings can go in the case and hopefully sell. I dont think it will, is too expensive, but I can hope. This heat is crazy enough here but there is just insane. At least you can stay cool, 100 inside is just unhealthy. I hope they can do something. Im wondering if and when this turns into Fall and if it be a terribly cold winter. We need some rain. Grandkids sounds fun, maybe the dogs will just relax and chill. Bday party sounds good too. I only know my brothers and his wifes and thats all i worry about I guess. My best friend here in Texas got rid of his mailbox so he doesnt get mail i guess. Someone ran it over and he decided not to give the idiot another one to shoot for. Lol That crazy guy texted me a long idea to sell the furniture. I told him yet again to never contact me or id swear out a complaint, he then apologized and said he has issues but he does good work. he's a narcissist and he's playing his game. But no takers and no sympathy here. Im getting up super early tomorrow to water the grass and see if the bookstore guy stops by and my realtor walks her dog with a friend and comes down our street. Shes two over I think. Very nice lady. Her husband is a retired fire fighter. I tried a science project. Had some old sweet taters tat were prowing air roots. So i placed em in a dishpan of water and left em in the shade outside. theyre growing like crazy. I'll plant em in the shade once it cools off. most of whats in shade and partial shade are fine in this heat, But what gets direct sun is dieing off. I'll do what I can for the lawn but not going broke on water. Hoping things stay calm and cool off. Scratch kodie behind the ears for me. Take good care.

Hopefully its moving away. Sounds like they have no clue what theyre doing. What is T&L? You folks need a good rain. We need a good rain, its 110 now, broke recordsI think. Power corp put out an alert to conserve, can only do so much. I may put ice cubes in the tub and soak.

Prayig the fires die down and move away. Seeing enough of this on the news in Europe. Block Party sounds fun. I bet Kodie loves hot dogs. used to do dogs and bratwurst on the grill when I had an apt. I BBQ'd a couple times for dad but it wasnt very good. lost my touch I guess. Waiting for the guy with the jewelry store to call me back and let me know what he found out and what he was pricing them for. my anxiety says he will steal the rings but its just my anxiety. Windows...if you Right click on the windows icon in the bottom left corner...click on 'search'...at the bottom you can type in 'windows update' and hit enter. or it may already be listed on the left side. That will open a menu where you can check for updates, can pause updates for 7 days, can set the hours you are active so it wont try and update then. But mine does what it wants when it wants. I do pause it though and that works well. Im afraid next time it reboots that will be it. Have to feel sorry for the wildlife. Their habitat is getting burned or at least all smoky. I wonder if it drives animals like wolves into peoples neighborhoods. For all they supposedly care about animals and endangered species you'd think theyd do a better job with the forest. Hope Panther is ok, he's probably not very happy so holed up somewhere. We were in the 90s for to days...cold front. now back to the mid 100s, this has to cool off sometime. You folks take good care and hope life gets calm and the smoke goes away. take care

Praying you folks dont get the fires your way. If I dont hear from ya for awhile I know you bugged out. I set my laptop to not update for a week. Seems it hit an error at 11:19 but kept trying to update. It 'should' stop trying when it hits an error. Their process defies logic. It tries to update Windows during my busy hours when it shouldnt. It does anyway and is unusable. So I stop and rebooted to get it done. That was over an hour ago and at first it wouldnt restart and now its trying but cant get booted. It 'should' be that during bootup nothing related to updates is going on, because it makes it so sloooow. But nope, its running update stuff while trying to reboot. And then it gets stuck on a black screen and no idea if its working or it died. Extremely poorly done. At the moment am looking at buying a new laptop, which I can afford but dont need to be spending money right now. I'm 65 and on SS. Money from the estate and house sale will mean I dont starve or live on the street for a few years at least. But working means I can save that money til my later years when I cant work. My brother just assumesI can get a well paid job. He's an idiot. Just one reason why I dont trust him. His expectations are ridiculous. But one thing at a time. Can you use big bird houses for bats? Or do they need to be able to hang/perch? upside down. You have evil squirrels lol. We get squirrels, lizards, rats, neighbor says raccoons, owls, hawks, dove, chickadee, wren, cardinals, bluejays...although the birds less often since I no longer leave food out. From the sound of things I think you do well keeping up with things. It would keep anyone of any age busy. I just hope the fires will subside and you can get some peace and quiet. Take good care.

How are you doing, hows the fire, did you have to bug out? Praying it dies down and things get managable. Ive noticed it too, I now heal very very slowly. I guess the important thing is you're healing. just be careful and not tweak it again. thats been one of my tricks. hows Kodie with the air with the fires close. Does he seem to notice at all? I took all the jewelry to a jeweler by my grocery store and I may have gotten very very lucky. Initially a lady sorted it all into fine jewelry and costume stuff, most was costume stuff. But there are five pieces that are very good. one I knew from the old Ins appraisal sheet and another as well though less nice. The other three are either aquamarine or topaz. I was initially interested in selling them to him even tho I wouldnt et much because much of it they just buy for the stone. But he liked the rings and said they would sell them in the store and wouldnt break them up fo the stones unless I asked them. So we have probably/hopefully 2-3 months to see if they will sell. And if they do sell will probably be worth what we will make on the estate sale, im guessing. The owner is a very nice man and I trust him. And I did take pictures of them before I went back to the jewelers. I no longer worry about a buyer for the old 78s, no one wants them. Might have one place to buy the DVD movies but not holding my breath. Might have a bookstore that could buy Dads library but breath not being held. And now a list of 7 or 8 estate sale companies. And one of them was recommended by a lady at the jewelers. I took the Ins book and found what furniture I could and tagged them with the prices. I figure my best sale on each might be 64% of that old Ins price. I keep reading prices have gone down and no one wants antiques. Meanwhile it was 108...again. Hate Microsoft myself. Every time I update Windows it takes all day and stalls a few times. Always hold my breath. it always tries to dowload files during a time when it shouldnt. I think they just make it worse and worse. Im pretty sure theyd love to make it where we have no control at all and they control everything. I had always considered my purpose was my artwork and telling stories but thats prettymuch left me now. So I just dont know. I'll need a fulltime job making $20/hr to survive and after that we shall see. Ever since surgery I have trouble concentrating, reading, forming complex ideas. I need to just work on it and see if it will fix. Their suggestion of elec cars is a big joke. they need something to tell people. itsnot really doable in any way at this point and all the points you bring up are very good. plus the terrible things it does to the encironment to mine lithium etc. the batteries are very expensive and wear down easily. just read an article that said EV batteries can lose up to a third of its charge in 100+ temps. Really wouldnt want to be stranded in Texas in 100+. Just like their idea of wind power. As they have done it it isnt feasible and wont solve the problem. Why havent they engineered a cleaner more efficient fuel and engine. The real problems they dont even work on. You were born on a deer hunting trip? Must have been a good sign. Bet that makes a good story. I cant remember ever seeing a bat in person. Just at a distance when we went to New Mexico and toured a cavern. At nightfall theyd al wake up and rush out into the dark night. Ive seen too many vampire movies I think lol. That would be very cool to have deer in the yard to watch. Mom always loved watching her birds and squirrels. She would be tickled pink at a deer family. I understand how you feel about your house. its home, and safe and you can relax and just be yourself. Its cozy. As much as i dont want to keep this house in a way i do, because its home and I know that by and large no one will mess with me here. Once I leave I'll have close neighbors and a landlord and i could get tossed at any time for any reason. Here i have a safe space and no one is even close to me. its completely quiet and safe. Though I found out that people cruise the neighborhoods and look for things to steal. So i no longer go nextdoor and leave my garage door open. I love owls, they seem to be about the most relaxed animal ive ever seen. They just look at me like theyre asking "Can we help you?'. I hope the fires have shifted away and died down and that you're safe. be carful and take good care.

