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I'm at the point of believing all companies are liars and cheats. They say what it takes to pull people in then do as they please. If nothing else you could write a letter and keep a copy and send it so they have to sign it. Lets hope it all comes out in the wash. When I was in college I worked in a dining hall. I made sure to rinse as much food out of pans as I could and soak in hotwater. Some that were bad i'd set on the counter and fill with hot water and degreaser. I think some people have never done it and either dont care or dont understand what to do. I look at how the past 6 years have gone and its been a downward spiral. And the way my health fell apart there after dad passed. I dont know what else is coming. I'm having a hard time getting back in shape and thats very important. I have been eating cleaner but ive been getting cravings and been snacking. Very unhealthy. Whatever happens I'll be working til my last day. Been working in the yard and took down a huge limb in the back. The nieghbor has a HUGE tree on the fence and it stretches way over into may yard. I just waiting for some tree wound seal and seal it off. Maybe try and trim it farther back. Other than trimming back the larger remnants of branches I'm done. In a couple weeks we get to 90 and that means the yard is on its own. Started to test the sprinkler system and another head is broken off. Its a geyser...guess Ill use the old fashioned kind. I hadnt had a drink for over a year. but this last week ive had 2 a night. But I'm going to have to quit, its putting weight back on me and makes me tired. I never understood my elevated liver enzymes. I hdnt drank in over a year so that couldnt be it. I still think it was from the drugs for surgery. I was taking supplements that are supposed to be safe, like a multi-vitamin, C, D, Fish Oil. So I dont think those were it. They evidently saw nothing on the ultrasound and I dont know if the MRI showed the liver as well. Thats one thing that makes me mad is the lack of information. Like the GI doc never explained why he didnt think my enzymes were from sludge in my gall bladder like the doc said. Or why he wanted to go straight to a biopsy of my liver instead of an mri. Whats he going to do, tsrta taking a biopsy on all my organs? Now the doctor's office is calling again for me to do a checkup. ive already told them Im not interested. I guess the price you pay for living in the semi wilds is travel time. You do travel alot. Hopefully the weather isnt bad. Hopefully you can get caught up and enjoy some peace and quiet. At least the snow is over? We keep getting forecasted for rain and nothing happens. The water bill will start climbing, but not running the AC yet. My bloodwork didnt show evidence of cancer. It showed one marker pre diabetic but another marker for diabetes was fine. Other than spraining/tearing my shoulder I've felt fine. One of my big fears is they see an old man an d want to start running me throiugh the system and start doing alot of stuff. Im not a pin cushion or a operating dummy. The only thing that concerns me about the elevated liver enzymes is the formation of gallstones. the way things have been I just hold my breath... As time goes by, more and more, its just natural we can do less. Good that you have someone to help though. Its amazing how much work there is to do. And its always something. I hold my breath every time we do get a storm esp when they mention hail. I thought I was putting weed n feed on the lawn but it was just feed. Silly me. Friend sent me an article about spraying sugar water on the grass. It promotes root growth and the grass squeezes out the weeds. I really dont know what to do about studying. I read they arent hiring new people now. I should probably refresh my IT knowledge as my certifications expire in October. But that 225 bucks. Re subbing the UX website is 130 bucks. I'll be concerned with other things until the house is sold. Take good care of yourself and Kodie and Panther.

Its very hard losing those so close. Even more so to watch as they slip away. In a way Ithink it was best that Mom passed when she did and avoided alot of health issues. At some point I will not want to be here and I hope and pray to pass peacefully in my sleep. Those 5 days of rain...the first 3 evaporated. The weekend is supposed to be two days with alot of rain. Believe it when I see it. I dontwant to water the grass, it wont grow anyway, just weeds. This country has gone from a place where we all have a common obejective, but we think to acheive it in different ways...to several camps that cant agree or work together. If you dont agree with the popular ideas you are immediately a devil and the enemy. I dont even argue with people online. Nothing will sway them. I just do alot of blocking and stay away from political discussions etc. And I agree with you. This is not a place to discuss politics and policy. Grief cuts thru all boundaries and people shoul leave their agendas at the door, get on their knees and pray. Or at least support each other. I am a people pleaser like Mom was. And I hate that about myself. But when I get pushed far enough I stand up and fight. I dont like conflict but when the time comes I'll fight til the end. People think I'm nice and they can take advantage of me. Work was like that. IF I ever get to work again I will have to be quiet and not stand for any bs. But Mom was also very stubborn when it came to family. She would fight for us like crazy. Thats one thing I dearly loved about her. I think that all we can do is be true to ourselves and what we believe. In the end we are the ones responsible for our lives. And esp nowadays people are so deceitful and gaslighting. When I went through my divorce I started drinking and I wonder at times how I made it through. I really think that God had His hand on me or I would have gone off the deep end. It's hard now to imagine anything good left in Life. And I dont see me living more than maybe a couple years. Since Dad passed and my health went downhill. I never got an order for a bloodtest from the GI doctor so I decided I'll focus on the estate. Still taking the Vit-E and Milkthistle so maybe it will help. Almost dne painting the garage. I feel like i'm desecrating a church. dad spentso many happy hours there. But the walls look so much better. I need to see if I can sell his tools and tool cabinets. I dontknow about sales tax for that. And no idea on pricing. And I need to go see if I can sell the jewelry. I have Boost for my phone. They got hacked in March and their systems have been messed up since. This month for the second time my autopay pays my bill. I geta text and email saying the bill is paid. Ten minutes later get text and email saying I havent paid and my phone is shut off. I called and read them the riot act. The rep lied to me, told me it would be a couple hours. In five minutes my phone was on. This is happening to alot of people. I cannot have a phone service I cant trust so I'll be finding someone else. It seems that Church needs to designate someone, other than you, to wash up afterwards. Honestly, next time I'd say dont do em. If you do em everytime they'll just keep leaving em for ya. Talked to my garbage man today and helped him load my bundles of branches. They are so good about taking all my stuff, and theres been so much. I wanted to thank him. He turns out to be a good young man. yep, still trimming branches, doing a couple bundles each day. I want to remove the dead ones, the ones growing into other trees, and the bottom ones that spread out and cast shade on my grass. I read the UX Experince Reddit. Lots of professionals and rookies like me discussing the field. Reading alot that no one is hiring rookies, just experienced people. The field is way oversaturated. Considering reviewing my IT stuff and pushing the UX over into UI and Design Graphics. My brother is way wrong again. He somehow thinks I will have a job soon. ive told him my main focus is the estate and house and my health and personal studies. I hope Kodie gets to have a fun summer. He deserves it. Maybe he can play in the sprinkler. Somehow I dont see Panther prancing in the sprinkler lol. Take good care of yourself. Hopefully some nice weather and peace and quiet.

