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Kieron

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  • Your relationship to the individual who died
    Partner, best friend
  • Date of Death
    3/22/2017
  • Name/Location of Hospice if they were involved:
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    Male
  • Location (city, state)
    Mn

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  1. The other ones are "You can't miss it" with respect to driving directions. Supremely aggravating, the last thing you need to be dealing with. Cynically, I suspect this type of confusion and chaos is deliberate, to drive people crazy.
  2. Welcome, James, and sorry to read what you had endured. Kidney disease/ESRD is probably one of the worst afflictions out there. My partner lived with it for 14 years but eventually it wore him down. As you say, those last few months... I can kind of understand thinking about someone new. Loneliness is certainly a real thing and it's a human and very natural thing to want company. When I talked to a therapist about it a few years ago, she had the view that it was understandable, although possibly more of a "guy thing." I think she said further that men who are widowed sometimes remar
  3. This is correct. Same with IRS, Social Security or legal matters. They *never* call you if it's legit, although your bank will call you if there's something funny going on. There's so much deception out there. I know someone who was scammed out of $6700 in fraudulent charges through a fake Amazon customer service number and she made some purchases at the direction of the fake representative, in order to get other charges refunded somehow, and got ripped off.
  4. Yeah, I heard it said that "You can't make new old friends." I have fewer and fewer of them, and this damned pandemic is reducing that number even further. And it's not like I can make friends easily to begin with!
  5. wow, I missed this thread of people's sudden losses. I am sorry to read about these, as well. ☹️
  6. You and Dee are both right, of course. It's the regrets talking, as we know. And as you say, Dee, with the country being in such upheaval, well, it could be worse for me.
  7. I'm kind of on the same wavelength. It's his 64th birthday today, and the angle of the light is just like it is on March 22 when he died, at the opposite end of the year. Only now, the temperatures are warmer and the color of the sky is hazier and the changing trees add a yellow/orange cast to the light coming through the leaves. I still don't know what I am going to do with this place or with myself, and I don't know why I feel like I "should" have it figured out. I was going through my journal a few days ago, and noticing how chaotic my life was then. I'm glad it's more settled bu
  8. It was one of those quotes that instantly felt "right" on a gut level and it was easily committed to memory.
  9. People do strange things in the throes of grief. I've seen it and lived it. I can certainly understand that you feel dumbfounded and hurt by his behavior, and I'm sorry to say there often is no explanation to be had. Probably better that you find out *now* what he's like during hard times, versus making a life with him and *then* finding out how undependable or erratic he can become.
  10. I don't recall who originally said this which I found on a Tumblr blog, but I saved it because I have done the Mixed-Message Tango a few times in my life. "If you can’t figure out where you stand with someone, it might be time to stop standing and start walking." And the great thing about this quote is that it is not limited to love relationships.
  11. Hello, Marty will explain more soon, I'm sure, but hospice can be done at home! Like you, I didn't know that, and I wish I had known sooner. I thought hospice was a place a person goes to when they are dying. It can be at a hospital, yes, but mostly it is at home where the person is most comfortable, where family and friends can drop by. If nothing else, setting up hospice will take some of the burden off of you so you can spend more time sitting with your dad, enjoying one another's company.
  12. Sheesh, that's so typical. 🙄 Oblivious! The only thing he can think of is to try to hospitalize you or suggest a group therapy setting?
  13. I think anyone who shares our life with another person to the degree we have, you're going to step on toes, be short with one another, argue, bicker, snipe, and whine, and probably worse. We often set the petty, graceless sides of ourselves out on display around those who know us best, and it aint pretty. If we're lucky, they forgive. I, too, have those nagging regrets. I remember being annoyed or angry but cannot for the life of me remember what it was about. To paraphrase Dee, if I knew then what I know now... I wanted to add something: it's wise to be cautious of that word sh
  14. Kay, I think it's a measure of your resilience that you're here to tell the tale! Most people would have curled up into a ball and given up long since.
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