I think tbh if I pursued my health concerns I would get so anxious and worried i would be useless, stack that on top of estate anxiety and worried about finding a place torent. my realtor already warned me that with no job, even tho I just got a huge sum of cash from selling the house, it will be hard to rent a house. Brother suggests buying acondo. he's worthless in this. The goal is to not have equity tied up in a home, its no good. Theres no one to leave it to and i may need the cash. Im sure I will cause no one is going to hire me. Glad your foot is better. Thats why I dont like seeing a nurse practitioner. Thats about all i can see at the place i go to. Hoping your foot gets back to normal tho thinking it will take some time. Why does it seem that as we get older things get hurt more? I agree, this world had gone all to hell. The old rock solid values arent valued anymore. People reap what they sow, companies too. And they have no clue. Your NDEs are chilling. And you were calm during those... I'm glad you stayed. I think you've had a good influence on many lives. I kind of see my purpose in life as taking care of myfolks. And now as settling the estate. After that i dont think i have a purpose. I guess if I make it that far i'll find out. Kodie never ceases to amaze me with his connection to you. I think he is an angel in disguise. I heard something this morning, either in the attic or running across the roof. I thought of a raccoon but I figured theyd only come out at night. I doubt any animal would want to be in that attic in summer. Do you have a couple cans of the wasp foam spray? Im a bad shot but when Ihit its all over. I found also they dont like making a nest on new paint. not suggesting you repaint anything though. Estate-finding out those 441 78s records are about worthless. They have alot of big band, crooners and types of music no one buys. Also finding out same for DVD movies. Checked a couple sites online and movies offering under 50 cents a piece. Checked a couple books as well and the ones they would buy they paid 35 cents. So not worrying about those. There is a store left that buys movies so I will call and see if theyre interested. And need to call one big bookstore downtown to see if they want to come look at dads library and buy his books. What dad had of all these is not popular and doesnt sell. There might be a couple collector items in there but not worth my time to price hundreds of items. I feel defeated. But I have a list of5 jewelry stores to get the jewelry evaluated and try and sell as much as I can. IF that wors i'll be happy. Cali is indeed crazy. Natural gas is cheaper and burns so much cleaner. Its just all about control. They get these dumb ideas bsed on their politics and it has no relation to reality. If you cant use nat gas, or wood, or petrol then how do you cook? how do you run things. Electricity? How do they generate all that electricity. Theyre just crazy stupid. Tonight I only saw one owl at the water, I hope nothing happened to the other one. That would be so cool to have deer. I would want to set up a camera and watch em. I dont think we get bats though. That would be creepy. The buzzard or vulture was ugly enough. The paintings i created in AI. basically I write a description that tells the software what to make. then i tweak my description until I get something I like. Ive been wanting to sketch and paint again but am worried i wont have enough time to get good enough to enjoy it. maybe this AI stuff will allow me to enjoy it sooner. Well, I think I'll load the tub with ice and soak. Its being mid 100s all week and for the next two weeks probably. not anywhere near our hottest but still pretty hot. The el nino came in and theres a high front over texas...lucky us. I'm ready for Fall and to get my business settled. Hope your foot is better and you get a quiet week. Take good care.

Wow, they let that fire get way out of control. Crazy. hoping they can get that back but seems at this point thats not any time soon. Do you think they understand that if they catch it early it will save so much time and resources? Went to take the folks jewelry to their jewelers and they closed. Mr Deed started it in 1960 and it lasted 63 years. i wonder if he passed or he just retired and closed it. I have leads on a couple other places so will try and go tomorrow. I really do hate doing this. just walking in cold with a box of jewelry. I see little hope for selling the records but will keep trying. Researched a couple antique sellers. one turned out having horrible horrible reviews. One the bids start t a dollar. Each 'lot' they get $300 or 30% whichever is greater. So you may be selling a $1000desk and it goes for $100. You still owe them $200 and you get nothing...I'll pass. I'll give it August to sell things and then find an estate sale company regradless, im almost out fo time. I havent slept well for a long time. partly because its hot in here and partly because of my shoulders. Si now i turn down my thermostat 2 degress before bed. i think it helps. Found out today one of my dad's close friends has liver cancer and theyve given him 7 months to live. last time I saw him was over two years ago and he was so healthy and strong. A mutual friend says his faith in God is very strong and he is not afraid. I envy him his faith and strength. Got a letter from my GI doctor that its time for him to do an ultrasound. My PCP had wanted one to check the sludge in my gall bladder in june before she took her promotion...but my GI doctor had never mentioned it. When i mentioned my PCPs thought that my elevated liver enzymes were the sludge he ignored it. So I dont think he gets the chance to do an ultrasound for something he ignored. besides which if something is wrong im not doing anything about it. Im in estate and house sale mode and keeping my stress under control mode. have youbeen to the docs yet? is your foot swollen? tried ice? Im guessing too hot for a heating pad. i think its ice for two days then heat to increase circulation and get the swelling down. You could soak in epson salts. Kodie is just so well behaved. Itslike he really understands the setting he is in and whats needed. I have an electric mower. its so much lighter than the old gas one. I doubt I could push it. But this electric one is a breeze. Just have to make sure i dont run over the cord. I think its odd some states like Cali want to ban gasburning things and use electric. but wher do they think the electricitycomes from. A plant that burns fossil fuels. I doubt that still they arent doing serious research for a replacement, I hope im wrong. TV makes raccoons look cute and friendly. I dont mess with animals, period. I have yet to see one but from the size of the feces in my yard if its the rats they got huge. Could be a possum. But the neighbor says raccoons. Hope i dont find out. I wont remove the birdbath, i want the birds to have water. The two owls still come from time to time. They dont scare real easy either, they just stare. Like they know no other bird can beat em. I dont see a cat doing it either. Seeing a deer would be neat. Cant remember if ive ever seen one in the wild. We miss so much living in the city. I would say id love to liv e on the outskirts of town but i wont have many choices im afraid. I have slept a bit better the past 2 nights. i am so lazy now. i need to be working out and doing things every day, but i'm the king of excuses. Will see what tomorrow brings. attached a few AI artworks, its fun when i have time to play. A professional prompt writer makes 6 figures. but then again I think it requires a formal education. Oh well. Take good care of yourself and kodie and panther. hope the fires get smaller and your foot feels better.