Thank you Im putting off doing what I need to do. Monday I'll be going thru the estate once more then start cleaning. House is dirty and I want it decent before the real estate or estate sale people come over to chat. I dont have the money or time to do alot for these people. Id be happiest if theyd just do their thing and go home. I have enough otherwise. Read again that the field for what im studying is very saturated and no one is hiring new people. Theyre only hiring experienced. Which means Im dead in the water. Which shows me my brother has no idea what hes been talking about. I'm very tempted to go back to studying IT. Entry level doesnt pay much but at least theres a chance to get a job. We had a couple hours of cool rain. Dropped to 66 and felt so nice. I could sit out and just feel the breeze for hours. slowly trimming this huge tree out front. It shades almost the entire yard and the branches are growing into other smaller trees. Been doing two bundles per day. Started painting the garage today. hadnt planned on it but have an extra gallon of paint and it really needs it. Tomorrow will do two bundles of branches, try and finish one wall of the garage, and start going thru estate things and cleaning. I really dont want to do the estate sale and go thru a house sale. I have to, but other than I dont know how to do any of it and if I make mistakes its very serious, doing both will separate me from my parents house and close a chapter in life. I kinda feel like there should be things of my parents that I need to keep that give meaning and make sense of all this. But that time is over. The time for that was when they were alive. sad to me because I at one time tried to get both folks to talk about their lives and the family...neither thought it mattered. At one time later on dad asked if I still wanted to know, but I was so busy with him and studying that I felt I didnt have time. What a fool I was. Whatever regrets etc that I have I will bare it myself and it will all fade away. I think my Dad at the end was like your Mom at the end. He became a sweet tired scared old man. But he was tough til the end. I imagine he wanted me to stay at the hospital with him 24/7. All I gave him was 2 hours a day, two trips of an hour each. he would just lay there. I dont think he paid attention to TV, didnt talk much, didnt want a book or anything. I've wondered if he just reached a point where his mind just couldnt do anything or ifhe was preparing himself for death. It will be the failure of my life that i never got him home. Sorry, having a hard time for some reason tonight. I think that despite your childhood you turned out to be a wonderful person and did a great job raising your kids. Your life has been a terrific accomplishment. And i appreciate all the help and encouragment you've given me. I saw a video of two dogs repeatedly sliding downhill in the snow then running back up and sliding down again. their owner was standingat the top of the hill holding his coffee and laughing like crazy. It made me think of kodie. The electric bill here can get up near 200 bucks when its really hot. This is a 3 bedroom so lots to cool. I wish I could seal off most of the house. But the worst one is the water bill. that get near 200 as well. The sprinkler system is messed up so I usually water by sprinkler and hose. Its wastefull. This summer i will sit and watch it and make sure its not wasteful. The grass may all die but the bill will be smaller. This is another thing my brother doesnt get...lawncare...watering expense. For all the time doing the yard and flowerbeds takes... We will get into 90s daily probably June amd thru august and maybe into september. We sometimes hit 100+ for many days during July/august. I hope for a mild summer. I need to clean house before calling real estate and estate sale people, and go try and sell the rings, etc etc etc. Tbh i just want my peace and quiet. What a joke lol. Hope your weather is nice and the kitty is purring and Kodie doesnt miss snow too much. Take good care, hoping for a quiet week for you folks.

90! oh my word. We are supposed to be mid to upper 80s for the next two weeks. And decent chances of rain throughout. Save on my watering bill. I need to get someone to fix the leak in one zone of the sprinkler system. Need to go try and sell the rings. I may end up going to several jewellers until someone can help me and still may not be able to sell it. My electric bill this month was under 60 so I'll sweat until I cant stand it and turn the ac on. I take that back its 96 today, almost a record. Hot for a few days then mid 80s and rain hopefully for a few days. I put some seed down so... I had to cut down another small tree in the corner. The entire area is also overgrown with dead vines and leaves. I tugged and found out if you pull hard enough it rolls up like carper. So i spent a couple days on that. It makes it look so much better. Almost all shade so I thoiught I'd just throw a few seeds in for the next folks. I'm afraid I dont have the money, time, or health to do this place justice. but then I've been told to just do enough to sell it. It has a new roof and a new paintjob and hopefully nothing wrong with the foundation or structure. Oh, Ive never had an air fryer, may have to get one one day. I dont crock pot much in summer. Used to BBQ and eat on that for a few days. Talking to my buddy about nutrition. And im wondering if there is anything safe and good for us. It seems different people say everything is bad. I'm trying to get my salad every day, trying when I dont forget to buy dressing. I was looking at the trees in the front and need to try and take down dead branches and some low ones. I need to open up for som sunlight. I dont need to worry about it but it bothers me. Sorry they cant pick up what they cut. maybe they need to hire a pickup crew. Just take iot easy and be carefull. I finished painting. cleared all I care to out back and planted seed. now I need to mostly work on the inside. On second thought moderator sounds like alot of work. If you get to help someone that would be a good deal. I wonder if they could use this AI stuff to reduce spammers. This is our season for storms and hail. Need the rain though. I think this weekend I will spend regrouping and organizing. Next push is to get ready to have the estate sale and talk to the real estate agent. Ive been putting off going thru the house for a last time. On the one hand theres not much I want to keep. On the other I am still seeking meaning for my life thru my parents things. Still trying to make sense of life, losing them, and life after this is over. But I dont think any of that is going to happen. It will probably just be moving on because I have to. And trying to shut the feelings off. There are too many feelings, too many regrets and no closure. Ive talked to a few of the neighbors and these people are so very nice. This is the first neighborhood i've lived in without loud music, without being wary of being outside at night. Maybe this summer you should get Kodie a slip n slide...just kidding. maybe a snow machine. You folks take good care of yourselves. Hope the rain isnt too crazy. Take good care.

Well, finally had the guy come and what a waste of time. he spoke almost no english, tho a very nice guy. I couldnt communicate with him. The wood filler I had was dry so was worthless and he was going to use caulk. Except he didnt have a sander. I gave up, just lt him finish and leave because i didnt pay for the work. iot was evident they sent just some guy who they had given a brush. he did have a taller ladder and was able to paint the high spots i couldnt. After the estate sale I'll pay someone who knows how to do the job. This was a lesson learned. make sure they speak english and have all the tools required and the skills to do it. It isnt hard...smooth and press filler in, let dry, sand smooth with wood and paint. Ouch, dont be like me and sprain things, hope it heals fast. Ice? Now that i say that I hope I dont try and copycat and sprain sonething... Hope you get those phone troubles straightened out. I never understand why they have to make it so difficult. They dont care if you have to be out money. And they sure are stingy giving it back. maybe they hope people will get frustrated and give up. My brother thinks theres no work or expenses to owning a home. I told that to my neighbor and he laughed pretty good. Besides mortgage and utilities the expenses will drive ya broke. And there always so much to do. I keep an expense log and every penny will be paid back. What frustrates me is he acts like theres no time spent on the house. So he thinks I have nothing to do all day and just study. Hes either a complete idiot or very bad at gaslighting. Or both. I love him cause he's family but as a person his track record is undesirable. being Moderator sounds fun. You're very good at helping people. I'd say they are lucky to have you. Spectrum, lol. They just dont have much of a clue about customer service. I bet they get people with that scam though. They know what theyre doing and its sad, Sounds like may will be busy and hopefully productive. Will it warm up as well? We dodged a bullet yesterday. Inch and a half of rain here. But bad storms south of us. two tornados and softball sized hail. I dont want anything hurting my new roof. Supposed to get lots of rain today but went around us. So far is a cool pleasant spring and no need to water. I need that to keep going as long as possible. I have seen video of dogs sliding in the snow so can imagine kodie doing the same. Dogs love to have fun. Must be an animal instinct. Hoping to finish painting the house in a couple days. Just need to walk it and touch up. I'm also working on cleaning up the back yard. had another small tree die and took that down. the roots were so rotted I wedged it right out. Then started tearing away the carpet of old vine and roots and leaves. I uncovered a brick corner dad had built that I never knew was there. The vines went wild and covered everything up. Im thinking to strip off as much as I can and plant some shade flower seed. I keep finding more to do here and push back my timetable. But I must be out by end of November. Wondering if you ever use a crockpot. Think I need to use mine more. Can do a pot and eat on it all week. Take good care of yourself. Hopefully you can have some peace and quiet.

