KathyD Posted April 29, 2006 Report Share Posted April 29, 2006 Hi everyone,I was wondering how you all managed to sleep at night after your loved one or ones died. My Dad passed a month ago and I can't fall asleep unless I resort to bad behaviors such as drinking too much. If I lie in bed with my mind running in circles and dredging up memories (which is basically what happens) I wind up sobbing all night. Even exhaustion doesn't help - I'll konk out for a while then wake up in tears again. I've been able to keep it together for the most part during the day (although there are daily tearfests) but I've always had trouble sleeping and this had made it much worse. My doctor prescribed the sleeping medication Ambien but that doesn't do me any good either. One night I tried taking two Ambien and two over the counter sleep medications to no avail. Alcohol numbs my mind enough to let me fall asleep and stay asleep through the night, but I know it's a destructive coping mechanism. At this point I'm doing what I can to survive and if that's what I have to do to have a restful night I say to hell with it. But I don't want to keep doing this forever! Meditation, relaxing techniques, etc., are worthless right now because my grief is so new and raw. My Dad was the most important person in my life, the love of my life, and I still am not sure if I've truly accepted he's gone.I was also wondering if anyone started getting strange nightmares? I've had dreams with Dad in them but they aren't upsetting; however, I've been having very strange surreal nightmares that I can't get out of. This has happened infrequently before but it seems to be recurring more often - had two before I got up this morning. I hope no one preaches about what I'm doing wrong (I know it's wrong) but I'd be interested in hearing about others' experiences and how they handled the sleep issue. Thanks,Kathy Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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