Hows the fires now, I know you have a bugout plan, keep water and emergency food in the car? That must be very frustrating that they cant do their jobs. Or wont. Like so much of big government these days. has the air cleared up any? Strange morning here. We had two emergency incidents about 4 or 5 houses apart, no idea whats going on. The one the ambulance turned their lights off and left so hoping theyre ok. The other one the ambulance is still there with lights on so still working on them I guess. A cop car is blocking off that end of the street so wondering if its a crime scene. It's been such a nice quiet neighborhood. Well the other ambulance eventually left also so hoping that means they are ok. I dont many down on that end of the street. Everyone ive met is really nice tho. Going to be mod 100s for the forseeable future. My elec and water bills lower than last year but the grass is dieing. have to mow etc tomorrow. maybe I should just get a couple goats for the grass. Seems we have raccoons in the neighborhood. Its been coming to the birdbath whatever it is and leaving poop. Big enough that you'd guess a dog or a very large cat. neighbor says raccoons. I think its too big for the rats. The two owls still come to the birdbath. Too bad I cant feed them. I wonder if I could ask them to eat the rats. Hows kodie with the smoke, poor guy. Hows panther and that ear? The record store forgot to reply to me about dads old 78s. They finally said that from the list of 30 or so I'd sent there wasnt anything they could use but I was welcome to bring them all in and theyd take a look. Nah, I want to sell it as a collection and didnt care to stand around while they look through all 441 records. I honestly dont think any of this will work and will probably need to just do the estate sale. Take good care, here's hoping for a quiet week.

Just a note...was washingdishes and heard what sounded like my house coming apart. An ugly woodpecker was hammering on metal somewhere. he came to the birdbath for a drink. Hopefully he doesnt hang around. i put the feeder away because a rat eats from it. But in this heat i keep the birdbath out for the birds. the bluejays were taking a bath tonight. Lol, silly birds.

I guess now it's my turn for weird stuff to happen. End of last week that estate sale guy came out. A bit bossy and pushy but he seemed to know his stuff. he left and I read his contract. He expected me to pay his credit card processing fees and his payroll. From what i estimated thats a minimum of $5k. So Friday he textx me a question about the estate so i ask him if he expects me to pay his expenses and he goes into a very long explanation of why thats ok and expected in the industry. I told him id have to talk with my brother. Over the weekend i had the chance to chat with a few people in the industry. One said that some companies docharge you their payroll but if he charges his card fees walk away. two told me they shouldnt charge payroll or card fees. And one said they are the biggest and oldest estate sale company in their area and theyve never charged their clients for either, because thats their expense for doing business. Which i agree with. Yesterday the est sale guy texts me wanting to send pics of his weekend sale and I tell him thanks but in talking to my brother we've decided to try some other things. Which is true. I'm selling the music and the jewelry separately. And looking for an antiques Broker before trying an estate sale. Met my folks' friends, a couple from the end of the block. very nice people. they have possible connections at church, doubt it pans out but will see. Anyway, i tell this guy very nicely we arent using him. And he starts arguing, all in text. I reiterate that we arent using him and to let it be. he comes back with 'It isnt over, I want your sale'. That ticked me off pretty good. But he keeps on arguing...'What can i do to get you?'...and i tell him to stop and to leave me alone, to respect what ive told him before I block him and go to the cops. The idiot comments again 'Im thinking'. So I ignored him. If he contacts me again i'll go to the cops and file a complaint. If he comes here i'll call it in, have him removed, and have him sworm off the property. I cannot stand when people ignore what I tell them and just keep pushing because they want to get their way. To me he is a narcissist. Seemed nice when he was getting his way and then bullying and manipulative when he doesnt. What he doesnt understand is i know this stuff and his junk isnt going to work on me. I found him thru my realtor, who had no idea how he was. But she wont be sending anyone his way again. I hope to have found a store here that might buy Dads old 78s...and he has probably close to 4-500. Doubt I'll get anything for them. maybe a dollar or two each. But who knows. If I get lucky maybe they'll buy the cassettes and DVDs as well. Would be great. People dont want the Big bands music, guess they dont sell. But Im looking at the records, all in good condition, and making a count. I'll send em an email and see if they respond. Hopefully they will come here. And I'll go down to the jewellers. Im a bit concerned they will think i stole the jewelry but I neeed to get rid of it. Then i need to find a antiques broker, they havea website and nationwide network to sell the furniture etc. Oreven an auction house or antiques store. Talked to my brother this weekend and i told him i might take a big hit come december here. So he is sending me some extra money each month to help with bills. If it goes well that could cover electric and water. How ya feeling? maybe a little virus in the tummy as mom would say, or some food. Since surgery I'm very conscious of my stomach and Int tract. It does well unless i eat wrong, drink alot of coffee. I used to fo maalox alot or pepto sometimes. but read that pepto can cause constipation. And regularity, since surgery, has become very important. my bowels slowed down and have never quite caught up, tho i get by. Gee wiz im old, talking about my bowels, lol. Anyway, i hope you feel better now. Kodie has a real nack for sensing what you need. He is very special, like your guardian angel. I dont have any pics of the folks with the iewelry on. These are things that were in small boxes and never worn. Of course they cant prove they're stolen but last thing I need is to have to explain the estate and lack thereof. In Texas if the will is uncontested and the value is 75k or less then it doesnt need to be probated. i dont see the estate being over 75k and my bro and i are the only parties to the estate, no debt. And this is also what the atty told me. But still... Got the electrical fixed. Some plugs went out after that last bad storm. i swore i checked the breaker box but I missed one. My neighbor found it when the other neighbors were over. Very embarrassed but thankful. He says we can probably fix the leak in the sprinklers and wants to try the trim. but thats pretty high up and i dont want to try it. i hate for him to do it. He's very knowledgable in the building trades etc and i know nothing and its very embarrassing. but so thankfull he helps me. How is your air quality? has that fire been put out yet? That would be so crazy to me. I guess thats the price for living in the forests. I sure wish they'd get their act together. Good she has a handyman, did you get his name and number in case you need him to fix stuff at your house? guess i best get back to the records. i want to get a count and some artists and send an email to the record store. hope they want to buy these. Take good care of yourself and kodie and Panther.

