mokie Posted June 19, 2006 Report Share Posted June 19, 2006 hello. not sure where to post this. i've been here a couple times. i had a petloss back in october 2005. on the 28th to be exact. my beloved 22 year old cat. she was a wonderful companion for so many years. i took her loss really hard. still hard to go on without her.i have been depressed ever since. to the point of sucidal thoughts. i'v been seeing a psychiatrist and talking with a counselor for a while now. i was just wondering if anyone else has experenced this. going from griefing over a petloss or even human to a major depression. from what i understand its a chemical imbalance and the only thing that will help is medication. well, i'm the last one to want to take medication .... for anything. i'm trying so hard to deal with this on my own but i can't anymore and to me to have to take medication i feel its a personal failure.talking with my counselor and doctor they feel my main cause for depression is an accumulation of a couple losses and then when i lost my cat it pushed me over the edge. i lost both parents. dad 6 years ago from natural causes. he was 88. but my mom, 4 years ago in a tragic accident. she was hit and killed by a car. i thought i was ok with their losses. didn't take them as hard as my cat. when i lost my cat i guess that pushed me over the edge and i feel abandonded now. i didn't see it at the time but i do now after talking with the counselor and doctor. its such a strugle every day. every day i have to force myself to do this or that. to even tend to my other pets i have. thats not right. i care about them but then again i don't care at all what happens to me. i got so raging a while back i cut myself on purpose. feeling physical pain was nice instead of feeling emotional pain. i havne't been to that point since but i get close still sometimes.well, thanks for listening and if anyone has a simular experience can i hear about it and how you handled it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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