My brother has put off the video call to decide the final batch of goodies. In a week i'm going to call the real estate agent and see if I can talk to the estate sale lady. If bro drags his butt still then he loses out. I started going through the living room and found some things that may or not be valuable. I'm going to bag them all up and go to the jewellers this wekk. Going to ask him to tell me what shouldnt be in an estate sale, value them and tell me how to sell them. Good you have your landline going. isnt it a wonder how some companies stay in business. Too many of them are in business for themselves. They set up their rules and think theyre wonderful. meanwhile people suffer. Ive come to the point where if I end up talking to someone in India etc I find another provider whose cust service reps I can understand. The person who made you get on the roof in the snow should have been fired and they should have sent someone out to do that. Thats not acceptable. No Sim card? How silly of them. Of course they can never think its their fault. That way they can charge you to send another one. 85% chance of rain...it did rain alright...but not enough to wet the rainguage lol. It is nice and chilly though. Was able to keep from respraining my wrist and its healed pretty well. My shoulder is much better but have lost range of motion. I cant scratch my back without intense pain. If I ever get handcuffed it will probably tear my shoulder. Ive been trying to slowly stretch it back out. I have a mystery. Dad had a box with tea cups a Japanese friend gave him years ago. It was in the living room with other, similar things. I opened it and looked twice, never took them out or moved the case. I looked today and the case is now empty. I'm at a loss. no one gets in the house. I spent an hour searching the room and i cant find what may have happened to them. Now I'm wondering if someone got in? And feeling unsafe. But wouldnt make sense to take just that, and i've seen no indication anyone got in. Yet the case is empty. Im at a total loss and wondering if something is wrong with me. How are Kodie and Panther doing? I bet they'll be happy when Spring is here. The trim guy was suposed to come back friday and didnt show. I have no idea when or if he is coming again. Still waiting for the deposit from th Insurance for the final payment for the roof. Wow, paused this and earlier the Ins Adjuster called and I got the email to get my money. The roofer sent a different guy to fix and paint my trim. but he had no clue what he needed to do so he has to come back Thursday. I dont think he wants to do it. I cant do it all but will get done what I can. You folks take good care, stay warm, hopefully some peace and quiet.

Well the roof is done, looks very nice and only took them 6 or 7 hours. Not too bad. I think its asphalt shingles. Whatever it had is what they used. Supposed to have the trim guy come by tomorrow and will get an estimate on fixing/painting the upper trim. Some is rotted and some just needs patching and it all needs painting. I'm not real happy going on a high ladder these days so will see if I can afford it and then will be paid back after the estate sale. I hate spending the money, I hate it. Might just get an estimate if its alot and have it done after the estate sale. Thats why the prospective real estate agent wont like me...there wont be alot of money to do things etc. Somehow managed to sprain my right wrist and i'm right handed. Physically i'm at rock bottom. Seems my muscles are so so weak theyre starting to sprain easily. wow, the trim guy came by to look at the roof gables that need fixing and the painting up high. I was asking for an estimate. Then the roofer calls me to remind me he is paying for that and I wont pay anything. They have really taken care of me. We had some rain last night. Some places had hail and a tornado or two. I dont think anyone was hurt. maybe my grass will grow but I doubt it. Alot of companies today just care about money and not customers. they dont want employees making exceptions, just to follow 'policy' But although there should be some policy that is untouchable there should be most of it as a guideline with wiggle room. Their sytems are designed by fallible humans and there will be errors and situations that arent covered. Its far more important to take care of customers than it is to follow policy. Unfortunately it also depends on the quality of the people they hire and 'train'. You could try writing them a letter and send it so they hav to sign it. If what theyre doing is according to a contract or written agreement then you will be stuck unlss a real persin fixes it. I ran into similar things after Dad passed and trying to get some things like his newspaper subscription cancelled. You may need to keep after them, send letters, file complaints. Well, supposedly today the trim guy will do his thing. Then all I'd have is a second coat of paint on the gutters and downspouts and the exterior is done. Have to start cleaning inside and going over items one last time. Im lining up some things to skype with bro and his wife and let them pick. I keep giving him a timeframe. estate sale done no later than July and start selling house by end september. The trick will be renting without a job and finding an apt as I sell so I'm not in a hotel. Take good care. scrtch kodie's ears for me.

I'm getting a roof today. Didnt sleep much and woke up before my alarm. Very loud, but nowhere to go. Be very glad when its over. parts of the roof hve three layers of felt and parts have one. Going to be a long day. Guess it seems odd to them but I dont want to stand out in the yard and watch. have an upset stomach today. first time in forever and probably because of coffee each day and tacos last night. Back to behaving myself. Coffee has been my indulgence and something of a return to normalcy. But there has to be a new normalcy and quit hanging on to the old one. Viasat - I think depends on what their terms of service say. Do they require cancellation notice 30 days in advance? They 'shouldnt' bill you for a new service period after cancellation. They wouldnt prorate for a partial service period but 'should' not bill you for a period after cancellation. Did they refuse to take your card off of autopay? And you cancelled their service? You might have a talk with a banker and see what the suggest. You could also file a complaint with the State Atty General's Office. Sometimes that wakes em up. You could file a complaint with the BBB. And if the local news has a consumer rights program you could contact them. There are probably other regilatory agencies like maybe the FCC that you could file a complaint with. And https://www.consumerfinance.gov/. I would say just see what the contract says first. For example if the contract was for a year and you cancelled after 11 months they'll bill for that last month. Patience My neighbuor was up early watching the roofers. I know nothing about it so will be inside today. I'm sure he will be watching them some and making sure they do it right. Hang in there. You need some warm temperatures and some peace and quiet. Take care.

I can never understand such hate in people. Way I see it all problems and enmities from this life end when that person passes. That you speak so highly of him tells me all I need to know. Sorry that happened. You have it right, God knows the man he was. In the end of things that's what matters. That he was such a good friend for so long...is something that is getting rarer these days. Do you still have snow? Is it warming up at all? We are 70 today and very nice. I need to find an excuse to be outside. Tuesday I get the new roof. Excited for that to be over with. Will be happy once the Ins company makes their next payment and I can pay the roofers. Trying to get myself to go through the estate things one last time. Brother is dragging his feet as always. The property value here was increased again. With my exemption it can only be increased 10%, and they did. The market value they assigned it is way over what it could sell for. These are the things my bro knows nothing about when he tries to get me to stay. e is better off not speaking when he has no idea whats going on. Theyre supposed to give us a break on property taxes so maybe theyre jacking up prices so that after the break they still get plenty of income. How are food prices there? Beef here is silly high. I can get ground beef for $6 - 8 a pound but anything else is too high for me. I mostly get ground turkey and chicken breasts in a big pack get down to 3 - 4 bucks a pound. Still nothing from the GI Doctor, I give up. We're headed into my crazy time, roof, estate sale, finding a new place to live. Just curious if you folks have a kiddie pool? saw something on TV where the dogs were playing in this person's kiddie pool. I pictured Kodie romping thru it and Panther sitting on the edge pawing at the water, lol. The last cat I had wouldnt get in the water but wanted to sit on the edge of the tub and paw at it. I was always afraid he would fall in. isnt it amazing that Bert accepted the Lord 2 weeks before. There was definitely work going on there. More than I would ever understand. My dad told me one time that his sister tried to talk to him about Jesus. Dad laughed. Hope you have a good week. I think I'll make some tacos tonight. Take good care.