Ive talked with a couple people, one on Reddit that claims they run the lergest and longest running estate sale business in their area. they said they never make the client pay payroll or processing fees. Processing fees they pass on to the customer. My nextdoor neighbors friend suggested I find a antiques furniture broker so thats what I'm looking for. They have a friend from their Church who used to be in estate sales and they're going to ask if he knows of any brokers. So i'm searching Google for brokers or resellers and trying to figure out looking at this 1990 insurance value book what things might be worth now. I dont want to have to pay an appraiser but just need a general idea what its worth. I have always thought that Ins pricing is double sale value but no idea really. And then I need to finally get to the jewellers and get the jewelry priced and try and sell. Im so afraid theyll think I stole it and turn me in. Lol Im dumb. I think I will need an estate sale but it wont be from the guy who came over. he didnt disclose the 'Client pays the payroll' I had to read it in the contract. I wonder how many people dont read the contract. I read a comment on google where the guy was complaining he got cheated and im betting he didnt know he was paying payroll. I decided that altho dad's money runs out after Nov I'd rather do this right than rush it and use someone who will cheat me. I'll need to take whatever money I make on the jewelry to help pay expenses. Tortoiseshell sounds pretty. I can see where raspberry is pretty too. But it matters most what you like. I guess as long as they work. But then i'm a guy and fashion doesnt seem to matter to me. I do eggs twice a week, but dont like em enough for every day, tho I might try. Supposedly I shouldnt have bacon because of the grease and its a processed food. I was supposed to have another Ultrasound to see if the sludge in my gall bladder has gotten worse. But my doctor is gone and the office has no clue. i feel ok so wont worry. Now that I have the new roof I'll worry everytime we have a threat of hail. We have a cool front, so a high of 99 today. Then back to 100s. Too bad your bees dont leave honey. Set a few jars out and they can fill em up lol. Too bad you cant sell them. I slept pretty good last night. Got some melatonin gummies. no idea if that was it but i'll take em again. It's really too hot to sleep well but nothing I can do. Shoulders can be a real pain. they have such a wide range of motion. Id say maybe a heating pad could help but its too hot for that. Most days id go for a full-body icepack. used to have a buddy from Canada that moved to Texas. he said summers he spent in a bathtub full of icewater. Prayers with Iris, I cant even imagine what she's going thru. lets hope for another quiet week. Take good care

Weve had I think 17 days over 100. But thats kinda normal for us. The record was 70 I believe, a few years ago. What they forget is that climate and temps are always changing/fluctuating. Its not realistic to say this or that is a normal. We may be in a warm trend and have real hot summers for ten years or so and then have cool ones. Supposedly right now we are in a hot minitrend within a cooling period. Way i see it people will make alot of money off climate change and not do anything good for us. by the time they figure out whats going on I'll be gone. The estate sale guy came by today. nice fella, liked the house and thinks we'll have a good sale. Needs 2 weeks to prep. So I'd have a few people in here daytimes for a week and i'd go t the hotel. Found one thats ok and runs 66/night. Still not cheap but managable. I'll get really tired of someone coming early and being here all day. That hotel is in a good area and has a fridge and microwave. IF I can run a vpn so i can use the hotel wifi I'll take a week's vacation. Then i read his contract. h expects me to pay his labor costs and credit card processing fee. I figure that will take me from getting 60% to 40%. And i will keep or have that option to keep whatever is left over. I dont know if this is legit. I did ask on Reddit and was told some companies do that. the guy said most companies charge $5k off the top for labor. He tries to minimize his. but im thinking that him and a couple others prepping for a week to ten days and then three days of a full crew...sigh. Anyway, my nextdoor neighbors know a guy who does estate sales and said theyd get a number for me. i want to ask him if this is legit and if he doesnt charge it i want him to come out. Other than that i dont sleep well anymore. im cleaning and now polishing the silver. I wonder what got Panther, maybe another cat? maybe a wild animal? Is he ok? not like you can take him to the vet. Im putting all my stuff in my room and locking it in. My cleaning supplies goes in my bathroom and im locking the door. What i have in the freezer Im taping the door shut. idiot estate guy asks me if I was selling the refridge, I had told him im stying here a couple more months, sigh.My impression is that he has not been doing well this summer. He's going to milk this one and hope it brings enough to get him out of the hole. My other worry is does he have a big enough network to bring in sales. Anyway, enough of that. Was really upset today, have to chill. What color are your glasses? Pink or a light blue? Groceries are good, I stopped eating pancakes...bad carbs. Down to cooking oatmeal 5 days and scrambled eggs and spam two days. Im tired. I now wake up at 5 or 6 am and have trouble but fall back asleep, getting some melatonin. My shoulder is much better but still cant sleep like i used to. I try sleeping on the other shoulder and now its sore. Ever since surgery all my muscles in my core tightened upsp much I cant sleep on my stomach, it really hurts the shoulder. One reason i want a hotel for a week is the a/c. it better have a good a/c. it stays 82 in the house and 84 in my room. Thats partly why i dont sleep well. So am hoping the hotel is cooler and i'll see if i sleep better. i havent had a vacation in over 6 years. I want to go somewhere different even if its just a hotel. Silly me lol. Whens the last time you had rain? Might you get some before summer is over? I should move somewhere that has rain in texas but no idea what part of the state, maybe east texas. Take good care of yourself and kodie and panther and iris and everyone. Still hoping for a quiet week for you. maybe this net week.

Couldnt get any estate companies to call me back. But my realtor suggested one guy. Talked on the phone last week and he seems really good. He's coming out friday to look and see if its worth doing. If he says yes i'll hire him on the spot. Run the sale in end of August and I can stay in the home while they prep. I cant see how this place isnt worth an estate sale. I would go to a hotel Thursday and come back sunday night/monday morning. I will look at whats left and decide if I want to keep anything. the rest he knows a company that will sell the leftovers and i will get a small part. I found a hotel close thats under $70/night and supposedly has a refridgerator and a range or microwave. only got to 92 today, tomorrow 105 and 100+ rest of the month. Ravioli sounds good. I was eating some danish cookies. I crave flavor. those are bad carbs so i tossed em. Its always something. it never fails. Wonder how long that part on your car has been missing. Good that it didnt cause problems. At least you know you can drive w/out it if need be. I dont know if red would be fashionable or not. I just dont keep up anymore. Just for fun I wonder if they can be painted. Do you have an old pair of frames they can use? I need new ones myslf, but that will have to wait. I got some grape room deoderizer, is that it? havent tried the sonic ones but may get a couple for the Fall and place one in the attic and one on the patio. DIL's parents have told her no enough that she gave up. She's not caring what havoc she causes. had a buzzard visit for a drink from the birdbath the other day, as ugly as can be. Also had a white headed falcon on the phone wires The people across the street that the lady was carrying around her sprinkler watering the yard? their grass is dieing so i dont know if they can use their sprinkler system. Their neighbor is helping them but... Wow, 90s...I cant imagine it. Honestly I dont want to be around for my 80s let alone 90s. The near future scares me. Seems crazy to me you folks are so hot there. I always had this idea you would top out in the 80s or maybe 90. Wonder if its the el Nino thing. Supposedly when we get el Nino from the West coast we're in for a hot and dry summer. We need that la Nina. Sounds like life is never easy or quiet for you. You have alot more strength than I do. I havent had as many wasps near the house. They tried a nest on the light fixture out the front door. And a huge one in my firecracker bushes. but the expanding foam does wonders. I noticed they dont like building nests on the new paint. I need to do a walk around and check tho, wasps and spiders. And lizards will race in the door. They all want in out of the heat. Eh, I dont sleep good anymore. I toss and turn all night because of my shoulders and wake up about 6 am every morning and it takes a bit to get back to sleep. Now I know how Dad felt I guess. I feel ok but in a way I'm tired. Am searching for that hotel to go in to during the sale. Almost tempted to go early. IF I can get one I can cook in or at least have a refridgerator and microwave. And IF I can use my laptop. I was thinking I could do alot of reading and writing and work on artwork. I dont think this laptop is strong enough to do gaming anymore. My job now is to get the house ready for this guy friday and hope he decides to do the sale. If he doesnt i'm lost. Here's to hoping things are quiet for you. The wasps move on. And it cools off a bit. We will be 100+ thru end of month. How I miss Fall. Take good care of yourself, and Kodie and Panther.

