MariesBabyGirl1990 Posted August 23, 2018 Report Share Posted August 23, 2018 Hi everyone, i am new to this group. My beautiful mam passed away in Oct '15. ever since that harrowing night i have been smoking cigarettes. before that day i never smoked a day in my life (expect for experimenting with cigarettes. i tried one - wasn't keen) i also have a lung condition - I was born at 27 weeks gestation and am lucky to be here today. I'm 28 years old. I was too young to lose my mam. She was my best friend i was so extremely close to her and miss her beyond life itself. So anyway, i started smoking the night she passed... I could smoke up to about 10/15 a day, it depends i suppose. If im stressed i find i smoke a hell of a lot more. My breathing has become awful. i have been back and fourth to the emergency room with it countless time but i am always dismissed and told "its all in my head" or "that i am fine". expect for one time, a very nice nurse ran a whole battery of tests and she bluntly said to me in a very nice way that if I DON'T stop smoking now - that i wont see 30 years old. I couldn't believe it, but yet, here i am still smoking. i cant give up, im not ready yet and i don't want to. My son is 6 years old and i know that he needs me around but i will be ok, i know i will. everybody is on my back about me smoking, me da, me husband, me family Why cant they just leave me alone and mind their own business? Its my life and i should be able to live it the way i choose to... Am i selfish for smoking? Its how i can cope the best. I really do find it helps me... I know that may sound strange.. but it does, i cant explain it, but it does. MariesBabyGirl xxx Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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