Way I see it mainly isnt being kind to my brother, but fulfilling the wishes of my parents. No matter the circumstances of being given this, I have it. people cant seem to understand that it is extremely important to me to do this properly. I discussed many things with dad and he agreed that my ideas were fair. As far as I know i would pay tax on the increase in value of the home when i sell it. I dont know if theres a certain amount I am forgiven. I'll consult with the tax man and take care of that from the sale proceeds and do it right away. It costs several hundred to hire someone to determine value as of when the house passed. I think the same for selling the estate things. pay tax on increase in value. Except only idea of item value is Insurance valuations from 1980ish. Again, I will consult the tax man. I asked him on the things I'd already sold if I need to do anything and he said no. So we shall see. Sounds like you should have stayed in bed, sounds horrible. If your equipment is 15 years old then they should be fired, every one of them. They should have put in new equipment long ago and periodically. Even the phone company will change out old wires to the pole when they find old stuff. This is why when I get a vacation i dont want to go anywhere. I just want to stay home and have nothing bas happen. How are you feeling? is that virus better? Some nice hot tea with lemon and honey. I started having a cup of green tea every morning. Good stuff. yeay for your taxes. Wonder what they were thinking. Yep, time to change tax people. We havent had time for the new seed to do much. I always want to jump the gun. Truth is it probably wont do much til next year. My wish is that whoever buys thehouse gets alot of flowers in a year or two, are amazed and really enjoy the yard. This house was very special to my folks. Bigger than what they had wanted but they fell in love with it. How are Kodie and the lil kitty doing? Ok, the big panther. have a better weekend and take care

I know-estate...I had a talk with the second attorney about taking compensation as estate manager. He pointed out that legally the house is mine and there is no estate. But in reality my bro and I are going to split 50/50. An odd setup. I did it this way so there wouldnt be arguing and a deadlock as far as selling the house. I might be stuck unable to sell and unable to afford mortgage and bills. My great fear is going broke and becoming homeless. Ive read that it is expected to keep the utilities on in the house until it sells and the mortgage must be paid as well. Dad left some money for that purpose and I've been using it. I had planned on all this being done by now. Unfortunately, due mostly to unplanned health problems, I'm still here. What I will do is pay myself back for all expenses related to fixing/maintaining the yard and house. Once we have the estate sale those funds will be needed to fix a couple things like a leak in the sprinkler system. And the couple hundred I'm about to spend to have the roof trim patched and painted. There are other expenses that I will also ned that money for. I have no clue how much we will make off the estate sale. But if there is enough I will use some of it to help pay bills. We have beautifull weather this week. highs in the 70s and 50s at night. Trying to send some warm winds that way. What I dont want is him getting a foot in the door as far as a say in things. Ideally he would be paying half of everything. But he isnt that way. He doesnt understand that I know how he is. Anyway, am and have been and will be under constant stress until this is all over. I am not fooled into thinking I can find work in this new field. The proceeds from the estate will have to keep me afloat until I find a job. I'll be on SS and whatever work pays enough. No one wants to hire a 65 or 66 year old guy. And surgery took me down a peg or two. My bro asked me if I was completely healed. I explained the surgical stuff is healed but that plus sitting on my butt half a year has really hurt me and i have to get in shape again. Doing some things are difficult now that werent before surgery. So instead of being normal I feel old. I can understand now how several surgeries can age a person quite a bit and even incapacitate them. Taxes-I wonder if she is late filing yours if she will let the Irs know its her fault and pay the penalty. Maybe you can file for an extension on your own. I understand what to do with taxes on the house sale. but not the estate sale, since there's no estate. But that company has to collect and file sales tax. I believe it would still be pay tax on increase in sale price over original cost. No way of knowing the original costs. I'll be sitting down with dads tax man once tax season is over. Wow, thats alot of snow. Sorry you're stuck with that. please be careful. Considering the environment you turned out a good person. Im sorry for what you endured. I dont imagin spreading ashes will be easy. Emotional and all. Hoping all goes well. Have a good week and maybe the snow wont be too bad. Take care

Im going to just talk to the taxman next year and let him sort it out. Ive read differing things online so a grain of salt. Hope your snow wasnt bad. We're going between 50s and 80s so its kind of crazy. I'd love some rain but will believe it when I see it. Insurance is going to pay for a new roof. The roofer is taking good care of me and we're finnagling a few things and it ends up my deductible will be almost covered and he's forgiving the rest. So I wont pay a thing. Yesterday and today i cleaned the sludge out of the gutters. Today my neighbor helped me trim all the branches near the roof plus some dead ones. I bundled 11 big bundles of branches. It looks alot better. Why there are four trees right next to the house I dont know. I hope the roots aren't messing with the foundation. From what the roofguy says Texas is very hard on roofs. heat in summer, freezing winter and storms. I have no idea. I do think that its good t have a roof checked if you get a wind or hail storm. three of us had loose and damaged shingles and didnt know. I think the shingles on mine were defective. They look like they were raked by a creature. The asphalt came off in the ssme place on almost all. The ins adjuster was asking what happened, he hasnt seen that before. Sounds like George had some good music. What your mom did was cruel. Guess she didnt like his music. he probably had some music that couldnt be replaced. When I lived in west Texas I came home one Christmas. The apartment only had a window unit. The super ran it during the day but not at night. The pipes burst, all my revcords on the floor were ruined. Most of the time when I watch a movie im doing something else. I'm bad at being productive yet feel guilty devoting time to watch a movie. Alot of modern movies I just dont like. the ones that are 'remakes' of older movies I usually cant watch. the original is better. I'm going to keep doing the Vit-E and Milk Thistle just to be safe. And wont take any Tylenol or aspirin. I do wonder if those enzymes went down but not curious enough to spend 200 bucks. That couple hundred will pay for a guy to patch and paint the roof trims. We did a facetime call the other day and my bro and wife picked some things to keep. he is going to end up taking the very large print and a spinning wheel grandpa made and his old chest. He has no room for any of it and it will be expensive to have shipped. But its his money. I pray there comes a point where the estate is finished and i'm in a safe apartment and I can breath again. Take good care of yourself. Hopefully the snow stays away for a few weeks.

The roof was replaced in 2011 after the fire. I dont know if I ever told you about that. It was mid summer and hot. dad had some peat moss and mulch in a big bag left on the side of the house. It was wet from the sprinklers and in the heat it combusted. Took the tool shed and the gas in the mower and gascan went up. It passed the brick and went into the attic. dad I dont think could smell but Mom did. he didnt believe her at first but she insisted. Fire marshall said a few more minutes and the house and them would have been gone. State farm was really good to them. Put them in a nice hotel dad said they spent almost as much fixing it as it cost in the first place. Roofer said roofs need be replaced every 8-10 years and after 15 years theyre losing value. The adjuster from Insurance is coming wednesday and the roofer will be here so they can talk it out. From what the roofer says I need a new roof bad so hoping my Ins comes through. Sounds like you're all snowed in. Thats alot of snow for march it seems. be careful. I used to love the snow and cold. Not so much anymore. I havent filed taxes in a few years...no income. When we have the estate sale Im not sure how to do that. technically its estate. But wasnt planning on filing estate taxes. The rule I believe is if it sells for more than you paid for it or inherited it at you pay taxes on that increase. same on the house when it sells. I'll be getting with the taxman next year. Tomorrow bro and I will do a facetime call si he can see what the things look like he was interested in. I guess he cant be bothered looking at the pics I sent in email. Im sure he will want to see it all and know how much its all worth and want all the expensive things. He still has to pay shipping and it still comes out of his share. He keeps pushing me to keep things. I keep telling him I dont want anything. Good thing I dont care anymore. I dont like nor want to have an estate sale, or house sale, move, find an apt, job. But there is no choice and time is running out. So I have a curiousity. What kind of music did you folks like and I assume listen to now. What did you grow up with? Just skyped with bro, went well. I showed them everything and will put back what they want. he's thinking of having a freight company crate and ship it out. Thats will be expensive. I started cleaning house today. I always think things wont take much time and then find out otherwise. Think i'll watch an old western. Take good care of yourself and be carefull with that snow.