Sorry you fell, you ok? My glasses are very old and I can tell i need new ones but will wait til estate is done. The sale company who were supposed to call didnt. So theyre toast. the next one Im going to try and do an auction online. No one coming to the house. I hope theyll do it. It would run 4-7 days and get a check 3 weeks later. yep, its always something. just take care of yourself. Is kodie ok? Sounds like his friend plays too rough. I never had problems sleeping before surgery. now i wak up an hour or so early, no matter whe I go to sleep. Im worn out. I hope you get some sleep. Thats not good for us. I'm ordering grape gel, thank you. Havent heard them in the attic in awhile but will have it for the Fall. Wow, your DIL is a trip and makes many assumptions. Im guessing her folks tell her no. My neighbor tells me not to stress etc etc etc. So I'll tell you not to stress it. just tell people 'No' and stay home and relax. I sure hope they can get your car fixed soon. Thats my big fear, having car trouble. I need to find a lace to take it for when it happens. I'll pretend to be your doctor and I prescribe for you to stay home a rest for a week. No phone, no going places, just rest and relaxation. Take good care of yourself, hoping for quiet for you and Kodie.

Wow, thats way too hot. I would have never believed you folks got that warm. We're upper 90s and the sunny flower beds are all but gone and the ivy atop the stone wall is really hurting. But I cant water extra, too expensive and wont help. Havent done a contract with the estate sale people, havent even had em come out. Im guessing she calls me monday. I wont leave for a week. Realtor and my neighbor say thats not right. I dont like that she acts like im there for her convenience. Nor that she wants to dictate terms. I think I've just had enough of everyone and everybody so she's out of luck. Ive been bending over backwards this whole time and i think I just broke. Well my phone bill is due tomorrow. So we'll find out if Boost still has problems. Every other month, and am on autopay, my bill gets paid...isnt applied to my acct...they shut it off...and i call and yell until they turn it back on. Except next time it happens im switching to someone else. I feel sorry for kodie. Hopefully they can fix him up. I guess thats what happens when you're a smaller dog. Crazy with the fires. Thats one part of living there I never heard about when I was young. Knew a guy I worked with thru YoungLife who loved to go camping and hiking up there. His photos were awesome. I'd try and send some rain your way but we probably wont see any til September. One thing I remembered through this estate stuff. They arent my friend and they arent gooing to be dependable or trustworthy. All I am to them is dollar signs. They only care as long as they think they can make money off of me. I would be willing to go to a hoteml for the three days of the sale, with a lock on my door. I have to trust them to help me get this done but I dont trust them to be caring for my best interest. If I ever felt more alone in life I cant remember it. Maybe my divorce.But, I will make it through this. I'm laughing about the guy who bought the house in the picth black fire fallout. I guess thats common enough it ddnt bother him. Nextdoor neighbour told me this one. The folks across the street came over from China 16 years ago. this is their first home. My nextdoo neighbour walked out to get his paper one morning and saw the lady across the street sprinkling her lawn. She had picked up the sprinkler nd was walking around using it to water the grass manually. One of the neighbours has been helping them understand things guess he missed that one. I have the birdfeeder put away because there are rats in the neighborhood and they come eat it. I felt bad for the small birds cause they always would sit at the window and look at Mom. It was uncanny. So I left some on the patio. Sure enough that night one was eating it. Nextdoor neighbour keeps telling me there's no rats. If I kill another one i'm putting it on his doorstep. I went through another room. Turned over all the furniture and cleaned and cleaned all the plates etc. Fun times lol. I hope kodie's ok and your heatwave cools off. It's always something. Know what I miss sometimes? Ice Cream sandwiches and Nutty Buddies. I miss alot of things sometimes. Oh well. take good care of yourself, hoping you get a nice quiet week.

yes, decided not replace but maybe have it stretched, Talked to the estate sale lady. She was all ready to go until I told her i lived here and wanted to be in the house because I have nowhere to go. I 'culd' get a hotel for a week and the estate can pay me back. but then theres eating out, which is very unhealthy. Id have to put locks on my door and my bathroom door. Tbh I would wnt to stop by after theyre done and check the place. i would be scared to deathsomeone break into the house and steal my stuff. The way she phrased it asking me if I was planning on being gone the week of the sale makes it sound like she wants an entire week to herself. I dont know if anyone will do the sale with me there so i may have to shell out for a hotel. I 'hate' payinge xpenses and whittling away at my money. She was supposed to call me back and hasnt. She wanted pics of the things which i sent. Very nice antiques etc. I texted myreal estate agent that the estate sale lady may be coming by tomorrow because she had wanted to be here but she didnt answer either. I guess I made everyone mad. What I didnt like is that the estate sale lady strongly made the impression it was all about her making money and had nothing to do with me. Hope Kodie is better, all dogs arent as kind as he is. I was putting cortisol cream and antibiotic cream and covering. They stopped itching after several days and almost gone but still real visible. I think I used Ortho granules, not sure, i'd have to see the package. yep, no probate. Thats what the atty said too. he said for the amount and since the Will states we split and since bro has no issues, then no probate. I just have to get someone to do the estae sale and figure out how to report it and do taxes etc. I think next week io will call the tax guy. On the one hand the estate company may want to do it as dads estate. but we didnt for a dads estate. So I assume its sold as my things and my income and i would pay texas except as I understand it I only would pay texas on capitol gains over the value when i got the goods. Which I dont know how you figure it, anyway, will ask the tax guy. They had fireworks in my town but couldnt see em for the overcast. They do so few fun things anymore. I wouldnt go anyway, wouldnt trust it to be safe. Ive been going through the house and cleaning and decided to take misc stuff and place in a big box to sort later. Just want to get it as clean as I can for the sale, if we have one. I'll keep cleaning and sorting until I do. I REALLY need to sell the two rings. hate that kind of thing and I know it wont get much and that will break my heart. Not real optimistic at this point. The real estate agent and sale ladies are good friends so makes me wonder that they both havent replied. Oh well. Heatwve coming. I'll mow tomorrow before it hits. Losing my flowers from seed in the sunny beds, just too hot. lost my pumpkins already. Sad to think I wont have yard again. Oh well, will just be soooooooo happy when we get the estate sale done and the house sold. the stress is amazingly high. I need a vacation when this is all over. Hoping you dont get the fires too close this year. Is it pretty dry still? We all need some rain. have a good and quiet week. take care

Tell people Kodie is your emotional support dog when they ask what issues you have, tell them stupid nosy people give you anxiety. Lol. Its not always the lead me through the crowd dog, its a comfort aid i believe. You could also tell them that peons walk and royalty rides and see if they get it. I talked to the prospective real estate lady and I'm going to use her at this point. She seems very nice and has already been very helpful. I was up front with her and told her what needs fixing here and what my plans are and she said she was glad I'm willing to do the right thing. The carpet definitely will need to be stretched and replaced. But I dont see me putting it in. She said we can discount the cost of new carpet from the sale price. She had two people she recommends for estate sales and called them monday night and is now suggesting the lady. I can decide for myself what to do with whats left and she will charge 40%. But I will need to convince her to let me be here during. Otherwise I wont use her. I wont spend the better part of a long weekend at the neighbors, even if they ask. And hotels are expensive. Although that would be fun. I think the proceeds will pay water and electric for that month, We are in the middle of a week of 100+, heat index topping 115. I forgot to water my grass this morning. I'm already losing the flowers in the sunny beds. Thats a beautiful sky. I bet you get some nice ones. Its kind of crowded here so I dont get to see many. Sometimes i wish it had two stories and a balcony. I keep asking about how much of value do you get in an estate sale and no answers. I have the impression its just one step above a garage sale and that breaks my heart. I just hope its enough to pay for repairs and heavne forbid theres a problem with the foundation. Going to see if I can fix the sprinklers myself, at least the leak. My neighbor might help me. Need some electrical work and the trim fixed, I hope thats all. I'm going to redo the wall under the reachthrough bar myself...remove wallpaper and paint. Its a small section. I think Kodie understands, maybe not words but moods and emotions. He really is an emotionally supportive dog. I made some new friends, right before I droped some fireant crystals on them. Got about 8 bites and its not fun. Going to be very careful from now on. I thought it was just regular ants. Oops. I cant believe the courts are still backed up. If I had to wait that long I'd go broke and lose the house. The estate sale lady is out on vacation this week so will call her monday. They are pretty busy so I'm hoping August and then sell the house the second half of october. Hoping the real estate lady can help with knowing what neighborhoods are safe. And need to talk with dad's taxman. I know the sale company will collect sales tax and file it etc but since there was no estate opened we have no tax number. I assume we treat it as me selling my stuff and its my income to pay taxes on, but really need his thoughts. I talked to two attorneys and both said no need to open an estate or probate the Will. My bro and I are the only concerned parties and are named in the Will. What I was told is that as long as we are ok with things its fine. My dad had asked me why he couldnt just give me his possessions. i asked the first atty and he said that was fine. I will be so happy when this is all over. however, brother wont be happy because he thinks an estate sale brings full value and that everything has increased in value, that the antiques are worth so much. And thats not true, the opposite. Anyway, i hope the courts get it together and get going. Sadly nothing can be done. Our heat went under 100 for a couple weeks then back to 100. Thats texas in summer. I will lose alot of flowers, my pumpkins are gone. Tomorrow I can water so will get up early. Woohoo... Hope youall have a good holiday weekend. Do they shoot fireworks up there? Do you visit the kids for bbq or anything? Ive considered getting another small grill but somehow just havent done it yet. If Im doing it it must be soon. Wish me luck, will be calling the estate sale people Monday. Take care

The place I asked about the dishes says they are a custom made Victorian set, Limoge, but they dont need them. I asked if they were rare and worth more than an estate sale. They replied theyre only as valuable as someone is willing to pay. They knew what I was asking. I talked to the real estate lady and she is very nice, I like her. She knows two people who theyve had do estate sales. The first is a guy, who she says is very blunt, but a good guy. She also told me most have a clause in the contract that they get whatever is left over. I told her I wont do that. But this guy she spoke of can take furniture on consignment to sell any leftover antiques. Shes going to make a few calls and get back to me next week. I cant sell before the end of October but I dont want to wait til last minute.Will be interesting to walk the house with hr and get her feedback on what to do. Poor Kodie, hopefully now he is well and relaxing. That was an ordeal for him. I can see him riding around in the shopping cart, that must have been fun. he has the best temperament Ive ever heard of. We get clouds every daym ten drops of rain and thats it. It all goes past us to Dallas. I had to finally turn the AC on, at 82. Have to start watering and that bill will go up. I sound like a homeowner. I would love weather in the 50s and 60s. I think in a former life I lived there. Maybe im just crazy, but a tree on your property belongs to you and if they need to do anything need to talk with you first. People have no compassion or respect for others, only themselves. Sorry you lost the beauty of that tree. I was remembering the house before this one, it had a pink mimosa tree in the corner. That came from cutting from our great aunt and uncles house. Here they have a redcap flowers that my aunt gave them, there's a few coming up. I forgot what they looked like until one bloomed. A large squarish dark green leaf...the flowers are like an old cloth cap and red red. beautiful. I was thinking about my great Aunt Dottie, she was like a second mom when we were in Chicago. Very nice lady. I realized I know so little about her and I had never asked. Now I have no way of knowing. When she was very old and dementia was robbing her, as well as becoming weak and frail, they moved her here so my folks could watch over her in the nursing home. They put her in the one our doctor had his Mom. Mom visited her every single day. The last time I visited she didnt recognize me, she remembered me much younger. My folks mentioned that I had car trouble on the drive home. My Aunt reared up in bed and cried, 'help hi, help him'. I still cry. But I wasnt strong enough to go back. She didnt know who I was but I was in her heart and her love was strong. She and my great Uncle were such wonderful people, really special. Got my hair cut for the first time by a professional since covid started. By my dad's old barber. I so much prefer the atmosphere of an old barbershop, too bad no one is ever in there. Peggy's estate....wow, and why the atty recommended I not file the Will. I dont know if thats the usual or just that judge but sounds excessively crazy. Funny how we are all supposed to follow the rules when its to their benefit but what affects us goes so slow. It will eventually come to putting so many out of work. I dont know what people are supposed to do, or what I'm supposed to do. thereis only greed and no social responsibility. I played alot with AI art software this week. It can do beautifull things that I culdnt do otherwise. But it cant do everything and messes alot of things up. Im sure theres much better out there than what the public is given. Here's a small one of a landscape. One thing it brings up is makes you think about how to describe something. And how do you describe so the software understands. Theyre not always realistic like a photo. But sometimes i like that better. I dont know but I think I'm going to explore making art this way...and hope I dont have to return anything. O ordered toilet paper big pack off amazon. EVERY time they 'hand it off' to the post office it gets lost. Sure enough it made it to the facility here in town and got lost. How do they lose a big pack of toilet paper? So after a few days i got on amazon and the chat AI gave me a refund. I clearly checked the box stating it was missing/I didnt get it. Now my account shows theyre waiting for me to return it. Im wondering since I cant return what i never got of they will take my refund back. They proved your point nicely. Did Panther see Kodie in his cone? Did he think it strange? Take good care of yourself and the tribe. Good to hear Kodie is back. Hoping you get a quiet week.