yea, I hate that bro cant get his butt in gear. I get where he's at. he cant remember what things are. Whether he wants a memento or three of the folks or he just wants the valuabl things. Whatever h keeps will have its value deducted from his share. He 'thought' he was just going to be abl to claim all the most expensive items then we split the rest. thats not 50/50 and not fair. I also remind him how expensive shipping will be. I wont be paying to send anything else. Cant afford it. If he drags his feet too much it will end up he misses out on everything. I've often wished i had a small house with a big back yard. Now I want some mahogany in it. I'd spend my life building my garden. Lots of juniper and a couple pine and monkey grass and such. But is only a dream. Your snow is crazy. Do you ever get used to it? Winters there get so much moisture. Guess thats why you have so much foliage. Nextdoor neighbor got their new roof today. The roofer came over and I asked him to look at mine. he showed me pictures. I have alot of hail damage and wind damage. He showed me shingled that were no longer nailed down. he could just lift them up. So we decided I would try and get a new roof. I started a claim with my insurance. I have State farm and he said they are notoriously bad about approving roof claims. So, worst case they dont approve it and we forget it. When the roof doesnt pass the buyes inspection I'll discount the house price by their deductible to get a new roof IF their Ins company will do it. I can in no way ever afford a roof. Oh, oof guy showed me pics and says it looks like something big scratched my shingles. And it does, like a large animal or bird scratched claws across the singles. Mother nature must have been mad. Things just keep getting better and better. My GI doctor's office didnt give me a work order for the lab, which they have to have. i called the docs office yesterday and asked but no call back yet. I'm so tired of this constant hassle I'm so tempted to just forget it. Anyway, going to go do some reading for a bit. I've neglected it for awhile. take good care of youself. Hopefully your weather will co-operate but I wouldnt bet on it.

How much snow did you get? Hope it wasnt too bad. We are finally into Spring with 60s and 70s. I planted seed and am working on painting. Ive had Photinia before I think, nice. Never had mahogany. Love the wood, makes nice looking things. Sounds like they dont actually do much helpfull with the trees. Hopefully you've made em happy already. I wonder if they have guidelines, and they check everyone and write up their reports on how ready they are. Snow tires...havent ever had to have em. Only been a few times I needed em. Forgot about em actually. But theyre a way of life for many. Do you get lots of rain come Spring/end of winter? I figured up there you did but not sure. When we hit summer you cant buy a rain cloud. I'm just hoping I have a lawn. Talked to bro and we're going to do a video call so he can see some of the things in the estate. I still need to sell the ring and that will really help with the mortgage and bills. Going for my bloodtest next week to see what my liver enzymes are doing. If those two havent gone down (ast and alt) then he wants a biopsy but I am going to wait until the estate is done. Of course if theyve really shot up then i may have to do it. Just really need everything to be normal so I can get out of this medical spiral. I'm eating pretty clean, drinking some coffee and lots of water. Feel good. Shoulder healing slowly. Just need to stop being lazy and get some more exercise. Altho I did paint for a few hours. Aw poor Kodie. That pup deserves the best. I think he is your angel. Hope your weather is clear and warm. And things get dull and boing. I like my life quiet. When people come around does Panther go hide, or just get somewhere high and watch? Take good care.

That medical bill is strange. I see it on the Ins website yet they told me they dont see it. I will see the surgeon Tuesday and will ask him to verify who that doctor is and if he understand it. We got a cold front. A little over an inch of rain, some wind, hail and a tornado to the east. Tuesday it's supposed to warm up and then I think we will have Spring. I plan on starting to sow seed Wednesday. And I'll go back to painting the outside. I got a 12 foot pole and a paint pad for the end so I can paint the eaves without getting on a ladder. But there is some wood that needs patching so I will save that til after the state sale and hire someone. I dont think I need be way high on a ladder. Phone, you cant remove the autopay or card online. I 'think' i can do that through calling customer service now. Supposedly they have their system up again. Theyve reportedly been doing some shady things. Like people pay with their card and dont ask for autopy and it automatically puts them on autopay anyway. Poor Kodie, he must be wondering where his friend went. hope it works out for him. I guess smells are very important for cats and dogs, never thought about that before. I need a haircut as well. Want to go to Dad's old barber, hope he's still in business. How did yours turn out? Mom always got hers cut by the same lady and she always came home giggling. I guess she and Courtney would have a good time. When these guys come and cut trees do they really know whats healthy for the tree or are they just a bunch of yahoos cutting branches? Six inches seems kinda small. At least theyre helping somewhat I guess. Hope it does some good. Wow, still snow. I have to keep remembering where you live and that your winter keeps going for awhile. Im going to finish with the medical people, take a deep breath and start getting ready for the estate sle. The big 'IF' is trying to find someone who will do the sle with me in the house. Hope your snow isnt too much. Spring needs to get up there soon. I need to get super motivated. We shall see. Take good care, when warmer weather hits I'll try and send some north.

I still have no word about the real state lady. Everything is like swimming through molasses, so frustrating. Been painting the exterior as much as I can. It's hard on my back and I have real problems concentrating and focusing on one thing for very long. But did almost all of one side today. I think first I will do what I can reach with a regular ladder. Will save the high stuff for after the estate sale and may pay someone to replac some trim too. No word from my brother, no reply on the emails with pics of estate items asking him if he wants them. Guess he doesnt. Supposed to rain tomorrow but somehow I doubt it will do much. I'll clean inside for a change. I wonder if the powers that be realize that if they would wpend a bit more money on cleaning up for people it would help reduce fire risk and save money in the long run. Poor Kodie, guess he will have to be content with Momma and Panther. Hope things work out well for him. Too bad I cant give ya my wood. I made one fire this winter. But it was there if I needed it. Sad they gave you junk wood. That's one thing I fear when i get people to work on the house/yard is hiring scammers. Nextdoor neighbor knows good people so will rely on him. I hope thats not a mistake. Along one fenceline theres a carpet of plants, I assume flowers that didnt come up last year. Curious to see the floers and see what they are. My Abelia was really hurt by the winter and has lost 2/3s of its branches. There were 2 small trees left on the opposite and I'm afraid it got them too. But will do the best I can. Its still early but the grass looks terrible, lots of dirt. Going to jump the gun and start seeds in a couple weeks. You do use alot of firewood. But you're heated when others lose electric. Is everyone out there using wood? There has been no way to take my card off file. They havent had access to that part of the system, or so they claim. I believe they are slowly getting it fixed. My autopay did work properly this time but I need to remove my card from their system. They have no idea how to run a company. I need to shop around. As I understand the insurance...when an out of network doctor works on you at an in network facility, and you had no prior knowledge and no way to disapprve of him, they must accept the in network amount. That my insurance shows he wasnt paid at all concerns me, but when I called my Ins they said they have no record of him. I dont trust any of them. If that doc ends up billing me he has to wait until the house is sold. All I have now is survival money. I dont think doctors and hospitals care oif something/someone is covered or not. That doc may be his regular assistant or maybe just on rotation. But they should care because if you have to pay full bill it can ruin people. I still fear getting late bills for my Dad's medicals. The system is broken. Living in dread of my next blood test, sad. I want those numbers to come down so bad so the doctor will leave me alone. But I may just have to tell him we arent doing anything more now. I cant take any otc painkillers and I get headaches sometimes. Need new glasses. Did you get more snow? Been sending positive thoughts for an early spring. Take good care and stay warm.