oops sorry a shade for the windshield of a truck. it helps maybe 2 degrees. Heat in the 90s and will climb, no sign of rain. have to get ahold of estate people next week. I sent pics of the lemoges dishes to a place online and they cant identifyit. they said its custom made Victorian era. That tells me is rare and valuable so it wont be in the estate sale. havent felt good for a few days. need to get my butt going and get my energy back. For all so many people talk about the environment and conservation and the money that gets paid...and then the people in charge make bad mistakes, it gets so frustrating. Almsotas if they dont really know what theyre doing. Yep, she has issues and he suffers, hes a good man for not leaving. My best friends exwife was nuts. She and I got along fine. But she was recovering from drug and alcohol issues and had other issues all her life. Her parents really appreciated him and told him they'd always think of him as a son. My ex was nuts off the scale, used me to get away from her folks, and scarred me for life. I was never able to have a serious relationship after that. My shoulder...Its healing and getting stronger. When i remember i stretch it in every direction, it hurts but has to be done. I dont want to lose function. I dont leep well, cant get comfortable. so i wake up, I toss and turn. maybe one day. And now it will behot til October. I have to wait to sell the house til after mid october to avoid appreciation taxes, hope the market stays strong. My mom got arthritis bad. She had to quit painting. her hands got gnarled and twisted fingers. tried everything but nothing helped. I still think of my folks all the time. i guess that doesnt change. I found a soapstone carved in Tibet that I had given Mom. She put her Chanel no.5 in it. I keep it in my room as a reminder. I think of dad in better times. I didnt understand what he was going through and should have done things so differently. I stopped taking him out to eat because of covid. But at his age it didnt matter and i should have taken him anyway. I have so many regrets and dont know how to deal with them, they serve no purpose now. I dont see how the rangers can just come cut a tree down. I would think they have to ask or tell first. I would be really mad. Some places you go into someones yard unasked you get shot at. maybe Texas is different. You can file a complaint on Spectrum with the FTC and th atty generals office. Could also talk to the bank about charging it back. Companies dont understand that their software is only as good as the person who wrote it, meaning its broken already. I can see the business benefit of AI, but as you say automatic customer service systems are a crime. there will always be many instances that the system cant handle. people, esp us older folks, want a person. Theyre going to use it for all the things they can eventually. What no one is addressing is all the people out of work, who wont be employable. The ones available to the public, as far as i know, can gather information but not draw conclusions. But for all that the public has, the military and powers that be have AI that way ahead. Ive been playing with art and its interesting, I played with music the other night and fun. Its in its infancy. I doubt I'll be around for the full development but society will be in for some big shocks. After the estate sale and/or sale of the jewelry if it happens will hve some fixit money. I know of fixing the sprinklers, lots of electrical issues. im guessing from the outge during the storm and i didnt know about em all when zi talked to Ins....lots of small things. but costly. i have a couple holes in the garage to fix and the wallpaper replaced by paint. the carpet needs replacing but doubt that happens. I need some of the money to pay the mortgage so Im not going broke. What i read in several places is the estate should pay the mortgage and bills until the house is sold. And if the executor is fixing up then he can stay in the home. Unfortunately my health ruined all plans. theres a 2000 dollar mortgage and only 700 a month from estate savings to help, so i get the rest. One day this will all be over and I'll rest. If i make it. Take good care of yourself. Hope you can get some peace and quiet and some rest.

Ive been looking at AI a bit this week. made this fun little pic. I am terrible at using it but some times it makes something fun. I have also been playing with ChatGPT. it can be a nice basic research tool. Type in a question and it will search answers. To me no better than searching on Bing. maybe other AIs are better. I'll have to look when i can.

George sounds like a good man. Fishing and camping and looking up at a starry sky soothes the soul. maybe thats why so many younger people are high strung, they never get out of the city. Poor Kodie, is he ok now? I know he doesnt like whats going on but hopefully soon he will be good to go. Theres a clorox sanitizer I used to wash dads sheets in and it worked very well. Used to spray the sheets with pet urine cleaner and sponge wipe then send thru washer. And clean the mattress just to be safe. We had a waterproof mattress cover but you never can be too safe. lots of bad memories from back then. I have to give my Dad respect for hanging in there and fighting. many regrets but too late for that now. How are the fires. Ive seen about the smoke from the Canadien fires drifting all over the northeast but we never see anything about fires up your way. I held off turning on the AC until today. it was 96 and my room got to 88. It gets late afternoon sun so I placed a truck sade in the window reflecting the heat back out and then the blinds and then the curtain...but did no good. Put the AC on 82, room went to 86 and house 82. Set AC to 84 androom is now 84 so Im ok. I had hopes ofsaving myself from high elec and water bills but not gonna happen. I start watering tomorrow. next week we start a week at least of 100+. I also will be calling the real estate lady next week and try and get ahold of her friend who does estate sales. Hoping I can use both of them and they wont expect too much. I need to get this rolling. I fear my peace and quiet will soon be gone. Ive only been to Sixflags Over Texas. that was fun as a kid. I bet Disneyland is more fun. I hear its ver expensive now. SIL still crazy? Does she have anxiety or something? Sounds like she has some emotional issues or something. Praying for you some peace and quiet. Seems things are always happening. I got to where I stopped answering the phone unless its someone i know. If they dont leave a voicemail then i say its spam and let it go. If they keep calling I block them. A Fair sounds really fun. We used to get a carnival every year but thats long gone. now we have to go to the Texas State Fair and I'll pass on that. I prefer the smaller country ones. Bonfires, hayrides, stuff like that. But those times are gone. Do you normally sleep well? Sleep through the night? I ask because for years with drinking I would get up several times a night. After surgery it was wonderfull, I would only get up once. Since I sprained my left shoulder, and its healing, its so hard to sleep through the night. Never comfortable and wake up several times, wake up with sore shoulders and arms. Im a mess lol. Been working my way through the house going over the estate and cleaning. A couple rooms to go. I wish I had a way of knowing what things were worth and a way to sell them where I'd get decent value. There are a few things I will try with. the rest will just have to break my heart. I think this is so hard for me because I have nothing going in my own life. Well, I'll get thru this and then hopefully will fix the rest. In the kitchen there's a wall with peeling wallpaper that I need to strip and paint. So how are you feeling. The hands, the throat. Does the fallout from the fires make your throat worse? And how is Panther doing? Does he just eat what you give him or does he sit on the porch and munch on a mouse or bug? Hoping you get some peace and quiet and that Kodie gets well soon. Take good care of yourself.