Oh, I wonder if my sister in law wants to fly home to be with family. She's from Manila. My brother certainly makes enough to send her. But he couldnt go with as he has work. She's very nice and I feel bad for her and the family Guess Panther was born in the wild then. Interesting he adopted a human and a dog. Guess theyre social animals after all. Its upper 60s and sun today. Rain yesterday but no wind thankfully. Hoping for a mild summer with rain so my bills stay low. I am almost going to plant my seeds but we will have some nights in the upper 30s and lower 40s. It's hard to wait. Painting the house. Have the garage door and frame done and the front door and frame. Next will be two sides. The other couple areas need wood replaced so they can wait. My neighbor got up on my roof and nailed back the two loose shingles. Nice fellow. I hope its done correctly. He seems to know what he's doing. Will find out when the buyers inspection happens. I'm afraid i'm no good picking presents. Some people you cat please no matter what. it seems it just has to be their choice. For my brother and his wife I finally started doing amazon gift certificates. Boost-two weks into the fiasco and no headway. My bill was supposed to be autopaid yesterday and it appears Boost paid it. It's paid but not by me. Some people have filed FCC complaints because they cant get their pin number to leave, Boost told them they cant do it. But when the FCC sends the complaint magically Boost does it. So Boost is lieing to their customers. IF they can fix their systems, this wont end well. Agreed, the guy needs to relax else send people to trim trees for ya. You spend enough time out in the cold cleaning up and shoveling. They could have crews fulltime just go around and clean up yards in a different area each week. Thats why we pay taxes. Boost just sent me a text. Says theyre having voicemail issues and to listen to messages press and hold '1'. Thats the way it always has worked. Theyre losing it. I've wondered it maybe the hackers still control their servers. We used to have a cat but never see it now. Have see a possum a few times. The birds just really never visit the yard. They dont eat the seed or use the birdbath. I'll wait til its warmer and if theyre not using it I'll take them out. I did move the woodpile away from the house. Bad for pests and the like. Had to put a tarp over it to keep it dry. I made one fire this winter and thats all I'll need. How nice of the weather to be so generous with snow. Maybe next time instead of 3 inches you'll get .2 inches and even it out. Ive had no side effects from drinking my Chai. I guess now that most of my prostate is gone either nothing is getting irritated or I just cant feel it. I have questions for the surgeon. I want to know who the other doctor is listed for the surgery and billing me when he is out of network. Why was my surgeon using an out of network doctor to assist. It not easy to be OON, they have to try really hard. I see the surgeon on the 21st, long drive so will see if we can do it over the phone. Its just the finall followup to make sure I healed ok. Not perfect but doesnt matter cause there's nothing else to do. My neighbor's wife told me she met a ladt from down the street, who is a real estate agent and does estate sales. Sh specializes in antiques. All the furniture here is antiques so she sounds perfct. Except the neighbors wife cant remember her name and no idea where she lives. The lady said she would leave her card in the mailbox. Gee whiz...she thought I didnt want to be bothered. yes, I'd love to be bothered by someone who can help me. Now I probably will never know who it is. Oh well, makes life fun. When things start greening up and blooming I'll take some pics and post. take good care of yourself and those two little furry kids.

Created 14 bundles of branches and 4 trashbags. My neighbor helped. nice guy, and bored to death I think. I lost 2 shingles in the storm and today he came over and fixed it. As long as it passes the inspection for a sale of the house. have to move my stand of firewood as I had em put it next to the house and thats a no-no. I'm already pretty sore so tomorrow will be worse. I'm really out of shape since the catheter and surgery so I'll say this is good for me. Tested my paint on the front door. matches pretty well, just bit lighter. Some of the wood trim is rotting or chewed by squirrels. I figure once wehave the estate sale that money needs to go to sale and house expenses but also help pay bills. If anything happens to me, the car, or the house then i go broke. IF I can sell that ring that will help quite a bit. Have you ever wondered where Panther came from. Or how long he's ben around before adopting you? I wonder what Kodie thinks of him. I guess he really likes him. But then I have the impression Kodie is very easy going. My brother didnt call and thats ok. I wouldnt know what to say to her. I wonder if she wants to go home. Send your sister a box of snow for her bday. Or make a tiny snowman. Hoping your summer has alot fewer fires in the area. I was trimming branches away from the house and wondered why dad planted em so close. There are 4 and it lets the squirrels on the roof to eat the trim and branches to scrape the shingles. I'm seeing things now I should have done years ago. My cellphone provider, Boost, has melted down. My autopay was charged in Feb, wasnt applied to my acct and had to pay mnually. Called em and they dont care, told me it didnt happen. They got hacked almot 2 weeks ago. Still they cant access our records or do anything. My bill is due in 2 days and no idea if it works or not or if I could pay my bill. Cant cancel service, cant remove card from autopay, cant port number out to a new service. I spent hours visitng every site I have in my password book to make sure I can access them if i dont have my phone. Some send me a code by text. I bet you folks get some crazy storms. Good thing you have wood heating. We rely so much on electricity but what happens when it breaks. Just like electric cars. Nice idea but they dont make enough electricity as it is. Oh well. I would solve all the world's problems but they dont want to listen. I'm curious if you get critters by your house. Like if you had a vegetable garden would raccoons and such eat free meals. Take good care of yourself and hope the snows stay away for awhile. Going back to Church again and visiting with all those people...you're going to have alot of fun.

Grats on your tax stuff. Always feels good to get that done. I only had 4 months SS income so no taxes here. Well, life went insane for a couple days. Dinnertime last night the sky wnt black, temp dropped 20 degrees and winds hit 70 - 80 mph. Lights flickered a few times and things lit up that I hadnt turned on. Then i heard a pop and our end of the block lost power. Just now got it back on. Half of one neighbors tree came down. farther down one was uprooted, a street over two fruit trees split apart. In Dallas some buildings collapsed, lost roofs. One food place the roof lifted up and fell in the parking lot on ten cars. I was lucky I guesss as I only lost two shingles. nextdoor lost a few so asked their roof guy to replace mine when they do theirs. Now i have to find my home ins policy. Ordered some paint to do the trim. One apex looks rotted. i dont have a ladder that will reach so will see if the roofer can replace it. more expenses that I cant afford. I wasnt going to touch the estate sale money but now I have no choice. And another very strong reason why the medical stuff gets put on hold for awhile. there are too many things right now to stress about and worry about. Got an email from my brother saying his wife's father passed away so he wants to talk this weekend. I'd rather not but I dont seem to have a say in anything anymore. I remember dad calling them Jonquils. I want to plant seed but supposed to be cool at nights for a few weeks. One neighbor had a huge limb crack off his tree. theyre both elderly and recovering so i started snipping it apart. We get rain next week and doubt my 2 shingles will be replaced by then. So am hoping it doesnt leak. To be honest I hate owning a house. Its very expensive and theres always something going wrong. Hope your weather isnt too bad. i bet you're ready for Spring. You folks stay warm. Scratch kodie behind the ear for me. How's Panther doing? Take good care.