My neighbors are nice folks. 80s and they have several kids and grandkids in town. but theyr always busy. I mowed my yard and went ahead and mowed their front. I noticed he has a balance problem. He fell a couple months ago. She tried to catch him and fellas well. He has Parkinsons and she's doing her best to handle things. My heart goes out to them and i wish their family would come out more often. Sounds Like Jack is a real blessing. Good that you have him to help with a few things. panther sounds like a big fluffy cat. Does he enjoy laying out in the sun? On less hot days i get my yardchair and sit out in the sun to get my Vit-D. Neighbor says im like an old fat cat lol. Although I lost 20-25 pounds since my surgery etc and pretty much keep it off. Hows your hayfever doing? Do you get it for a long time? Must be alot of things out there. We're getting to 90 now but still 70 at night so havent run the AC yet or watered the yard. Will need to do both soon and the bills will go up. I tested the sprinkler system and another sprinkler has lost its head. Ill just do it the old fashioned way. Whens the last time you went on vacation? I cant remember mine. Im guessing you folks used to g on family vacations when your husband was alive? Did you two ever go on fishing trips? We used to go to arkansas every summer to be with relatives and lots of fishing. Hoping you've gotten some sleep and rest. Its always something isnt it? I got some lemon juice and have a glass of water with lemon every day. Worked on the folks' room today. I keep trying to find meaning in something so it all makes some kind of sense. And thats not going to happen. Trying to focus, altho I'm using any excuse to do other things. I need to go thru the estate and clean house so i can talk to the real estate lady and estate sale lady and get things going. I need to be out in six months tops. havent heard from my brother in about a month. guess I'll call him when plans are made. Thank you for the encouragement. You're family now So how is Kodie doing? I bet he is a bundle of energy. If you could only bottle it. Take good care of yourself. Hope things are peacefull for awhile.

Beer...the other thing I consider is that its not sustainable. It gets expensive. I do enjoy the relaxation effect of two beers over 3 hours before bed. but Its not good for me. And then at what point do I stop? because its a ticking timebomb Im done with alcohol. Someone from the clinical transition team at the doctors company left a msg for me. No idea who or what it is but i'm so tired of them calling trying to gt me into the system. Theyve called already to have my 'health assessment' done and ive told them no thanks, dont need it, dont want a physical. Dont want them to start running tests and doing this and that. the last time they had my bloodwork the doc told me to worry about my sugars and that was all, no help whatsoever. Theyve lied to me at least 4 times and the way they misdiagnosed Dad's damaged disks and the way their hospital treated him was abominable. I need to find a new doctor. I liked my old one but she got promoted and is gone. So they 'assign' me to some guy. They didnt ask who i wanted. And partly why I have this fear of them running me into the system, tests and finding things that 'might be wrong' and running tests until they 'find' something. No. I called that lady back and left a msg thanking her but am not interested, but Im sure they'll call back. One thing I absolutely hate is when you tell people no and they continue to argue. Very disrespectful and I'm going to start being very rude when people do that. I just hope and pray i can be healthy and not need a doctor or a hospital for a long time. Because God help me if I have to go into theirs. Although I will say that for my operation i went into the brnch in another city 30 minutes away and the staff, esp nurses were awesome. I was treated very well. I read that drinking over 15 beers a week is excessive and damaging. I did that for years. Wasnt getting drunk, stretched it out over an evening drinking maybe 3...bt read thats damaging. But I stopped for over a year and supposedly if the liver isnt too far gone it will heal itself. So I'll hope that happened a bit and will again here. the good thing is i have no symptoms. My nutrition is better but still need to change. I have started eating salads, but I am seeking good emotions in snacking and thats going to kill me. I crave the flavor and the comfort. I need to find a simple healthy snack or just toughen up and stop the snacking altogether. Wow, thats a busy busy week. You have more energy than i do some days. Doctors have too many little ways of doing things. Sometimes its more about procedure than the patient. Hopefully you can get caught up and rest easy a few days and enjoy the warm weather. We've been cool, low 80s but soon up to 90. I hope your family appreciates how much you go through for them. that sounds like funtimes, too bad they dont live closer. I want cake at times, but I couldnt continue having it so what would be the point of cheating. Ahhh, a burger sounds really good right now. Theres a place here thats mostly in the southeast and they serve a great steakburger. Too bad theoir fries are bad. But they have things like a pimiento cheese sandwich. Mom loved those. Sometimes I think of things like that or see something i want to tell or show them. makes me very sad. Ive been putting off going thru the estate one final time but started today. Started in dads den with all his books. My folks saved so many kids books and i actually remember them. I found the Dr Doolittle book I loved as a child and read so many times. And it struck me that my childhood, my past, is now gone. those feelings, those good times are long gone. And I was hit with such remorse that i didnt spend more time sharing with my folks the joys of childhood. I just wish they were here to sit and talk again. And yet my brother doesnt seem to have ever been much bothered at all. He's welcome he doesnt have to deal with this. Spectrum is a pain, hope you can get them to wake up. maybe talk to your bank. Sounds like they dont communicate intrenally. Wish there were someone out there to help you. sad that the mormons wont do a good deed. Guess theyre just as bad as all the rest. You think maybe someone from church could come out for an afternoon and help out? I guess Panther feels safe there. I think of cats and think of one of those fancy cat towers with carpet on it. they could put a heck of one in your yard. How are you feeling otherwise? the hand still hurts but what about your throat, is that ok? I finished painting the garage and I think I'm probably done trimming the trees. they could use alot more but have to turn to other things. Ive been drinking water and green tea and some coffee, and going to try lemon water, which is supposed to be good for the liver etc. Any other suggestions? I do have several teas but just water gets old some days. But its good for me. I bet the recital was nice. I know you're very proud of her. Honestly, i find that i waste time. I dont understand it but working on the yard or house is easy and i'd do it all day if I was strong enough. But studying or doing artwork I just drag like crazy. i have to fix this. I wish so much i could motivate to workout and get stronger and learn my new software so i can do artwork again. But I wont stop trying. just not sure what to do. Take good care of yourself, and kodie, and Panther. Hoping you have a good week and get some peace.