Honestly, I feel pretty good. Way out of shape and need exercise. I bought a treesaw. Small chainsaw on a pole. Trimmed some branches and did 4 bundles, made me really sore. I noticed the top trim on the house is in bad shape. Should have caught that earlier. getting some putty, sealer and paint and will fix that and repaint the exterior. Luckily its a brick house so wont be too bad. I hope. I think then my metabolism is messed up. I snack. At least now its healthy and not junk. Ive read to not snack. Ive read to eat more and smaller meals instead of 2-3 big ones. I think exercise will really help the most. Definitely pursuing any health concerns until estate is done and I'm settled in a new place. Its March and I can wait no longer than end of November. Unless I then tap into what we make from the estate sale and I dont want to do that. Remember my brother? I dont. Not a word. The emails with pictures of estat items asking if he wants em? Nothing. The package I sent? Nothing. This tells me as well he cares nothing for anything except money. Wow, 6 feet of snow. I know many places get that alot but I cant see me living in it. Buffalo etc must be a real pain in winter. Guess i've been spoiled here. We were 74 today and drizzling, very nice. Have you gotten more snow or is it calming down? We're supposed to get alot of rain tomorrow. Govt pushes until they get in trouble, then act nice. But theyre just waiting til people forget and they just go right back to what they were doing. Monkey Tree...thats a crazy looking tree and I've never seen one. It makes me want to put some ornaments or lights on it. I had always thought it would be fun to have a live Christmas tree in the yard outside the breakfast room window. I had to cheat and take a benadryl. Google said it doesnt effect liver enzymes. But last night I couldnt breathe. Guess thats what I get for cutting branches. Will have to get a pic after the rain is gone. We have these tiny flowers that come up looking like tiny wild onions then sprout sweet smelling yellow flowers. https://www.google.com/search?gs_ssp=eJzj4tLP1TdITzfLLqoyYPTiyMrPKyzNzCkGAE9AB2M&q=jonquils&rlz=1C1VDKB_enUS996US1014&oq=jonquils&aqs=chrome.1.0i131i355i433i512j46i131i433i512j46i512j46i175i199i512j0i512l6.7226j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8 one of the ones my folks planted. Not alot of them left esp after the frost got some. Lost alot of ivy so I think I'll get the weedwacker and have fun. I bet Kodie loves riding in the car. Too bad he cant drive or you'd have a chauffeur. You could dress him in a little outfit. Hopefully your snow passes by and you folks catch a break. Take good care.

I dont know what to think about health, nutrition and doctors anymore. But I dont trust at all. But there's a different nutrition for different needs. So what do ya do if you have two or more concerns? I think I'll just use common sense. My biggest need I think is exercise. So difficult to start. I wonder if someone could move that dish somewhere easier to get to. I dont envy you your snow, you folks get alot of it. By comparison we dont get much precipitation. We're 40s for a few days with drizzles and then up in the 70s. Walked around the house yesterday and it needs the trim painted. the old paint needs to be scraped...it looks really bad. The body of the house is brick. So its just wood above the brick. However I dont know if I have a ladder that will reach. But I'll get what I can. No way can I afford to hire someone. I decided I'm not going to have a biopsy, if he wants one. I dont want to continue at this time. There is no obvious reason for two elevated liver enzymes. I think it was the drugs at surgery and i'm just slow to heal. Which i've been seeing that i'm slow to heal. No wonder since my metabolism is almost nonexistant. Surgery left me with a few issues. Hope your storm was mild/is mild. I remember growing up in Chicago and the cold and all the snow. Was fun for us kids but not for the adults. Sometimes the snow was so deep it was over the car. The snowplow had to plow the road before anyone could drive on it. I dont mind if the jeweller has a holding period, it makes sense. As long as they keep their nose out of my business. I guess I dont trust. It's odd but consider there is no trace or history for what gets handed down. Even when people buy nice things they dont always keep receipts. As with many things I'd only pay tax on the increase in value at sale, if any. But I have no idea the value of things in the house. This ring I have no idea the value when I inherited it but doubt we will profit on it. Govt had to cover up they dropped the ball on the fires. they had to shift blame and act like they were doing something. As usual everything falls on the citizens. What would be fun is a class action lawsuit against the govt and th Forestry Service. Meh, never happen though. Rhododendrons are nice. Whats a Monkey tree? Other than a tree full of monkies, lol. The house across the street had a huge nice cactus garden in the front lawn. When the folks from China moved in the first thing they did was start taking it apart. But the cactus are too big for them to do. I would guess this year they hire someone to take it out and plant sod over it. I have been taking a good look at the house, exterior. Its a brick house with wood trim which is in bad need of painting. I dont think my ladder will reach the high spots. One may be rotting. It will be a few days before it warms up and I can try. I may have to ask my neighbor if he has a taller ladder. I also need to trim alot of branches away from the house. I need a power trimmer. just a small electric chainsaw on a long stick. Good times are coming...everything I spend for the house im keeping a log and the estate will pay me back. I'm also tempted to charge what I pay from my checking acct for bills. Supplements are/can be expensive. Thats why I hate needing them every day, it adds up. After I make my GI doc mad and take them again i need to rsch what i should and shouldnt have. Apparently some can interact and some can harm organs like my poor liver. I baked some catfish! Wasnt too bad but needs bettr seasoning. Very simple. Oven at 425, spray oil on pan, dredge fish in batter then egg then batter then place on pan and spry w/ oil on top. This helps it bake crispy. I'm not a huge fan of fish unless its fried but it wasnt bad. need to see if Tilapia is any better. I had been complaining its expensive but $8 was enough for 3 meals. The downside is the smell stunk up my house for a couple days. My shoulder is better but not healed by far. I cleaned the bathroom and reached down to scrub and used prssure with that arm and i screamed, it hurt. I dont think its out of socket because i have a range of motion to it. But the muscls are just slow coming back. I am slow healing, quite slow. Surgery did som things to me. One was destroyed my metabolism. I'm shy about working out again esp with the shoulder. guess will just have to work on my legs. I'm planting an entire bed with Mxican petunias. We have a small bed with them and they do well and are lovely. https://www.etsy.com/listing/508585467/5-purple-mexican-petunia-attracts Pumpkins, they have big orange flowers and huge leaves with various shades of green, Bee Balm https://www.gardenia.net/plant/monarda-citriodora Burgundy Petunias https://mullerseeds.com/product/petunia-hybrida-success-burgundy/ I love the color although it's probably a bit dark for the garden. Morning Glories Turk's Cap https://www.etsy.com/listing/486574841/turks-cap-lily-5-root-bulbs-lilium?gpla=1&gao=1&&utm_source=google&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=shopping_us_ps-b-craft_supplies_and_tools-floral_and_garden_supplies-floral-flowers-other&utm_custom1=_k_Cj0KCQiA3eGfBhCeARIsACpJNU_D8EmlnwRI09-9V0Anm06G0mXKDZHvyFIuQnCiwI_5xDxhoIQGQ-YaAuoSEALw_wcB_k_&utm_content=go_12565309429_122041460360_507187539825_pla-296647873334_c__486574841_12768591&utm_custom2=12565309429&gclid=Cj0KCQiA3eGfBhCeARIsACpJNU_D8EmlnwRI09-9V0Anm06G0mXKDZHvyFIuQnCiwI_5xDxhoIQGQ-YaAuoSEALw_wcB There have been Turk's Caps in the yard since my folks moved in. My Aunt or Great Aunt Lena was living in South Fort Worth and she and her husband gave my folks some plants. Thy were like small deep red caps on pretty gren foliage. I want it in the yard for the future. Many things in the yard have died/are dieing due to the summer heat and the ineffectiveness of the sprinkler system. and a mixed Pony seed pack, many varieties and lastly sapphire blue salvia https://parkseed.com/blue-queen-salvia-seeds/p/01802-PK-P1/?gclid=Cj0KCQiA3eGfBhCeARIsACpJNU88EVZxtkrdec_bXcTCsPA_e6648GhaA0x-9Yrf24jhl6D3OHA9pVUaAvoGEALw_wcB The way the sprinkler heads are now the spray of watr is blocked by plants that have grown up. The original placement of these heads also doesnt always make sense. There is a leak in one zone and the entire system neds to be fixed. This is a repair that will have to be done after the estate sale. I have found various nice things that i dont think should be in an estate sal but I have no idea where to take them. There is an old servic set, either silver or plated and old and nice. Anyway, will keep looking. Hang in there, Spring has to come sometime. I'll try and send some warm winds up north. Take care and tell Kodie and Panther I said hello.

I got my new mortgage, it doubled. And the extra start in April so the extra they paid last year is added in and its all divided over 9 months. I have figured out the finances and with my SS and whats saved I will also be paying a couple hundred a month when watr and elec are high. my best friend suggested i keep track of what I pay and get repaid after the estate sale or when the house sells. When the estate sale pays then that money can make up the extra. Also if I can sell that nice ring that money will go to house bills. Of course I will pay my bills and expenses which arent very high. As a result if my blood numbers are still high I wont be having a biopsy or anything else until my life is settled and I get me settled. I am so out of shape its scary. I'm wondering how many people walk into a jeweller's with an expensive ring and ask to sell it, and if they think they stole it. I've wondered as well if my supplements actually do any good. But things like Vit C and D I dont get alot from my nutrition. I doubt I gte enough fiber so I do a capsule every day. Since I dont eat much fish also do a Omega-3. I'm a fishsticks kind of guy sadly. Baked fish to me smells bad. And I shouldnt fry it. Maybe I should gt some fried catfish at the deli, its not greasy at all and very tasty. Hoping the next storm is mild. Crazy weather you get. panther has learned some good coping strategies I'm sure. Its nice how he and kodie have bonded. Sons of different Mothers. Read that coffee is good for things. I cant drink coffe from grounds thanks to the acidity but I have an instant thats good. I also have Green Tea and peppermint tea that I rotate around. It's funny that the day of my last appt i was thinking of getting a beer. But the visit killed that idea. I dont want anything that might elevate my numbers, not that it matters. But if th numbers will come down he will leave me alone, I hope. I do notice my system has been slow healing after my surgery. So I'm thinking that's why my numbers are still up. My foot is healing but still not done. the other cut on my foot healed faster but still not entirely done. When does it gte warm enough for plants to start growing green again? Guessing you wouldnt really need to plant anything as green as it is naturally. Lol, I remember Wizard of Oz. I feel like the kid on Christmas Story, so many layers he cant move. When I was a kid I looked like Ralphie. What a claim to fame. Risk assessment? A good thing I suppose. Do they do the cutting themselves if they want more done? My neighbors HUGE tree has long since spilled over the fence. If I had the money I'd hire someone to trim it off my yard. And the elec company to trim branches away from the lines. But I dont have the money and as I'm leaving I dont care too much. Thats the drawback to not having an alley out back. Good luck getting equipment in to trim trees. I'm tempted to trim what I can aways back but wont get near wires and cables. Peony are pretty. I added some to my order. ..good idea. I realize that what I plant may not come up til next year or maybe not at all. The Bluebonnets I planted last year didnt come up. But apparently I planted some bulbs and forgot because theyre coming up strong now. Hopefully I'm leaving the next owner with a decent garden to start with. Stay warm and take care.

Oh my goodness, 16 hours, wish there was someone to help you. Hope this next snow is less. Are you going to run out of wood? Saw the GI doc today. PCP said its the sludge in my gallbladder. GI barely mentioned it. He went over my ultrasound and it all looks fine. He went over my blood test results and all is fine except the 2 liver markers, the alkaline phosphatase went back down. he thinks theyre in response to the drugs at surgery and they damaged the liver. He told me not to take anything for the enxt 6 weeks except start Vit E and Milk Thistle to try and help the liver. If the two numbers dont come down he wants to do a biopsy. I'm thinking at this point I will say no. Honestly, I feel fine and I think the liver is just slow healing from the effects of surgery. So if need be i will suggest we wait a few months and do another blood test. I asked if I need to avoid any foods and he said no, regular diet. He's a very nice man. Wish he as my PCP. What am I supposed to think that my PCP says its the sludge in my gallbladder and the GI says its the liver. I'm going to start cleaning house and going over the estate one more time. My brother STILL hasnt replied to my emails w/ pics of items asking what he wants. He had his chance and I'm in no mood to play games. I was looking at the big picture he wanted at one time. its huge. I would have to have it boxed and shipped special, and i'm not paying for that. I ran the numbers. Depending on how much the mortgage goes up and i'm guessing it almost doubles now. I can devote my entire SS to the house bills and then pay a couple hundred from my own pocket plus my own bills and food, but I can survive the year but not at all next year. Yes, I had read that they can take the gb out in keyhole surgery like they did my prostate. That if needed, like a biopsy, would depend on my neighbors picking me up. I really think I'm saying no to a biopsy. Anyway, it is wonderful what they can do these days. Turns out when i had my surgery there was my surgeon, the anesthesiologist and one more doctor. Who filed a bill for 6k. he is out of network. but IF I understand properly since the hospital is in ntwork and I had no prior knowledge of him and hadnt approved of him, they cant balance bill surprise me. Oddly they misfiled and were denied. They need to file again, i foresee trouble. *The sooner I am free of medical stuff the better. I will not relax til then.* I think after the current matter is settled I'm ignoring them for the year. I need to finish business and seriously get back in shape again. One cant just keep having medical procedures. Poor Panther lost his buddy for a few days. I used to love the cold. but now i stay inside and war layers. I have an electric blanket at night. I guess he has his own blankets. I wonder if he's hot in summer with all that fat. I should have asked the GI about what the PCP thought. I think they should talk and come to one conclusion. But they dont have time. Chaffle dogs look good. Whats in them? I'm making chicken tomorrow. Pulled chicken simmered in broth, really tender. Supposed to warm up through the weekend. I may weed the beds. Just putting seed in, no money for anything else. What kind of flowers do you like? Im at least doing morning glory, pumpkins and maybe watermelon. Maybe some sage or salvia. I think I'll make some Peppermint tea. Stay warm and take care.

Hope you didnt get too much snow. We were upper 70s today and cold front will have us upper 40s tomorrow. had a call from my PCP's office. Lady gave me a message from my doctor. Said the ultrasound indicated I have 'sludge' in my Gall Bladder. I asked does that mean there's no cancer or anything else. She said yes because if there was she would mention it. She wants an ultrasound again in June. Friday I go see my GI doctor and hoping he doesnt see anything else. I admit to being dumb as far as the pcp/specialist relationship. I thought she had handed me off to him and now she's telling me what's wrong. So why am I seeing a specialist? Anyway, will see what the GI doc has to say and how we treat it. I've read with a restrictive diet and can also use meds. I have no symptoms and no pain so I dont see a need for surgery. I also assume since it wasn't mentioned she didn't see any gallstones. From what I read once the cause goes away the Gall Bladder should clear. We shall see. Hoping and praying my PCP is correct and i don't need any more medical help. Ordering some flower and pumpkin seeds. Going to clean out the flower beds and plant em in. Noticed some spots on the trim outside that need to be scraped and repainted. Don't really care to get high up on a ladder but with the mortgage going up there will be no money for a painter. But then I'll hold my breath til friday and see if I get some good news. Then I'll exhale and get on with Life. Anyway, thats where things are here. Hoping your weather stays mild and you can get some peace and quiet. How's Kodie and Panther doing? Take good care.